Bunked off the gym tonight 

I am very cross with myself, not only did I bunk off, I stuffed my face before leaving, which made me feel sick, and continued stuffing my face once I decided to stay on the sofa 

Tomorrow is 'not' another day, because tomorrow I am at work and then out with the girls, not a bad thing by any measure of the imagination 

I love getting ready to go out, but I should remember, if I am not focused on my goal it will all spiral out of control and I will be on my merry way to 'big ass' land again, forever and a day 

HELP !!!!!!! I need someone to protect me from myself !!!!!!! 

I am just going to pour myself another bacardi n coke to consider the best way forward ..... won't be a mo ...... bugger I found an open packet of crisps in the cupboard as well, I best get rid of them ready for my new day tomorrow

I am watching Biggest Loser whilst eating crisps and drinking bacardi & coke !?!?!?! 

This is most DEFINITELY xDH's fault, and I am not having any more of it (well, I'll just finish the crisps and drink first ....)

Tomorrow night I will be getting myself dressed up and go out on the town as a single, independent woman - god that actually sounds very liberating 

And as such, I still want to be able to get my skinny but in my newly acquired mini skirts 

Sorry, I know I'm a Nana n all, but I still have a few years left in me to 'do' myself up 

OK, I best finish these blinking crisps, they're getting everywhere, and then tomorrow I might just start my new years resolution (give up alcohol ) hhhmmmmmm might have to think about that one 

Now before I go I must ask = Have you seen my daughter's blog ??  WOW !! Now she's someone we should be getting inspiration from !!! 'harryjsmummy'  xxxxx STEF YOU ROCK !!!!! 

Have a lovely day tomorrow, bye for now

Miss J  xxxx

FINISHED 

Hi y'all

Lovely to back in EP land again after all this time, shame I haven't been able to update my weight loss chart, I want to change my WWWWI to a WWMWI, except this Monday I think I got the times wrong and when I got there it was all locked up 

My DD has got a LLWI on Wednesday evening's now, so I am being the dutiful Nana-J and looking after my gorgeous grandchildren every Wednesday after work.

I might even try a WWTWI (weight watchers Tuesday weigh in, for those thinking WTF ? LOL !!! ) then I can go to the gym on a Monday night.

Oh the choices I have now, this being single marlarky isn't so bad after all ya know 

Monday - Step Class at the gym

Tuesday - WWTWI - if I get the time right 

Wednesday - Nana-J in d'house 

Thursday - Salsa-cise at the gym (yep still doing it)

Friday - GIRLS NIGHT OUT - Woo Hoo !!!!  Hopefully the men won't be shit LOL !!

Saturday - Dance-fit down the gym, then Nana-J springs into action again, and who knows what will happen after dark 

Sunday - Housework - NOT !!  There has got to be something better than that lifes too short !!

To be honest, cos I am always honest with you guys, I was in a bit of a state yesterday after the weekend I had, but I had a chat with xDHs best mate (he's on my side) and he told me a few things that set my mind straight, and calmed my nerves a bit.  

So, today I can do this  with ease 

WW in the UK have changed their diet plan, I still haven't really read through it properly, but it is about time I knew what NOT to do isn't it ??

I am doing my best to drink lots of water, cut out naughty things between meals, and enjoy my breakfast, dinner and tea.

I did let myself enjoy my christmas and new year break, and am sure the 'extra pounds' have now gone.  I just want it recorded properly.  My scales aren't digital, so I won't try to work out what they are saying, I will only 'sugar coat' it. So, I will 'weight' until my WWTWI and update my graph then - so fingers crossed.

Oh, I must say, yes, I did get to keep all my lovely xmas presents, well I bloody earnt them didn't I !!! 

I did do one silly thing though, in my rage, just after I had beaten him up (yes, you'll be pleased to hear I gave it a good go )  I threw all my jewellery at him, including my lovely Tag 'sparkly' watch - oops 

When he was packing his stuff he found a bit of it on the floor 

But hey !!  this is a 'happy' post, so the happy ending is, that once I had kicked his sorry ass (as a friend nicely put it) out the door, I found all the bits and it all clicked back together - MARVELLOUS 

It has no sentimental value what so ever, like most of the presents he has bought me, but it is gorgeous, and I love it (unlike him )

OK gotta go, my roomie from Jubai will be here any mo for dinner, unfortunately for her I'm cooking, but I have faith, I just hope she likes Beans on Toast  

Take care everyone, keep in touch

Love Jxxx

I haven't been for nearly 2 weeks !!!  My friends and family are doing their best to keep me occupied since DH went on his merry way. 

I tell you what, you can so easily get out of the swing of it, and forget the high you feel after doing a good 'fun' workout.

It doesn't help that I think DH is trying to make it seem as if I was a gym addict   I don't call 5 hours a week excessive - is it ?  It is a small amount of time compared to how many hours he spends down the pub I can't tell you

Anyway, here I am, and am looking forward to catching up with my friends here when the class starts.

As you have probably gathered my internet is down at home again.  It worked for about 20 minutes last night, very aggravating, so this free access at the gym is really handy.

I bunked off WW last week, but cannot miss 2 weeks in a row, cos just like the gym, I will slowly stop doing it all together and I really MUST NOT do that.  No way do I want to go back to how I used to be - I still haven't reached my target yet - god knows how close I have come in the past - but I will do it, even if it does take a life time 

Anyway, I was told I had lost a pound last night, which I was very pleased with.  I don't care that is spread over 2 weeks, I am just pleased it was a minus rather than  a plus figure.  I have been such a glutton just lately, I must sort myself out !!!

I have lots of nice things to look forward too, and one of those things is on Saturday night.  I am going to a charity ball with the girls, the girls that I am going to Dubai with, so it will be nice to have a trial run 'night out' with them - god I hope we get on  LOL !!

On Sunday the family are coming round for elevenses to celebrate my grandson's 2nd birthday.  It will be elevenses because he has a very busy social diary at the moment I'll have you know

Anyway, I have tried to catch up with you all but do find it hard when I have to grab the chance of internet access here and there

I hope you are all doing well, thank you for your support, I do have low days, but the majority of the time my personality pulls me through - GIRL POWER !!!

Off to my salsa-cise class now

Byeeee

Jxx

doesn't time fly when you're having fun

I did my first shop as a singleton yesterday, you'd have thought I was a vegetarian judging by the lack of meat in my trolley.  I am not a vegetarian, but that means I can enjoy the best of both worlds, plus the fact I will not be living off processed foods this week, I will be yanking my shirt sleeves up and actually preparing 'real' vegetables to go with the meat that is in the freezer

I am now the proud owner of a slow cooker, although I am still learning how to use it.  Well put it this way, I turned it on when I went to bed last night, to leave it to cook up a carrot soup for my dinner today.  After 8 hours the carrots were still hardish ???  Not exceptionally hard, but I thought after 8 hours they would have been mushy

Well, time for work, I didn't go to the gym at all last week, fingers crossed I get to my step class tonight, which at 8.20am this morning is the plan - so much can change in a day though can't it

It is a temprimental (??) as my xDH !!

Anyway, at work now, so thought I'd catch up

Was going to be good on my healthy eating campaign (can't bring myself to type 'd...i...e...t') but someone at work went and had a birthday, and went and brought cakes in and I went and had TWO   oops

Never mind, I had planned to go to the gym last night for my usual Salsa-cise ..... except my dad went and invited me to a Beaujolais Night at his local club, so what's a 'single' girl to do ??

Except I wasn't planning on bumping into my xDH there

One person commented 'I thought you said Julie was down the gym'  I just said that my dad had managed to twist my arm

We ended up surrounded by people who have no idea what is going on, it was a bit uncomfortable, although I loved the bit where people were saying how good I looked, in his ear-shot

I must say he looked like he'd had his hair cut, and was clean shaven and had been home and showered and changed - so who was he expecting to bump into then ??? (Mwah no doubt )

Friday already, which is just great.  I LOVE Friday's.  Tomorrow my dance teacher is off so I won't bother going to the gym (Oh god, I really must go next week though !!!) so I am going to be clearing the rubbish from the garden as exercise instead, and then I will pick my little grand-daughter up and spend the day with her - joy of joy's

I hope you all have a lovely weekend, stay warm

Bye for now

Jxx

PS : home scales aren't looking too bad considering my lack of effort this week - that won't last if I don't kick my butt sooner or later though, see ya !!

ie : DH has left the building .......

So this is me looking on the bright side 

Up until 5pm he was still dragging his heels.  He had arranged to rent a flat, and was being hounded by the estate agent to collect the key.  He text me 'again' asking if it is what 'I' want (Yet this was his decision ???)  In the end I said "don't take the flat, but if you stay we must do everything we can to work things out, although you must know that I have booked a holiday with the girls, we go on Dec 26th, that might make a difference'

and I was right, it did.  

Even though he has been away twice this year with his mates, and I have not been anywhere, my booking a week with the girls has made him walk out - which just about sums up just how much he didn't really want to try to work things out after all 

I know I am going to find it very hard to stay focused on eating healthily and going to the gym, the thought of curling up in a ball and lazing on the sofa day in day out seems the most attractive option, but I do not want to go back to the body I used to be - so thank goodness my internet at home is fixed 

I am gonna LOVE having you guys to talk to

But, just for tonight, please forgive me for indulging myself with my 3rd scotch n coke on the rocks 

Thanks for listening

Take care

Jxx

I ever ran 13 miles !!

I gave that 8.29 a mile challenge a go last night - god that got my heart rate up once I'd finished I can tell you.  The sweat was dripping off me afterwards, and I didn't even manage 8.29 in the end !

I could only get 9.26, I started with the treadmill speed at 5.0, then 5.5, then 6.0, then 6.5 where I stayed for a while, then 7.0, then 7.5, then for the last '20' of the mile I did 8.0 - aaaarrrggghhhh !!!!!!! God that mileometre was going slow gggrrrrrr !!!!

But I gave it a go, and can't ever see myself hitting 8.29 a mile (just the one mile I hasn't to add !!) but the challenge got me down the gym, which makes it really worth it.  I honestly wasn't going to bother to go last night, so I am glad Zed42 gave me some incentive - thank you matey xx

Once I'd failed at that challenge I then went on to do my salsa-cise class, always fun, and always a really good work out

So, all in all, I had a good night, made easier by the fact xDH has eventually agreed that it would be best if he moved out, which will take place over the weekend

My head is focus (at the moment) so it is onwards n upwards

I told my parents the 'news' last night, explaining that we would be staying 'friends' and hope that we can sort things out - time will tell

Anyway, I will now do some work, considering thats where I am right now

3lb on .....

and yes I did cry, but only in the privacy of my car as I drove home.  Mainly because my sister called me after getting my text.  I guess it was the straw that broke the camels back, if you know what I mean.

Before I ent to WW he was in, watching football.  I tentatively asked if he would be moving out (as I thought) or if he would attempt to share the house for the time being.  He didn't give me an answer....

I got back from WW and just went straight to bed.  I didn't do my dance-fit class last night, my knee wasn't quite right.  OK, thats an excuse, I guess couldn't be bothered to be honest 

I got up this morning and dusted myself off, so to speak.  My scales gave me a 'nice' reading, which I agree with.  My clothes aren't tight, infact I am wearing a baggy skirt today, which makes me feel even better

So that was yesterday and this is today, I WILL be in control.

I have sent him a text this morning asking for an answer - is he staying or is he going ??  No reply as yet .....

Now, I must remember that Zed42 is dangling a challenge infront of me... can I do it ???  I'll give it a go tonight and let ya know

Take care all

Jxxx

Well, I got back into my swing last night.  Did my dance-fit class at the gym, got showered and changed and went striaight to my WWWWI.

Like I have said before, since I did that blinking run I have just gained weight.  I have also had so many horrible things going on, which have now culminated in my DH (wrong phrase!) saying he wanted to split up ...... so ...... I am dealing with it.

When I got to WW I didn't want her telling me off for gaining again, infact I thought I was going to go up a stone bracket, so I explained what I have said in the paragraph above, and thankfully she was sympathetic towards me as I tentatively stood on the scales.

To my complete relief I had lost 2.5lb since I last went, except it looks like a gain on here because I have not been keeping my graph up to date just lately.

Never the less, I have been a good girl and recorded my current weight, which thankfully is still in the 10 stone bracket 'Thank the lord'

I am disappointed that my marriage has come to an end (he is due to move out soon)  although my x-DH is so screwed up in his own little mind that I reckon he is going to change his mind, which I am NOT going to accept.  I am taking it in my stride because this is not the first time he has said this to me in the 3 years we have been married, and I am not going to listen to his apologies any more

I have my health, a roof over my head and a wage, and my family who are wonderful

So .... onwards n upwards, there is no way I am going to be a couch potatoe and go into depression, and hit the bottle - he'll realise what he has lost in the end

GIRL POWER !!!

Have a good day everyone

Jxxx