week 2
since i last checked in...
over the weekend i wasnt absurdly bad but i wasn't that great either....i had jagermeister with sugar free red bull on saturday...felt diciplined in the matter of i was the only 1 who got their own sugar free red bull for the evening lol.....didnt late night bindge after i drank.....for breakfast had a poppy bagel with butter ( i needed something solid in me, hunngoverr is an understatement) and some tom & tom's all natural peach orange juice....its 100% juice and sold at wawa! its excellent for the morning...wow...which at that point in time tasted like heaven! and then i went back to bed til around 5 pm. x( not my proudest moment on my blog! but honest! dont even remember what i ate that night i was grossly foggy the whole day, i believe it was lentil soup with a salad...
so monday...
i have to say has not started off so hot for myself but hey maybe that will be my trend...monday was a long & lazy day...went out to dinner with the hub again to charlie browns (thats his fav) and ate some crab & cheese dip (not the greatest) and a salad from the salad bar...i ordered a whole meal grilled chicken skillet and didnt even eat it! i was so fully from the app & the salad i didnt even touch the entree..not much of a victory concidering the reason i was fully was bc of the cheese & pitas...but the OLD me would have housed all 3 and then had desert! not to mention would have had 3 sodas by the time the meal was even served! bc i had not eaten dinner i wandered my house and sharked my kitchen at a much later hour only to eat a bag of popcorn and 2 fat free yogurts and a 100 calorie pack...yes my snacking could have been worse...no i still didnt feel great about it! no gym no gym no gym from friday night until tonite! OH NO GIRLS =(
the weekend slipped by so fast...saturday and sunday were a blurr and monday was too short! haha...so i went tonite got on the scale did NOT like what i saw but im STILL going to have to chalk it up to TOM i still did'nt get it yet? i wonder whats up? i'm thinking that its my change in diet and exercise that is messing up my cycle...the P... word shall not be used! what a trajedy that would be....can't let myself get psyched out tho, i KNOW its coming iv been feeling more crazy than usual...have the tell tale pimples in the same spot every month and i could eat a chocholate covered cheese steak pizza at any moment....i wish it would come already!!!!! jeeeeeze.
2 lbs up tonite. i worked out pretty hard and got a new MP3 player that DEFINITLEY aided in my enthusiasm for my workout...its amazing what a good playlist can do for ur energy level...i lost my ipod that i had RIP it was so nice but somehow it escaped me....was in desperate need of a cost effecient replacement because i asked for a new ipod for my birthday but i needed something to tide me over until then so i went to target and bought a ZEN stone it was only 34.99...it holds 250 songs...very simple and to the point to use for all those technologically challenged individuals out there....it has play,skip and volume, pretty easy stuff....u just load the songs from ur comp and drag them onto the player....it comes in cute colors as well mine is lime green...greaat for working out cuz its so tiny u can stick it newhere on ur body and not even feel it no need for those strappy things and if u loose it no biggie....
i was thinking i am defintly going to list the songs i have on it on here so maybe u guys can borrow my pump up music i have great taste and im sure u guys always need fresh tunes to keep ya movin! =) we'll see how things are on friday before i get too worred about the gain im gonna assume i will be almost past good ole aunt flo and things can get back to normal....for now im going to try & lie down and pray my head stop churning!
EVER NOTICE: when it rains it pours? hah.
i feel so stressed out right now find myself wondering:
is it really that things are always stressful and you just feel it more when ur PMSing
OR
is it that things get more stressful when ur already loosing your mind just for some sadistic karmic entertainment?
either way i am loooSiNg iT!! i have SO SO Much on my mind right now i feel like i could scream. school,money,bills,blah blah....i need a vacation. loosing weight is a full time job enough, wish i could just do this and shut the world off!