I woke up this morning, and grudgingly stepped onto the scale. Now, since I started WW, I haven't been getting on every day. I'm trying hard not to be neurotic - on every level - about my progress. But back to the story at hand....
I stepped on, and all that damn overeating last night gave me two extra lbs back! I'm devastated, heartbroken, I feel like I've been slapped in the face. One NIGHT of eating past satiety and I gain back a week's worth of work! I'm not sure whether to be happy to see what a negative result gross Chinese food has on my body, or whether I should be upset that I broke all my good habits I've been working on lately.
Too be honest, what I'm most disappointed about was that I feel that I've failed myself. and then I'm disappointed because I feel disappointed and wishing I could be one of those people that is ok with screwing up every once in a while. I mean why I can't I just accept the fact that every once in a while I'm going to make a mistake? I just don't get it. I love and accept myself, I love and accept myself. My mind isn't buying this mantra a bit. Sigh.
And this brings me to another gripe. Why is nothing every good enough. Why can I not just be delighted with all the wonderful progress, ideas, suggestions, love, friendship, intellect, creativity, ingenuity, etc... that are my strengths.. Grr. I love and accept myself, I have wonderful qualities to share and express. I love and accept myself.
Posted By: k8
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04/06/2006 18:59
I Can Relate!
I can relate to the fast food pitfall. i was on that jag for a long time, I have found that there is no "safe" way to approach fast food. If I go there, I will screw up, even the salads are fattening. I have to avoid it like the plague. I found that I would get into trouble by getting hungry and not planning ahead. Now I carry apples, almonds, and hard boiled eggs in my car to avoid eating out. Even regular restaurants are off limits unless I have been invited and have to go. Also, watching the movie "supersize It" helped alot because it really grossed me out. I still screw up when I don't plan ahead or have a bout of depression over still being fat despite all of my efforts, but every time you don't screw up is huge. Keep the faith girl, you've already lost almost 10 lbs- that's not easy!
I love you! :-) I know that this is hard. Believe me... those monsters lurk around every corner!! and yes, i know they accasionally get you. BUT you do do need to give up ever. You are gorgeous and beautiful... Love you lots! Jen
It's human nature to be hard on yourself..but you should focus on your progress so far. Don't be so upset over screwing up because it is going to happen. The faster you pick yourself up the faster and more effectively you will combat pitfalls...besides you are trying to lose weight it is a hard and courageous task...be proud of yourself...big deal you overindulged one night just be more careful today:)
Katie, you cannot go by what the scale says that day!!!!! You know that your body fluxuates during the week and the ONLY real way to weigh yourself is once a week at the same time!!! You probably have not gain 2 pounds just from one night worth of eating!!!!! Come ON!!!!! You are doing great, almost ten pounds!!!
u ok?? I hope that you know you are doing an incredible job!! Go read my blog pretty please with SPLENDA on top... :-) I had a great weekend! I hope that everything is going very well for you. ReMembeR you are gorgeous!! :-) Have a wonder, terrific, fantanstic day!! :-) LATER!!!! MUCH LOVE and LUCK!!! Jen
Hey kate....there's no way you gained two pounds from chinese. SO much salt in the stuff. I'm sure it was just bloat. Drink lots of water and don't worry about the scale. Slow and steady!
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04/12/2006 22:42
that darn scale!!!
You know we all need a little snack here and there.. you are doing great... so what you had chinese food.. they use alot of salt so it could be that you are just bloated... don't beat yourself up... think of it as little tiny moment of amnesia.. you forgot who and what you were doing.. oh my god how did this chinese food get into my mouth.. hey what ever works so you do not feel like you failed.. you are doing a amazing job. I have been trying to lose my weight for ever. I have many little amnesia moments.. Then I start new and so on. I hope you feel better..
