Well, I'm so happy now...I just got back from vacation and had been so stressed about fitting into one airline seat....not to fear, it was fine...I was so thankful! Had a great vacation and even lost 8 pounds while there, but came home and binged for two days and gained those back. However, the stress from the airline seat is over and my new goal is to get to 292 pounds by my birthday, which is November 9. That's 34 pounds to lose. The weight I chose is what I weighed when I went in to have my daughter 33 1/2 years ago. I can't remember being that weight. My plan is to stay on low carb eating and try to drop the calories a bit, I'm eating around 2200 right now. My carbs have been around 30 and when I stick with it, that's fine so I won't change that...just want to eat a little more chicken than beef and cut out all the sunflower kernals...although I love them! I also plan on starting some walking and maybe bike riding. The weather should be in the 70's instead of the 80's soon and I can't use "it's too hot" as an excuse. So, 326 was my weight this morning. Up from my low of 317, but I'm feeling great about eating low carb and excited to work towards my goal.
Enjoyed a bit in my pool walking yesterday, and am sad it's almost time to close it up for the year. Summer has gone so quickly. I hope to be more consistent blogging also.
I have a month to lose at least 26 pounds. I have only one seat reserved for flying to Florida on August 23. I have been losing and gaining the same 10 pounds for months now and it's ridiculous. I'm done playing games. I may still crowd the person sitting next to me when I weigh 300 pounds, but I have to at least try to get down to that to give myself a chance. I will feel good about myself if I make an honest effort at doing this...no more nuts, peanut butter, sunflower seeds.....I need to quit yo-yoing and get this going again. Ever since Kimkins I've been a diasaster and it's ridiculous! I feel better, I look better, but I am no where done losing weight! I am going to do whatever it takes to control my eating.
Doctor's visit went well, I was down only four pounds from last time I was there, but at least I was down. All my vitals (blood pressure, etc) were excellent according to the nurse and my blood tests were good too, except the hemoglobin which the doctor said could be because I was dehydrated when I had it taken. They will retake in six weeks. Hopefully I'll be down more in weight by then! We lost power at home on July 2nd sometime in the night and unfortunately I used that as an excuse to eat off plan....got back to low carb on the 4th but gees, one day of eating a lot of carbs made me gain 5 pounds! I'm still working on getting it off! Plus, I felt miserable. My husband laughed at me because I keep telling him every time I binge on carbs to stop me because I feel miserable....He will never nag me so I'm going to have to stop myself. I almost caved in last night again, he and my daughter had Sir Pizza...which is one of my favorites....but I decided I still need to get off the weight I gained eating one day off plan and I have no right adding more to it! And I have to say I felt pretty good sticking to plan. The smell of that pizza though was tempting!
It was nice having four days off work, however, I really got bored. I was absolutely too lazy! Which also tells me I am not ready for retirement. I'm 54 years old and at 55 I will be eligible. But, other than the fact I'm too far in debt, I'm not sure I would enjoy day after day at home. I seem to get less done when I have all that time off...I have to force myself to get anything done! I hate getting up in the morning and going to work. I don't mind my job and I love the people I work with and for....but it's just that darned getting up in the morning. Sometimes I wonder if I'd have been better off working a second shift job...but at this stage in my life, I'll never know.
We have a pool and I did get in that yesterday and did some walking. Also, I forced myself to get up and do a few things around the yard and you know, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Before losing 74 pounds, just walking out to the pool was exhausting. How sad though, that 74 pounds lost at one time was 82. I need to get that back there. Well, more than that, my goal is to have lost 100 pounds by August 1st...and time is running out. I still need to lose 26 pounds to get to that mark...
Wish I had something inspiring to say...just that this journey is not easy, but I know it's doable. And along the way I have found some things are easier. I need to celebrate those things...like going from a 5X shirt to a 3X shirt. I can't wear all 3X's...but I have some and they are not tight....it sure will be nice some day when I don't have to buy such big clothes!
Well, I have a doctor appointment tomorrow and I was hoping to be down a lot more in weight….however, all I’ve done is yo-yo! For two cents I would cancel the appointment, save myself $65 and reschedule for another three months. But, it’s good to go in and get my blood work done again I guess, so I’ll just go in and be honest with him and tell him I’ve been struggling since last fall. I guess it’s good that I’m not any heavier than I was when I went in last time. Weight was down to 322.something again this morning…but of course the lowest was 317.2 and that’s what I want to get down to again…was hoping by tomorrow but I doubt I’m going to lose five pounds over night and I’m certainly not going to starve myself to do it. OK, that’s the whiney me.
On a brighter note, I’m down 8 pounds from a week ago Sunday so I’m feeling really good about that. And it’s hasn’t been too bad, just have to continue with the low carb eating. I did falter and have a tablespoon of regular peanut butter last night. That stuff is loaded with sugar and I imagine will start the cravings again today but so far, so good. I really need to find some type of exercise I enjoy doing….and then do it! So far, no luck with that. Maybe after I lose another 20 pounds I’ll have more energy to at least get out and walk. I did notice my hand weights just laying on the desk this week-end….maybe I’ll get my husband to help me do a few arm lifts or something with them….
I’ve been reading PastaQueen’s blog….I’m almost caught up to 2008, but she is so darned funny. She lost from 372 pounds to I believe she made it to 160…..want to order her book because if her book has the humor her blog has, it will be some fun reading. She’s turned into an exercise nut….I can’t imagine that ever happening to me, but then, neither could she so maybe there’s hope!
Oh my gosh, I've typed a new entry twice and it disappears! Last time I even copied it but couldn't paste it! I will try this again tomorrow! But weight is down since I got back from vacation and I'm feeling optimistic about continuing this way of eating until I at least get under 300 pounds!
I have a little more time now so want to add a little to this. The other day I purchased my airline tickets to visit my folks in Florida. For the first time in years, I purchased only one seat each way and I'm so nervous about it! I'm sure I used only one seat at this weight and even higher before, but I'm not sure how crowded I made it for the person sitting next to me. I chose window seats hoping I could lean over towards the wall and give more room to anyone who has to sit beside me. I just have gotten so sick paying for two seats each way....and I've lost 80 pounds since I last flew so I'm hoping that will be enough....not only for one seat but for not having to get a seatbelt extension. I have a couple of months yet to lose a little more...my flight is August 23. I'd love to get down to 280 by then....
I'm feeling so good about being below my lowest weight. I hit 318 back in March and have gained/lost the same 10 pounds since then. To get on the scales and see a new low was motivating for me. I so want to be below 300 pounds.....last time I was was 33 years ago, when I went into the hospital to have my daughter, but ended up having false labor. I was 292....so while I've put my goal to be 299 by August 1, my next mini goal will be 290 so I can be below a weight I knew I was in January 1975! Over thirty years ago. What took me so long to lose this weight? Every time I'd join a weight group I'd end up weighing more when I stopped going than when I started...bizarre, isn't it? You'd think I'd have been so embarrassed to gain all the time but I must not have been. I really am too easy on myself regarding my weight. I regret getting so fat, but you know what, it doesn't really affect me all that much....I mean, it doesn't devastate me like you'd think it would. I didn't even care if I lost it until I couldn't move hardly....I think part of that is my perception that I'm not as large as I am. Odd how I could be in denial about my size. And how surprised I'd be not to fit into a chair somewhere. I'm thankful for my good self esteem though. And hopefully it will help me keep the weight off.
Very excited today, down to a new low...317.4. The previous low had been 318 and that's been quite a while so hopefully I'm back on the down swing. I have less physical cravings now, but still the psychological ones!
Well, I've got to learn how to do better than I have on my first ever blog post...typed for a half an hour and lost the entire thing! That tells you how technically savvy I am...
December 2007 I found myself weighing 399.8 pounds. I knew if I let that number go over 400, it would just as easily go to 500 and maybe above. I could barely walk, I couldn't find hardly any clothes to wear, especially in stores...had to order everything. I was really miserable and even doing my housework was too much for me.
So, as soon as the holidays were over I started following the weight watcher plan. Well, as well as I've ever followed any plan. I tried to eat within my points range most days...but most of those points were used in 100 calorie packs! Never did get the healthy 8 guidelines in...so I really didn't follow weight watchers, but I did manage to drop 14 pounds in a few months.
Then the first week of June I read a magazine article about a girl who lost 198 pounds in 11 months. I told myself if I could lose 200 pounds in a year, I would be almost done with my weight loss. I want to weigh 150 pounds so had a total of 249.8 pounds to lose. But truth be told, I'd have been ecstatic to weigh 250! So I joined her website as soon as I could and started following that way of eating. I lost 60 pounds in three months, then stalled! My hair started falling out, the owner of the site has a law suit against her now for lying about her weight loss and using pictures from the internet for before and after stories (including her own). I continued with that way of eating until September or October but really never lost much more. It was very frustrating!
When all chaos broke loose on that site, I discovered Jimmy Moore's Livinlavida low carb forums and his blog. I thought I could continue with the Atkins plan. Well, when I follow it, I'm successful...but I struggle with allowing myself to eat off that plan too...nuts, carb binges, the same thing I've always done to sabotage myself. The last week though I've done pretty good and the results are I'm down 8 pounds from a week and a half ago. So I know the Atkins plan works.
I have never written a blog before but it is my hope someone struggling can perhaps see this and maybe get some inspiration from it. I love food, I love huge quantities of food. But if I can lose weight and improve my lifestyle by doing so, anyone can. I'm one of those people who have a hard time seeing myself fat...we are few and far between. I think it's because I wasn't fat growing up. I never thought of dieting or losing weight. I gained weight with both of my pregnancies and never even really dieted until January of 2007 when I could barely walk. I'd join Weight Watchers and ended up weighing more when I quit than when I joined....talk about a diet failure! It was me! I cannot blame my weight gain on a terrible childhood, a terrible marriage or anything other than gluttony. I love food! I love junk food, and mostly, I love carbs! Bagels, doughnuts, pasta, cookies! Those are my favorite.
I am 54 years old. It's my hope that this blog will keep me accountable, and hopefully can inspire someone else who is struggling to join me in the struggle of getting healthy. I hate exercise and don't do it. I do walk 4 tenths of a mile to my car most days during the week. Some days I don't even do that...I have someone pick me up. I carpool with one of my daughters so if I can find the excuse, I have her pick the car up and pick me up. It's very sad.
Right now this blog will be about weight loss, or the struggles with it. In the future I hope to blog about other things. I love reading, I love family and I'm sure I can focus on something much more interesting some day! But for now, it will be the struggle to lose 200 pounds.
