wellllll it's been a long long long time since I've posted.  I didn't realize how long it had been.. I look at the other blogs but don't write my own... thanks Shelly for checkin on me.. and it's so good to see Gwynn back.. and others.

 

Well since my birthday I've not lost anything zilch nada nothing...so much for that motivation.  Since then life has been a bit odd.. all of last year and even some of this year has just been not normal for me.  I've been in a funk since not long after my birthday.  In mid August I lost my 10 year old  sweet sweet golden retriever Honey to cancer.. I miss her exuberant joy!  I think my funk began there. A week or so later I went on a long road trip with a long time guy (former boyfriend) friend to pick up his motorcycle after he got hurt on the way to Sturgis and had to leave it.  What I thought would be a wonderful time turned out to be not so fun.. he was ultra moody. We have never ever had cross words with each other and I was not used to that..we spent way to long together looking at corn and bumpy roads.  But we got to S. Dakota black hills,, he was still grumpy but the scenery made up for that for a bit.  Then I made a huge error at work and they called me back.. flew me back so I could go on a business trip to Orlando...which in a way was a blessing.. I got out of the trip without the long drive back, I got to see a dear friend who just a few days later had a stroke and died, and then I finished it out at the beach... I really think that whole mistake thing was really a God thing so that I could see my dear friend Beulah one more time.  Although I have had a horrible time at work and feel like I've lost my bearings there..  it is getting better... so I feel like I've been in funk city and have had no desire to try and lose weight or do much exercise. ...which then I go to the doctor because I'm feeling stressed, having headaches, my knee hurts.. I find out that I'm probablyh peri-menapausal, have a little bit high  then did a blood test and also have the beginnings of type II diabetes so I GOT TO GET HEALTHY NOW....after that my mom's 15 year old lab had to be put down... I'm a huge animal lover and my pets are my children... I was with her till the end and then had to also comfort my grieving 80 year old mom.  This was her baby..   About a week later I got a new pet to keep my lab company. An 8 year old golden mix named Amy. Her previous owner had to go to senior care due to health reasons and couldnt' keep her. Amy is sweet but had what we thought was a fatty tumor on her foot... had it removed Tuesday and found out it is a form of cancer.. fortunately now it is at a low stage but we'll just have to see how things go. Right now she is healing from the surgery. She has to wear a cone.. poor thing. But she is a delight and my mom who lives very close has been babysitting.  I think is keeps her mind off of her dog.  amy has a lot of personality.   She's healing our hearts and hopefully she'll live a long time dispite the cancer she has. 

Today.. I was lazy.. it's 9p.m. and I have not changed out of my jammies. I've just done stuff around the house.. but I have been very diligent in my eating so that's good.   Today for breakfast I had 2 eggs and fresh fruit, lunch for a pizza soup.. which is low fat high fiber I got from a diet book... snack was yogurt dinner was some more soup and then for a night time snack I made a frozen fruit desert in my ninja blender thingy... frozen mixed fruit, honey, and skim milk.. OMG soooo good    0 fat and probably 100 calories.  I need to dust off all my healthy recipes and my walk away the pound tapes and get back on track...