Well I suppose I could if I tried harder, but my mind is buzzing.
Excuse me whilst I bend your ear .....
WORK - I have been working on the same contract for 3-4 years. The client was new to our company and I set up the department not knowing what to expect. It started with me and my boss, now it is me, the 2nd new boss to take over in the 3-4 years it has been running and 4 admin staff, so it has grown quite nicely. The client was a nice guy, who seemed to appreciate what we did and was friendly towards us, ie asking how our family are, chatting about his own. Over the past 6 months he has become Jekyle & Hide, he has complained about my manager, thus getting him elbowed out the company (for no good reason) and now we have the new guy working with me he is really taking the pee and requesting so many additional things, that I know (having set up the dept) it will take me a month of Sundays to produce, but he wants them all NOW !!
I have lost count how many times I have held my head in my hands wishing for someone to take me away from all this .....
I have considered going to see the big boss of my company and letting him know how I feel, but I wonder if I might shoot myself in the foot ?? This is the best company I have ever worked for, a friendly, easy going, generous company, except the client is driving me away
The thought of putting a CV together turns my stomach, I think I have lost confidence in myself working anywhere else (I have been here 7 years)
I am not sure what to do, I will have to continue to consider which direction I should go ....
HOME - I would love to take the rest of the week off sick and have a good sort out at home. We are about to start having major refurb work at home, something I have never experienced before, but I am under no illusion that it is going to be an awful experience, until we eventually get straight again. It should take about 12 weeks, and it will affect the whole house. We will have to move out for a certain period of time, but nothing is set in stone yet.
I really want to get rid of all the old junk that I won't want in my 'new' house, but the thought of doing it at the weekends is so annoying - I have better things to do than go to work Monday - Friday
WW - Do you know what, I am completely ruining all my hard work just lately. I was so thrown by my back problems, I have now lost my motivation in the mornings. I still get up earlier than I need to, but I check out EP instead of putting my exercise DVD on. And if that isn't enough, I was still eating birthday cakes at work today and when I got home I 'got rid of' that bloody chocolate that has been in the fridge for I don't know how long !!!!! (I ate it, so i won't be bugging me anymore !!)
IN GENERAL - I need to make some changes, sort my blinking job out, get myself to target and wind the clock forward about 3 months, which would mean I would now be sitting in my new living room, on my new sofa, with our new stereo on around the house, over looking my open plan kitchen with new black glittery work tops, and bi-folding doors ......... cor I'm feeling better already
If I could turn the clocks forward 3 months I would be at target too, going to my WIs free of charge, and attempting to start some sort of training programme ready for the half marathon in October
OK - I will end this with some positives, and hopefully I will be able to go to bed and go to sleep ..... mmmmmmm ...... now what shall I type ??
1. I have lost 2.5 stone
2. I have out grown 3 dress sizes
3. I am another year older, but look better than I have done in years
4. My husband is very good to me (most of the time )
5. I am the best wife EVER !! (getting the hang of this now )
6. I will earn my money and ignore the crap at work (if I can)
7. I will get up tomorrow and put my exercise DVD on - and do it
8. I can wear my new t-shirt to Dance Fit class tomorrow, it says "Dance like no one is watching"
9. I will go to my WI (Zed42!!!) and face the music (bugger, is that positive ? I guess so ....)
10. You can stop reading - now that IS positive, for those of you who bothered to read this drivel !!
Thank you for being there xxxxx
J
PS - It is now 1.30am - UG !
PPS - Do I still have to get up early and do my exercise DVD ?? .... OK, I'm going now .... nite xx
My graph says it all. I haven't had a WI yet, but I can't see me losing any weight this week, and if I stay the same it will be a miracle
I know I should think positive, I also know that if I did some exercise it might just help my cause, but I am choosing to cut down on my exercise as I get closer to my goal, because I know I won't be able to keep the exercise routines up for the rest of my life, so I want to get to goal (eventually) and maintain without making myself exercise more than I want to
Exercise is good for you and I won't be ruling it out completely. I will still be doing the dance fit classes at the gym, when my social life allows LOL !! Infact I will be at my dance fit class tomorrow before my WI, and Thursday and Saturday
It was my turn to buy cakes for work colleagues yesterday, and I made some great choices - all naughty, but VERY nice, which made it all the more difficult to ignore them, so I didn't
I guess you could say, this is my healthy life style and I will get to my target when I get to my target
The plan for today is to stay within my points, I wonder how I'll do ?
OK, time to create my breakfast before getting ready for work
I hope you all achieve what you set out to achieve today, we'll get there
After our weekend away we had promised to call in on my dad at The Mens Club as he had my birthday card and pressie for me to collect.
The 'plan' was to get the early (5.30pm) have a couple of drinks and go home for dinner.
We got there at 5.30pm, and I had a bacardi & diet coke and opened my pressie. I then had a diet coke, then ......... well then it all went wrong
There were about 10 people in there, and we were each buying a round. So everyone wanted to make sure they had bought a round, to keep it fair, and as it was my birthday everyone wanted to make sure they got me a bacardi
Once it got to 9pm I was happy to go home with no dinner, but DH had the munchies and dragged me kicking n screaming into a chinese restaurant
So today I have woken up with tummy ache. My new bod doesn't like being poisoned anymore, it wants to be treated with respect, and given nice, healthy food and drink, not rubbish, so I am now feeling a little worse for wear.
If I exercised before work I reckon I would be very ill, so I am still taking it easy - where's my determinaton gone ?? I know, my determination has already got me this far, now I need to try to live my new life in my new body, and make sure that next time I go out I STAY IN CONTROL, and respect my new body, it isn't my old one, the one I used to abuse with crap food and drink choices, thats what got me over weight in the first place, and that ain't me anymore !!!
And of course, as it was my birthday it is now my turn to buy lots of cakes for my colleagues at work - how am I going to do that without having one or two myself ?? Blimey this birthday is going on forever
I have added a new photo to show our progress (thats me & mum) and you can see a difference, which is good
We had a lovely meal with my mum, and a couple of glasses of vino. Then DH and I drove down to Brighton, a favourite haunt of our's. We stay in a hotel right on the front, where you can walk straight into The Lanes at the back of the hotel. I love it there
As you know DH has already treated me to my new glasses for my birthday, so being taken away was a lovely surprise, but if that wasn't enough I got presents to
Perfume, new jeans, track suit bottoms, t shirt, ski trousers to go with my new jacket he bought me the other week, I have been spoilt rotten - it was FANTASTIC
I also got some birthday money, new undies from my sister and a trip to Ireland from my best mate How lucky can one girl be ??
We went out for a meal on Friday, although it was nice, it was a bit 'poncy' if you know what I mean Pretty pictures created with the food on our plate, but it did get better as the evening went on, so we left there happy bunnies.
On my birthday DH couldn't arrange sunshine (he arranged everything else though x) so after a bit of shopping, where I bought myself size 12 combats from River Island (last time I had to buy size 18s!!) we went to the pictures and ate lots of popcorn
After a pub crawl, we got dressed up and went out for a really lovely evening meal in a restaurant called Havana's. This was more like it, lovely service, a live jazz band and GORGEOUS food Oh !! and a bottle of fizzy stuff too - well rude not too
So now we are back, the washing machine is on, sunday papers at the ready, and we are unwinding, ready for the start of another week. My back is much better now, so I will be up and doing some exercise before work tomorrow. I would like to stay the same this week, if I'm lucky
Thanks for your birthday wishes, it has been a lovely weekend, I hope you have all had a nice time too
Bye for now
Jxx (another year older, but not looking too bad for an old girl )
Well it's Thursday as I type, but I think I will be a bit busy rushin here n there, so I will start my Friday blog now ....
Whilst reaching melt down at work again today my phone rang. It was DH. I was not having a good moment, but it was nice to hear his voice. I explained I was having another bad day and he explained his reason for the call. He said he would like to join me and my sister when we take mum out for lunch tomorrow, and he thought it would be nice if my dad joined us too - DH would treat us all how sweet was that !! He then said, once we have finished our lunch he would be taking me for our weekend away - a day early
That me me feel a whole lot better - how lovely was that !!
So, my birthday weekend away will start tomorrow.
First of all I have to get up and pack, go to the shops and get mum a card (I know, terrible aren't I !!) and I thought it would be fun to get her a helium balloon for the table as well. Then we will go to mum's, where she will be surprised to find that dad and DH will be joining us (surprised and pleased I hope !! ) Thats when me and mum will have our 'after' photo taken, which I can't wait to share with you guys, and then we will be off for a lovely meal at a restaurant called The Piano Lounge, which is as lovely as it sounds.
Hence blogging now, rather than in the morning
I have bought my mum a ticket to see Dancing on Ice at The 02, with my sister and me - see I have bought her a present - honest !!
I hope you all have a lovely weekend, I am very excited
Must go now, I think I will start my packing before ned time
Take care
Jxx
Breakfast = DH will probably suggest breakfast out, so scrambled egg
Lunch = ooooo fish probably, and a small glass of vino I expect
Dinner = oooooo fish again knowing me, and possibly another glass of vino
I'm not even there and I have already blown my points for the day
So, after my fantastic WI last night I mustn't go and spoil it this week
I know you shouldn't deprive yourself, and I don't think I do. I also know that a little of what you fancy does you good
But, saying that, over the previous 9 weeks I lived by that rule, and maintained, which is good in one respect, but I have not reached my goal yet, so maintaining is not meant to be on the cards yet ! At least I know I can do it though
I want to get to my goal, although obstacles in the way this week are -
Thursday - meal with best friend for my birthday
Friday - lunch with my mum for her birthday
Saturday - weekend away 'somewhere' with my DH for my birthday
I have just realised that I managed a 4lb loss last night after going out for 3 meals last week, so it can be done can't it
The only alcohol I consumed last week was 1 bacardi n coke and 1 tia maria, that was Thursday. I think my DH and I may have a bottle of fizzy stuff on Saturday for my birthday, but so long as I can just stick to that, I may be OK.
Obviously, we all know after a big loss you don't get another one the next week, so I will be happy with 1lb next week, especially it being my birthday week - so we shall see .....
Work was rotten yesterday, our client is so demanding I wish I could tell him where to stick his contract !!! I am going to ask the man at the top if I could be considered for a transfer to a different dept, sow the seed that I might consider leaving, because I really have been feeling like that for a while now. The annoying thing is, this is the best company I have worked for, it's just the client that is spoiling it for me
Saying that, I suppose I best get ready to go to work, off tomorrow though - thank god !
Lunch = WW Tomato Soup 1 point, 1 slice of 'normal' bread 1.5 points
Dinner = Out with best friend - scallops 0.5 points. Poached salmon 5.5 points, potato 'thing' guess 5 points, veg 0 points. Meringue and cream 4 points - took much cream, had to leave it Oh and a glass of vino 1.5 points - not good, but not bad
The Biggest Loser USA has just finished, Brandi has been watching it, and it reminded me of the UK winner who inspired me push myself and stay focused.
I found an interview on the net and thought I would share this with you guys
www.youtube.com/watch?v=mr3UtaJgd6c
Her name is Jodie Prenger, she lost 119lb in 6 months
Check out her before and after, she looks AMAZING !!!!
Anyway, I am off to see how I have done this week, no 'last chance' work out for me with my back, but I'll get back on it soon
Bye for now
Jxx
PS - Anyone know when TBL will be on in the UK again, it hasn't been on UK TV since xmas 07
I have been so good food wise this week. Blogging it here really has helped, so I am very interested to see what the WW scales say today
It's my birthday on Saturday. DH has said we are going out for a meal, but he has said I need to pack an over night bag - marvellous I booked a spray tan for Friday evening, to look my best in my birthday photo's, but he has suggested I cancel it ??? mmmmmm does that mean we leave on Friday evening instead ???? Intriguing !!! I will cancel, it's no great shakes, and we shall see what happens
My birthday celebrations start Thursday evening actually, when my best friend comes to see me, and guess what, we're going out for a meal
Then Friday I 'm off work as it is my mum's birthday. We get to take our 'after' photo. You may have noticed there is a picture of me and my mum on our birthdays last year, so it will be interesting to see this years picture to compare. Mum has been doing WW too, bless xxx And guess what .... me and my sister are taking mum out for lunch !! I am definitely not going to go hungry this weekend
Anyway, it's not my birthday yet, got to go to work today - worse luck ! My back isn't too bad. Infact I'm sitting here with my legs crossed and it isn't as uncomfortable as it was yesterday, so I will try my dance class tonight, carefully
Lunch time decision made - not going to dance class tonight. My back is still not right, so I might as well leave the exercise until Monday, hopefully I'll be OK for a spot of WW DVD before work
WOW I can't believe the week has gone so quickly, it's my WI day tomorrow
I also can't believe how good I have been logging all my food over the past week, I hope it shows on the scales tomorrow
Well, the thing is I haven't been able to do ANY exercise since 8th April when my back started playing up, and I have missed it so much, so I am hoping that being good food wise will make up for it
My back is STILL causing me pain, I guess I should go to see someone about it, but I don't believe backs can be mended, I just need to take it easy. At the moment I am in pain, if I cross my legs when I sit down it hurts a bit more (so I won't !) but I am hoping that more rest will do the trick. We'll see ...
Breakfast = 2 slices of WW fruit loaf 2 points
Snacks = 200g grapes 2 points, WW biscuits 1.5 points (yes I gave in!)
Lunch = lazy today, same as yesterday, but it had to be eaten. So ... Tuna & Sweetcorn 2.5 points and salad and 2 ryvita's 1 point
Dinner = 200g steak 5 points, 3rd pack of oven chips (150g) 3 points, thai prawn salad 1 point, 1 piece garlic bread 1 point = not eaten yet, but can't wait
Total Points = 20 - marvellous I'm sure I'll find 1 points worth of afters somewhere
My back has been easier today, I 'may' go to my dance class before WI tomorrow, cos they will be wondering where I am. I will join in gently and see how I go - I think I will start a walking programme, gotta learn to walk before I can run I guess
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