11/23/2010 08:59
I WANT TO BE A POP STAR
That way I get taken to the gym (rather than make myself)
I'd get the encouragement and incentives I want to push my butt hard !!!
I'd get a trainer, a hairdresser, a make up artist, a fashion assistant, a healthy diet
I'd be put up on stage infront of 1000s to perform my new sexy track, in a short skirt and high heels
I'd be paired up with a male model to do a video, rolling around in a skimpy bikini on the beach, in the sun, pretending to be madly in love with the drop dead gorgeous 'young man'
Now thats an incentive if ever I had one !!!!
I'd even GET PAID FOR IT !!!!
But d'ya know what .... I can't sing :(
and my reality is, my day job means I sit on my butt all day answering the phone and emailing people, so where's my incentive there ?
I need a new life ......
But the other thing is, I am a lazy food aholic, who enjoys a drink or 4, not a good combination for someone who is a secret Pop Star
It's all very well losing the weight, it's staying that way thats hard :(
10/10/2010 13:12
Day before WI ....
I have had a good week, not snacking at all, most unlike me, but it made me feel 'good'
My old scales don't seem to be under so much strain this week either lol !
They aren't digital, they just have the round clock kind of dial that whizzes round and round .. and .... round ... and even rounder (if I've been really bad) and don't really give me a great reading, but sort of tells me how it is in a blurred, can't be bothered kind of way - bless em, they know to treat me gently .... so I don't really go by them for accuracy, I just try them to see if there might be a chance that when I do get weighed for real I might just, if I'm lucky, get a result ....
So, I have been feeling quite confident about tomorrow's WI, I feel like I have lost weight, when I lay on my side and breath in and hold my hip I can feel like I have lost weight ... well my ankles are slimmer anyway
BUT ... I have just squeezed myself into a couple of outfits to wear out to dinner with family wtoday, hich has completely obliterated the little confidence I did have in standing on the scales tomorrow
I hate clothes !!!!!!
Jx
10/05/2010 08:44
LOST A POUND ...
hence not much to say here this week ....
My divorce is dragging on to, which is very depressing, so I think I will just leave it there for the moment and head towards next Mondays weigh in
I hope you are all having a better time
Bye for now
Jxx
10/02/2010 01:30
The night before the morning after ....
if you know what I mean .... hic
lol ! xx
I have been SOOOOOO good, but I reckon it is just because I want to see a result on the scales next week .... HOWEVER ... I am not sure 2.5 bottles of rose wine, pizza and potatoe wedges are gona help much .....
So .... we won't tell anyone about tonight will we ????
We will keep it our little secret
Night then xxxx
09/30/2010 09:00
"OUT OF ACTION"
No not me !! Although to be honest, I have been 'Out of Action' for far too long, thats why I have come back here for a kick up the wotzit
It was the blinking weighing machine in the pharmacy (Boots) that was unexpectedly 'OOA' - did it know something I didn't, was it a sign even ??
Well what ever it was, it wasn't blinking working I know that, so I have decided to use last weeks WI result to go by, which was :
WEIGHT : 12st 8lb
thats 79.9kg apparently .... which doesn't hurt so much
HEIGHT : 5' 5.3" / 1.66m
I am actually 5' 4", so I must have been wearing heels that day lol ! As it's a public area I don't really want to stand bare foot on the scale so I tend to use flip flops, which are generally flat, but I do have a pair of 'flashy' one's with sparkly bits on them and a little wedge heel, hence the height difference, but then that helps with my BMI result doesn't it
BMI : 29.0 - uurrrggghhh, I have a feeling thats not good either .....
My food intake was fine, until I got to my friends house ..... where they/we toasted my 1st day back on track with a glass of fizzy stuff, crisps, cheese, pizza, garlic bread and chocolate tort & raspberries for afters ....
oh, and cream ....
Well, a girls gotta start somewhere, but from now on I MUST remember the food I consume is down to me, not the people I am sharing my day with
Ok lets's get day 2 over with !!
Have a gooden you lot
Jxxx
09/29/2010 08:53
Tomorrow is here .....
My plan is to weigh myself on the scales in the local pharmacy at lunch time
It prints out your BMI, height & weight, so I will have a record to copy onto here - god help me
Then I plan to be a big strong girl and take control of MY life, because there's only one person who can do this for me and that person is ME - mmmmmm I am not sure if I'll lucky or not ?
Why couldn't I be Jennifer Anniston, or (sorry Jenny) Angelina Joley even, then I know I'd be able to do this !! ...
But I'm not, I AM ME ..... and 'ME' has to do it for MYSELF ....
I will be back for my first confession later today ....
Until then you lot have a good one
Bye for now
Jxx
09/28/2010 21:00
Tomorrow has arrived .....
You know that old saying 'I'll start my diet tomorrow' .... we'll this is me saying exactly that 'I'll start my diet tomorrow' - Honest !!
So until then, I'm off to make the most of life not on a diet
See ya tomorrow
Jxx
09/27/2010 15:23
Shall I or Shan't I ....
"Shan't" .... is that really a word ?
Well "Shall I or shan't I" rolls of the tongue easier, compared to "Shall I or shall I not" don't ya think ?
OK, so, Shall I ..... ?
1. Join WW again
2. Get back into this lovely blogging malarky (a book I just read '50 ways to find a lover' got me to have a peek back, I must admit I did chuckle at my post on 6th Oct last year, which leads me to say ....
3. Shall I write that book I have inside me ?
4. Shall I have a packet of crisps, another cup of tea, a bag of white chocolate buttons that are burning a hole in my head from the bread bin behind me ??? ...
5. Use the gym I pay monthly for ???
As you can see from the date of my previous post it's been a while ...I can't even be honest enough to update my weight chart just yet, it is going to look very much like the letter 'W' if I did, which is quite ironic don't ya think ? lol !
What can 'W' stand for ? ....
Weight Watchers
Wispa bar
When will I get to target
Wobbly bits
Whopping great BIG knickers (oops, just did a typo but corrected it just in time, I spelt knockers by mistake lol !)
Why am I loosing interest in my outside shell ?
I have realised that I have put myself to the bottom of my list again ... I am putting everything & everyone infront of me ...
That is definitely a woman thing, don't ya think ?
It has been such a long time since I did this, I could go on for ever just being honest ... ie having no idea if I want to put the effort in to lose this weight 'again' or not .... so if you don't mind I will bid farewell and have a think about it - especially that bit I said about putting everything first, leaving me last on the list .... I don't deserve that really, none of us do eh
OK, the next chapter is up to me ....
I'll let you know
Jxx
Hey old EP friends, I hope you are all doing well, I've got my strength back, so who knows where it may take me - take care xx
10/08/2009 08:14
'Friends' Sabotaging Me ...
So here I am finding it hard enough to step away from the biscuit tin, yet trying to be so positive for a friend who also wants to lose weight, when I invite her round for dinner, using a WW recipe, so all good, and what does she do ??? She turns up with a big bag of crisps, dip, a bottle of wine and 2 big bags of chocolate
And what do I do ??? Yep, I pour the wine, dish out the crisps, and use the dip to make them more fattening, we eat our dinner and then I crack open the chocolate .... well, it was rude not to wasn't it, but if she hadn't have been 'nice' enough to bring them, I wouldn't have eaten them would I !!!
No, I can't say no, not at the moment, I am fragile remember
I had such a good day at work, I didn't drink as much water as I wanted to. It's getting colder here so I will have to go back to drinking herbal tea, and having my quota of water that way. We planned to have king prawns for starters and good old Bangers & Mash for main, WW bangers I hasten to add too !
But I ended up making myself feel sick eating the crisps and chocolate that weren't on the original menu ....
I was a little bit good though, when she left I threw the remainder of the crisps and chocolate away
I then found the energy to stay up alot longer than I would usually, gave my kitchen and fridge a spring clean and then got myself to bed.
But, today is a new day, and I plan to continue my efforts to stay on the blinking wagon !!!!
Here goes ....
Take care
Jxx
10/06/2009 22:50
MMmmmmmm .... now what shall I say tonight ?? ....
shall I say, in this cyber world we call EP, that I had an absolutely FANTASTIC, quite AMAZING, knock me down with a feather LOSS this week ???
2lb would have been nice, 4lb would have been BRILL .....
But, unfortunately we shall never know ... and why not I hear you ask ?? Because I bunked off that's why not ....
I have been doing WW since I was born, well not quite that long, but it might as well have been lol !! But what I am trying to say is I know the score, I know what I should eat and what I shouldn't eat and I know what I should do to help along the way .. so why, tell me WHY ??? did I choose to have 2 slices of toast & honey for breakfast AND lunch EVERY day of last week ???
Whats that all about
I am a lazy lazy LAZY person, that why !!!
I text my mate on Sunday night, all positive, heading for Nov 21st and telling her exactly how it was, she told me off because all my texts were interrupting her from finishing off her stock of biscuits and chocolate off before she got back on the wagon with me on Monday
Well I was great on Monday, but come Monday night - PAH !
There that old saying that people tend to say 'That big girl has got such a pretty face hasn't she?' well I best take note and get myself some beauty sleep, because at this rate I will be fat & ugly in no time at all !!!!
Please forgive me, I mean no offence to any but myself, I guess I feel I just need a bloody good telling off
Yes I have other 'things' going on in my life, but I don't have to stuff my face to get through them .. even though that is the only answer I seem to come to when I am sitting here feeling like poo ....
They say 'get up and get out' when you feel like eating but know you're not hungry, but i just can't be ar$ed, it's cold out there for god sake !!
Thing is, I am an intelligent girl deep down (very deep at this moment in time) and I do know what I need to do, and I do know I don't need to eat my way through the next few months .....
I just have to tell the little person inside who is in charge of my controls, my pilot, my driver, the master of all my actions .... I just wish I had their mobile number so I could give them a call, or their email address ....
If I did have a way of getting intouch with my inner-self what would I say .... mmmm, let's think .... perhaps I would say something like this ...
"OK J, so you're having to go through something that you had not planned to do. You thought you was happy with your lot, although really you knew you wasn't didn't you, but because you had made a commitment it was in your nature to stick by it .. well, let me tell you J, the mess your in was not created by you, yet where you are now is so much better than where you were, infact you are in a better place than the other person is right now and you look a hell of alot more better off for it than they do too my girl !!!!!
SO .. don't let that person drag you backwards anymore than they already have, just like you said tonight to that certain someone 'IT'S GAME ON' in more ways than one
You can do and and YOU KNOW YOU CAN DO IT !!!!
So, the crunch is, make the right choices in everything that you do, be proud of what you do, live YOUR life for YOU, and scream, shout, sing and dance your way into the future the person you really want to be !!!!
And then you will be the happiest, prettiest, slimmest J you have ever been, EVER
When you're happy, every one else is happy, and you attract happy people and have happy times
Your life, love and body is what you make it - MAKE IT GOOD !!!!
Lot of love from
J's inner-self"
Mmmmm .... yeah, I guess I would say something like that .... oh well, shame I don't know their number
Rant over
Night all
Jxx
