10/06/2009 22:50
MMmmmmmm .... now what shall I say tonight ?? ....
shall I say, in this cyber world we call EP, that I had an absolutely FANTASTIC, quite AMAZING, knock me down with a feather LOSS this week ???
2lb would have been nice, 4lb would have been BRILL .....
But, unfortunately we shall never know ... and why not I hear you ask ?? Because I bunked off that's why not .... 
I have been doing WW since I was born, well not quite that long, but it might as well have been lol !! But what I am trying to say is I know the score, I know what I should eat and what I shouldn't eat and I know what I should do to help along the way .. so why, tell me WHY ??? did I choose to have 2 slices of toast & honey for breakfast AND lunch EVERY day of last week ??? 
Whats that all about 
I am a lazy lazy LAZY person, that why !!! 
I text my mate on Sunday night, all positive, heading for Nov 21st and telling her exactly how it was, she told me off because all my texts were interrupting her from finishing off her stock of biscuits and chocolate off before she got back on the wagon with me on Monday 
Well I was great on Monday, but come Monday night - PAH !
There that old saying that people tend to say 'That big girl has got such a pretty face hasn't she?' well I best take note and get myself some beauty sleep, because at this rate I will be fat & ugly in no time at all !!!!
Please forgive me, I mean no offence to any but myself, I guess I feel I just need a bloody good telling off
Yes I have other 'things' going on in my life, but I don't have to stuff my face to get through them .. even though that is the only answer I seem to come to when I am sitting here feeling like poo .... 
They say 'get up and get out' when you feel like eating but know you're not hungry, but i just can't be ar$ed, it's cold out there for god sake !!
Thing is, I am an intelligent girl deep down (very deep at this moment in time) and I do know what I need to do, and I do know I don't need to eat my way through the next few months .....
I just have to tell the little person inside who is in charge of my controls, my pilot, my driver, the master of all my actions .... I just wish I had their mobile number so I could give them a call, or their email address ....
If I did have a way of getting intouch with my inner-self what would I say .... mmmm, let's think .... perhaps I would say something like this ...
"OK J, so you're having to go through something that you had not planned to do. You thought you was happy with your lot, although really you knew you wasn't didn't you, but because you had made a commitment it was in your nature to stick by it .. well, let me tell you J, the mess your in was not created by you, yet where you are now is so much better than where you were, infact you are in a better place than the other person is right now and you look a hell of alot more better off for it than they do too my girl !!!!!
SO .. don't let that person drag you backwards anymore than they already have, just like you said tonight to that certain someone 'IT'S GAME ON' in more ways than one 
You can do and and YOU KNOW YOU CAN DO IT !!!!
So, the crunch is, make the right choices in everything that you do, be proud of what you do, live YOUR life for YOU, and scream, shout, sing and dance your way into the future the person you really want to be !!!!
And then you will be the happiest, prettiest, slimmest J you have ever been, EVER 
When you're happy, every one else is happy, and you attract happy people and have happy times
Your life, love and body is what you make it - MAKE IT GOOD !!!!
Lot of love from
J's inner-self"
Mmmmm .... yeah, I guess I would say something like that .... oh well, shame I don't know their number
Rant over
Night all
Jxx