03/14/2006 10:55
First Weigh in...
Yesterday was Jes and my first weigh in at weight watchers since starting the program. I wasn't going in to it with expectations, as I know my weight fluctuates wildly regardless whether I'm eating healthy or not; however, Jes lost 3 pounds and I lost 5! Whoopee! So that felt good... I guess what makes me more happy is that I already FEEL healthier. Waking up early naturally, feeling literally lighter and having more energy, feeling happy and grateful. I feel good for the first time in my life ... like i'm doing something for me.
03/12/2006 09:42
Early AM revelations
1. this will probably be a big DUH moment for everyone else... but I just had a revelation. the last time I had started eating healthier and working out more, I had begun to naturally wake up earlier and earlier... and wasn't entirely sure why... and then when I have been at my worst, like the last few months, I am constantly tired and couldn't figure it out. i'd wake up after 10 hours of sleep and still be tired, and I knew this wasn't my depression really. Well, here I am 5 days into WW and starting to wake up earlier... yesterday at 7:15 (on a saturday for pete's sake) and today I forced myself to fall back asleep until 9:30, but I really first woke up at 5:30! Wow. I'm already starting to feel fresh and more alive!
2) Last night I went out for dinner and there was very little on the menu that would be considered that healthy... or at least nothing appeared that way to me. Except the Ahi Tuna Salad... now normally I like Tuna... but this time for some reason I didn't. And mind you I have every single one of my flex points still available to me this week. So really I could have gotten anything, but this was my first restaurant dinner out with my husband, and I'm thinking to myself... the point of joining WW is to start to make the right choice when out, not to splurge and get the cheeseburger and fries and piss away all my points. I thought about the vegetable panini (hey at least it was vegetables....) but I knew with the cheese and focaccia bread, and probably the spread... it would be a points nightmare. So I went with the Ahi Tuna salad. I didn't like it. And I was upset... upset because it upset me to be wasting 10 or more points on something I didn't enjoy... upset to be missing out on the cheeseburger. upset that at the end of the meal, I snagged 5 fries and 3 bites of Eric's cheeseburger to make myself feel better.... here's what's the revelation... this morning i'm not upset about the salad.. although I know I won't order it again, not upset about the waste of points, and feel just perfectly fine about everything. So, maybe having ordered a cheeseburger and fries would never have made me feel any better in the end.
03/10/2006 21:47
still feeling good!
3 days in to it, and i still feel positive. this is a big feat for me, because usually i get a little into a new regime and get skeptical. what i really appreciate is having freedom. freedom to choose to eat whatever i like, whenever i like, as long as i modify the rest of my day.
i've been reading some of the other girls' blogs on here.. and it's so helpful just to hear and know that other people are out there struggling, and succeeding and doing this right along side me. i keep coming up with one after another that have lost 20-30-40 lbs and can't believe that maybe by the summer time or end of summer i could be at that same point. i can't even fathom being down in the 16/18 size again!
i'm nervous for my weigh in next tuesday... i'm afraid i won't have lost anything, or that maybe i'm doing this wrong... should i be trying to eat less than my target points? should i be working out more? i guess we'll see what the scale says on tuesday.
03/09/2006 16:54
2nd day.
I'm actually surprised how easy WW seems it will be. I really like the concept of being able to eat what i want and just adjusting the day to fit the treat in there... and really what i need to learn is portion control and eat healthier. i mean, yes, i'm hungry right now, but that's my choice so that i can splurge tonight at Fuji-Ya. I think i can really do this. i'm excited to begin to know the real me.
Also.. It's crazy.. normally i'm not a snacker.. but now after trying to make healthy choices, i'm finding i have to have snacks in order to fit my points in! it's nice to come to the end of a day and realize you have a ton of points....
03/07/2006 22:19
25 reasons to do WW
1. Anthropologie!! JCREW, Banana, Urban, Arden B., Gap, Bebe, etc... !!! And all instore! I want the mall to be my oyster!
2. To have children, soon!
3. To not feel lethargic all the time.
4. To feel beautiful, or sexy in men's eyes... not just when they get to know my personality.
5. I would like my driver's license to be accurate.
6. I want to be able to buy fashion tights at urban or TGT without worrying about whether they will fit.
7. To not have my legs rub together on a hot summer day or any other day.
8. To make my grandparents and parents stop having to constantly worry and remind me of my health.
9. To encourage my husband to lose weight as well.
10. I don't want people to view me as the adorable chubby girl.
11. I want to know the real me. Not the person who has been a result of depression and sabotage.
12. I want to fit into racing suits again.
13. I want to do a triathalon and to run the TC and San Fran marathons.
14. I don't want to use food as a drug.
15. I don't want diabetes, or heart disease, especially at an early age.
16. I don't want my children to know me as sedentary and fat.
17. I want to be in control of myself, let alone my eating habits.
18. I want my children to be active and be healthy and so I need to learn how to be an appropriate role model.
19. I want to be able to wear tshirts and show my arms.
20. I want to be toned and a little muscled.
21. I want to be able to wear normal knee high boots... very badly.
22. I want to be in shape for our vacation to Hawaii, so that I can wear tank tops, skirts, and bathing suits and not feel self conscious.
23. I want to buy a pair of true religion jeans.
24. I want to shop at Victoria's Secret.
25. I want to prove to myself that I can accomplish a goal... and not quit.
