DECISION MADE !

I am NOT going to go for the easy option after all

I will continue with my quest to reach my goal of 10st 3lb, I would not feel right unless I did

Thanks for helping me, DH put his two penneth worth in to - he even had the cheek to say 'why aren't you going to the gym as much any more?'

So.... Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday isn't enough eh ?

He's obviously seeing too much of me !!!

OK then .... let's see what he says if I up my game a bit more (god help me!) although from June 1st thats just what I am planning, I have GOT to start my marathon training sooner rather than later I know !!

OK, WI tonight, I'll update with the dreaded news later 

Good luck to all you other WWWWI ladies

Bye for now

Jxxx

I'VE BEEN THINKING ....

  yes I know it's dangerous 

I'm considering asking my WWs leader if I can set my goal at the weight I am now ???

You see, when you reach your 'goal' you can go 'free of charge' but can continue to lose weight, so long as you don't go below your recommended BMI 

I have lost 35lb since joining WW (36 on a good week)

When I set my goal of 10st 3lb I had no idea how I would feel or what I would look like when (IF !) I got there.  So who knows if they choose the 'correct' goal for their own life style/body when they first set out to lose weight ??

If 'I' was allowed to set my 'own' goal, why not make 'this' weight my goal ?

I can then either maintain, or do my best to get to (and possibly go below) the 10st 3lb marker I originally set myself ..... what do you think ? 

Am I cheating ? ....... I think I might be 

Do I need a kick up the wotzit or is this the answer ?

Let me know ......

J xx

SUNNY TUESDAY - WI EVE .....

I am beginning to think I need to experience a BIG gain to slap me round the moosh and sort me out !!  Going into the 11 stone marker would really hit home if it happened 

Don't get me wrong, I am not hoping for a gain, infact if I get what I deserve I am sure it will throw me into a paddy, stamping my feet, saying it's not fair, why me ?

But as I said, it is all that I deserve.

Do you know what, in this confusing lifestyle we call 'dieting' I bet you I will loose weight this week, and look back at the curry, the KFC, the biscuits, the bacardi n cokes and think - wooo, was I lucky or what ??

Well, that has happened before, but I can't see me being that luck again, and if it does what will I learn from it ?  Nothing !!

So, today I will do what I set out to do every day .... be good, and tomorrow night we shall find out the horrible truth 

Have a nice day

Jxx

Can't sleep again ...

It's 1.30am, I went to bed at 10pm and have just not been able to nod off 

I felt a million dollars in my new white jeans when I went to the party last night.   I wanted DH to take a photo of me, but I just couldn't bring myself to ask, I will just have to wait until I reach that target of mine before I get a really good picture of my weight loss efforts

I drove to the party and only had a couple of bacardi's, I had to beg to drink just diet coke as some of the people there were trying to bully me into 'having a good time' ???  I don't need alcohol to have a good time !!!!!  Infact even though it was a free bar I still asked for water, I was very proud of myself 

My DH was so complimentary, saying how sexy I looked in my new jeans, and one of my friends said I looked tiny - TINY me ??  SEXY me ??  All in one night - amazing 

DH looked nice too in his new shirt, bless him xxxx

Today I managed to do some tidying up.  Due to the building work going on down stairs, upstairs has become a bit of a dumping ground, and was so unorganised.  Today I managed to tidy it up a bit more thankfully.

Then DH and I went to the sofa shop and ordered our new sofa's.  We are really going to town and have ordered 2 chesterfields, one in a silver brushed velvet kind of material and the other in purple !!  PURPLE !!!  I can't believe it myself.  Purple just reminds us of The Rio hotel in vegas where we had our wedding meal, so it means alot to us   and they are soooo comfy   They will definitely give our new home the "wow" factor 

Then we made the mistake of calling in to see my dad and our friends at his club.  I started off with diet coke, but as time went on I started to add bacardi to it 

Once it was time to leave my DH talked me into an indian meal ...... I stuck to water with my meal, and chose a dry tandorri king prawn dish which sounds fine, but I couldn't resist having some nan bread to go with it 

So now I can't sleep through a) guilt due to my choice of dinner and b) excitement due to ordering our new sofa's .... and where is DH ?  snoring his head off, happy as Larry 

When I do eventually wake up for work I will be shattered 

I guess I should try to sleep though ....

I have 3 days left until my WI, will I stay the same ??  

I have been crap just lately haven't I 

Come on Jules SORT IT OUT !!!!!

OK time to try to sleep

Night guys - Jxx

CRACKED IT !

well sort of .... can't get on line 'wireless' but can get on line via cable, so here I am - marvellous 

Went to the gym last night, but nobody showed up to Drum the Gym Ball 

But I did find out the class is actually called Drum Live (I think ?  Yes, I am sure that's what it said)

I was so disappointed I couldn't get into just exercising on the machines etc, I prefer the classes, so I called in on my sister and had a glass of vino instead

Then this morning the kitchen bloke came round, so I missed another opportunity of doing Drum Live at 9am, VERY annoying !!!!  

Once he had finished I spent a very wet day with my mum browsing garden centre's, which was a waste of time too.  Then took her to M&S where she treated herself to a new top, size 18 - she was size 24 last year - bless her, I am sooo proud of her

She was actually wearing size 16 jeans today, and she had to keep pulling them up   But she chose an 18 top just to make sure she had room in it. She's a dab hand with a sewing machine so she can take it in if it is too big   

The builders have knocked another wall down yesterday, we are slowly wrecking this joint !  But it is gonna look FAB when it is finished.  I will post a before and after photo of my living room when it's done - how funny, I thought this was a weight loss site ?  But I know you lot are as nosey as me

Since getting home from M&S I have sat here drinking tea and eating biscuits - last night I had 2 glasses of vino with my lil sis, and then went out for a meal with DH and had another 2 blinking glasses of vino ???? !!!!! Where has the 'good' Julie gone ????

The Bad Julie has a party to go to tonight with DH, so she will be getting her butt into her new 'Armani' (I'll have you know ) jeans and feeling a million dollars, but if she ain't careful BIG JULIE will be back and we don't want that do we ???? 

SO, I have got to start getting my priorities right or you guys are gonna have it in for me 

I WILL BE GOOD, I WILL GET TO MY GOAL, I WILL DO IT - I WILL !!!!

Tomorrow 

Have a great evening, nice to be able to chat to you 

Bye for now

Jxx 

PS - I've got the radio on and this is what's playing "Why waste your time, you know your gonna be mine, you know your gonna be mine.  Why waste your time, you know your gonna be mine, you know your gonna be mine ..... Go DJ pump this party" .......... cor I can feel a D I S C O coming on - wanna come ??  

HAVE A LOVELY WEEKEND

I may not be blogging this weekend as my darling builders have caused a problem with my internet connection.  I won't hold it against them though, they are doing such a fantastic job otherwise

I did my salsacise class last night, and I am doing another "drum the gym ball" (what ever they call it) class tonight.  I would like to do it again in the morning but DH has double booked me with a blinking kitchen design bloke, so I won't be able to go - ark at me !  New kitchen vs Gym, and I choose gym - AM I MAD ???

Getting my glad rags on again tomorrow, for a friends 50th birthday.  I am planning on being on the wagon, but we shall see

Have a lovely weekend all, I am off home now to see what damage the builders have cause today - all good no doubt

Byeee

Jxx

STILL 10st SOMETHING ......

1lb on, which isn't the end of the world, but I did come out of WW feeling pretty low.

Our WW leader is new to all this.  She has been with us for about 2 months, and I don't really get any inspiration or motivation from the classes anymore.

Saying that though, I guess I just want to blame someone else, but if I am honest this is down to me and my state of mind.

I also think my body has got used to my new lifestyle and needs a change.  I count points on WW so I think I might try their other option, the 'core' plan. It's back to basic's really, no weighing, no counting points ......

We'll see ....

Once upon a time I used to be steaming up the living room windows doing my WW DVD at this time of day (6.15am) now, here I am in bed chatting to you guys

When will The Biggest Loser be back on our TVs ???  I NEED the motivation !!!

I hope you all have your motivation, it don't half help !!! 

Time for breakfast 

Jxx

WI day today ....

don't hold your breath

I'll update later ........

Jxx

I'VE HAD A GREAT WEEKEND

a 'doing' weekend you could say 

I am pleased to say that after my visit to the gym yesterday where I got to hit the gym ball with drum sticks to the beat of the music, my arms were still ready for work today.  My thighs on the other hand weren't too pleased to have to lift the rest of my body out of my pit, but with mind over matter I managed to get over that obstacle

DH and I visited FIL and his new fiance. We got to tell them all about Vegas and the places to go etc, which was lovely.  DH is still happy not to join them, although I would have loved to have gone over there and surprised him.  I get on well with my FIL and I know he would have been gob-smacked to have seen us, but this wedding is still a bit too soon for my DH, so I do understand really ....

Anyway, when we got back home the sun was amazing, so strong and boiling hot, too hot for my skin unfortunately.  I love the sun but my skin doesn't.  So I 'allowed' DH (ha! she says, like she had a choice !!) to go to the club to watch the football, whilst I stayed at home and cleared kitchen cupboards, packing things away carefully and storing them in the spare room, ready for when the builders decide it's time to knock another wall down, which could be any day now - god help us  (but so exciting !!!!)

Actually our builders are so good, my house has not been hoovered so much, and it's the builders doing the hoovering not me !!  Perhaps I should give them a full time job once they have finished the building 

Anyway, after packing away the kitchen's non-essential stuff I got the lawn mower out and attempted to plough through the front lawn which hasn't been cut since last year due to all the blinking rain we have had (is that a good enough excuse ??)

Seems ridiculous really, we have a big skip on the front lawn, full to the brim with rubble, but I could not leave the front lawn any longer, I just had to take the opportunity of the dry weather to make it look at least half decent.  I did the back lawn too - go me !!  That's exercise in itself isn't it

I then got itchy fingers and decided to rip down an old fence panel that has been bugging me for ages (it's amazing what you get down when DH is out of eye sight ) but as I battled with the fence panel, fighting it to come out of it's fixings, a spider shot down my cleavage !!!!

I was so shocked it took alot not to rip my top and bra off there n then to make sure it had gone   I very nearly did, but came to my senses and realised I was in the middle of my back garden, where I could so easily have been spotted by a neighbour peering from their bedroom window.  So I had a shake about a bit, for good measure, and decided to get on with the job in hand.

Fence panel is now gone, and so has spider (I think!)  

I cleaned myself up, got the dinner started and sat in the last of the sunshine with an ice lolly as my prize for being such a good girl - marvellous 

My food choices haven't been bad this weekend.  I am getting out of the habit of writing it down now, but with 6.5lb to go I am not going to want to write my food intake down forever, I am going to have to learn to remember what I have eaten in a day and make wise choices.  So I will see if I can trust myself not to write it down for  while and see how I go. 

With this lovely weather salad is an easy option, which is great, so I reckon it shouldn't be too difficult to loose my last half stone in the not to distant future 

The things I have to look forward to at my new weight are -

A friends 50th birthday May 17th

My best friends house warming, May 24th

My dad's birthday May 27th

A weekend in Ireland with my best friend, May 30th

Starting my marathon training June 1st

June 7th meeting Lucie for lunch - might have a gain that week 

Celebrating with the in-laws when they get back from marrying in Vegas

My DDs 21st on July 8th

Having time off to enjoy my new home when the builders have left - end of July (hopefully)

August 9th the birth of my GD (grand daughter ) how exciting !!!!!!

August 10th my DS's 23rd birthday

August 23rd my friends 10th wedding anniversary/re-newing their vows - this will be a big dress up affair, and a year to the day (nearly) that I went to their party last year and met her friend who introduced me to WW

October 5th - London's half marathon

December 25th - every one round to us for christmas day

December 27th - Off to Whistler's in Canada, skiing !!!  I have never ski'd (??) in my life, and I can't wait !!!

WOW - I didn't know I had so much to look forward to until I started typing - god !  How lucky am I ???  10 years ago I was in the middle of a nasty divorce, it was one of the hardest things I have ever been through, and if I had known then how lucky I would become it would have made it so much easier !  

So, I will now say goodbye, and make sure my gym gear is laid out ready for my new exercise regime which begins tomorrow, my dvd is at the ready for me to do my exercise before work like I used to - how good am I ??? 

Thanks for reading my drivel, it's great therapy 

Love ya

Jxxx

CREAM CRACKERED

Hi ya

It's a lovely day in the UK today.  Infact my ex boss is getting married today, so they have been very lucky with such gorgeous weather 

I was up bright n early and down the gym for my 9am dance class.  We didn't dance today, our trainer is promoting a new form of exercise for the next 4 weeks, so we learnt something new.

He had propped gym balls (big blown up rubber balls) on stands.  Each of us stood behind a ball and were given a pair of drum sticks.

The idea was to do squats and steps whilst beating the ball with the drum sticks as hard as we could to time with the music, with stretching and stepping exercises thrown in for good measure.  

The class went on for the usual hour, but it was a really good work out 

At the end of it he warned us our arms are going to kill us tomorrow - I can't wait   But very glad I went.

Once that was over I changed, picked my mum up and we drove a hour to my best friends house.  I had volunteered to help clear her garden as she has just moved into this house and wants to have a house warming on May 24th. We got there to find she had a big skip outside ready to take all the rubbish, she was definitely going to take advantage of the extra help.

Thankfully between the 3 of us we did a great job, it was so nice to see what we had achieved at the end of it, and her DH repaid us with a BBQ and a couple of glasses of vino, so it was worth my while in the end - and good exercise too 

Now I am home, my own grass needs cutting, but that will have to wait, I need to lay down and do nothing !! 

DH is out for the night, so I have my own company, which is great cos I tend to agree with what I want to watch on the box and what I want for dinner 

Infact, I think it is time to go and russle something up ready for when Saturday Night TV starts - if there's any worth watching !

I hope you have all had a lovely day, oh yeah, WW is going OK, heading for Monday as my new start day 'again' .........

Bye for now

Jxx