I've been bad, bad, bad. Not only have I not logged in a month, I've also gained 4 pounds. I absolutely HAVE to get back on the wagon. This is just not acceptable. In my own defense, there has been a lot of chaos at my house this past month, but thats over and I have to get serious again.
I'm not happy at 180. I would really like to lose 30 more pounds. I've been working the past couple of days on increasing my water and green tea intake and decreasing my Dr. Pepper intake. It is so easy to slip back into bad habits and I've been drinking way too much.
As of today I"m back on the wagon. My mini-goal is 175. I'm going to see my new granddaughter next month and I'd like to weigh at least 170 when I do that. There are so many reasons that I really DO want to lose weight, most of them vain, but also for my health. I don't want to be 50 and fat, so I'm changing my goal to 150 by 06/30/2008. I think I need a diet buddy. None of my previous buddies are still blogging, so I'll have to search for another.
Guess that's enough rambling for now. I hope everyone is having a great day. TTYL
I found a picture that I know was taken last July when my sisters were here and when I weighed 207 pounds. OMG!!! I knew I was big but I guess I didn't realize or remember how big I had gotten!! Thats a real eye opener. Even though I still weigh as much as I did when I was 9 months pregnant and even though I still feel big at times, I am SO glad that I don't look like that anymore!!! I think I"m going to print that pic and put it on my refrigerator as a reminder that I never want to be that big again.
Happy Birthday to all my fellow EP'ers born today!! This was also the day I supposed to have made my goal. Unfortunately, I still lack 16 pounds, but thats okay. I've lost 31 and that is about 2/3 of my goal and I'm great with that. Those size 12 jeans are getting loose too. In fact, I have a pair of 10's now that are comfortable so what could I possibly have to be unhappy about. My new goal is going to be October 1. I have a new granddaughter due then and I want people to say "Dang, you look GOOD for a grandma!" Hope everyone has a GREAT day and Happy 4th of July. TTYL
I was just thinking and looking at my charts and I realized 2 things. First, before this week I had 64 days without losing an ounce. At the time, I was so stressed out by life events that I didn't even care. Luckily I didn't gain anything either. Second, I noticed that of the 6 friends on my blog only 3 are still blogging.
In the past I've lost weight and gained it right back again but this time that didn't happen. The only conclusion I can make of all of this is that blogging at least kept me accountable for what I HAD lost even when I wasnt actively dieting. How cool is that? Maybe, just maybe, at not quite 49 years old I will actually get it right this time. I want to thank every one of you who has posted on my blog with words of encouragement and encourage everyone else to keep blogging. Even if you don't feel like dieting, if you've fallen off the wagon, just drop in to say hi. You're bound to find the friend(s) and/or encouragement that you need to make that breakthrough and reach your goal.
Okay, I'm off my soapbox now. Hope everybody has a great evening. TTYL!!
I finally broke 180 and weighed in this morning at exactly 179. Hallelujah!!! My goal was to weigh 160 by July 1 but I may not make that and thats okay. My new goal will be to weigh 160 by October when my new granddaughter is born. I'm just SO happy to see Mr. 180 be on his way!! Hope everyone else is having a great day too. I'm off to work. TTYL!!
I've shopped all day looking for items that my MIL needs for her new "senior apartment" as we call it. I never thought I would ever say I'm sick of shopping but today I am. Check with me again tomorrow though.
I've yet to lose another ounce but I saw a friend in the hallway at work today and she asked if I had lost weight. I told her a little bit. She said little bit my A$$ you look really good! Thats really nice to hear but I'm so ready to start losing again. Hopefully after my MIL gets settled in I can concentrate a little more on my diet.
For not blogging for 3 weeks and for being stalled at 180 for god knows how long. I ruptured a disk in my neck a few months ago and have had 2 rounds of steroids so I guess the fact that I haven't GAINED weight is a miracle in itself. I've also been dealing with elder issues - trying to arrange for my MIL to live in an assisted living facility and just KNOWING that she was going to fight us tooth and nail. Lo and behold when we finally screwed up the courage to bring it up, prepared with brochures and arguments about her comfort and her safety, her simple answer was "I think that's a good idea." WHEW!!!! Maybe now that the stress is a little less I can get back on the weight loss wagon!
While years ago I would have been totally satisfied with having lost 27 pounds and would probably have let it go at that, I'm totally dissatisfied with weighing 180 pounds. There are still flabby spots on me and I hate that. I've got to get more motivated.
My friend DB had to write an open letter to Mr. 160 in order to get him to move on down the road, and for me it is coming to that point with Mr. 180. I'm sick of him!! He's just a hanger-on that serves no useful purpose!! I really appreciated seeing him several weeks ago, but he's definitely overstayed his welcome. IT'S TIME TO MOVE ON, 180. PACK YOUR STUFF AND HIT THE ROAD!!
Well, all these months I've been proud of myself for losing weight and getting smaller. I've been thinking that I've looked good and sometimes even sexy. I've looked into the mirror and seen smaller hips, more narrow waist, thinner face.....and now BAM!!!! reality has set in. I still weigh 180 pounds. I'm no lightweight. How in the world does a persons body image change so fast. I've gone from seeing a fat woman to seeing an acceptable reflection in the mirror to realizing I'm not near as thin as I think I am (translation: You're just a smaller fat woman). I wish I could see how I look to other people and be objective about it. Do you suppose I'll EVER feel truly thin? I'm not at all satisfied with this situation. Its time to get on the stick and start losing weight again.
I don't see my neighbor much in the winter cause I hate the cold and so does she, but I saw her today and she said oh, you've lost weight. She and her husband went on and on about "you look good. I know you weren't sitting in the house doing nothing all winter." That is so cool. It's a reward that's almost better than money. :0) Hope everyone else is having a good day too. TTYL.
Hope everyone has a GREAT day and Happy 4th of July. TTYL
