10/06/2007 11:21
Back on track
I'm happy to say that things are moving back in the right direction. I stayed on track this week and my results show it. It's not a huge amount, but it's enough for me to be happy! :)
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- Name: shann
- City: knoxville
- State: TN
- Country: US
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| Start weight: | 283.20lb |
| Current weight: | 249.20lb |
| Goal weight: | 175.00lb |
| Lost to date: | 34.00lb |
| Remaining: | 74.20lb |
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10/03/2007 11:27
cancer
Well, my mom's cancer is back. It's in her bones. The doctor wants to hold off on chemo as long as possible. He's going to start her on a biophoponate (I think that's right). She'll take it once a month intravenously. It's not supposed to have any major side effects so hopefully she won't feel too bad. They'll just watch and see if she has any major pain then they'll start either chemo or radiation.
I'm trying really hard to look at the positive. It's not in any of her organs, and that's when the treatment gets really tricky. She's not in any major pain, just aches. She'll only have to go once a month and it shouldn't make her feel bad. There are treatment options, so we just keep on fighting the good fight!!
This is the time when I would normally go to pieces and start to eat everything in sight. The last time she had a reoccurance I gained back 30 pounds of the 40 I had left. I can't do that this time...I CAN'T let this ruin the commitment I've made to myself and my health.
10/01/2007 16:13
Camp
Well, we're back from camp. I went to JC on Saturday morning, but I didn't weigh in. When I got back on Friday evening, my scale said that I had gained 13 (thirteen!!!) pounds. I knew that that wasn't possible in 3 days, but I freaked out all the same. I would have taken gaining a couple...even up to 5, but 13? C'mon now!!
So, I talked to my consultant on Saturday and told her that I just couldn't have that gain be official. After talking with her, I realized just how much sodium I had over the 3 days (camp food!!) and that I was just starting TOM too (started on Friday morning). Also, I walked probably 5 plus miles a day and my consultant said that muscles that have been stressed retain water too. So, I skipped my weigh-in and just got my food.
Going on Saturday was the hardest thing I've ever done. This would have been a meeting I would have skipped when I was doing WW. And I would have skipped this one except I needed to get my food. I do not take failure well. I just can't handle looking at that number!! Luckily, my weight has already gone down about 5 pounds since Friday so hopefully my net result won't be so bad.
09/23/2007 08:15
Slipping
I'm kind of glad that I have camp this week. I can feel my resolve slipping away a bit. I'm taking chances that I never would have taken in the beginning. (Remember that sushi that I had the first week...honey, that was nothing compared to yesterday.) It's not that I'm not going to try and be on plan this week, but I'm not going to sweat the small stuff. I'm going to let myself have those BLTs (bites, licks, & tastes) and just lay off a bit. I'll have to eat camp food on Wednesday, Thursday, & Friday anyway. And I'll be hiking everywhere (even to get to the food) so maybe the exercise will balance things out.
I think this will help for me to have a sort of mini break of my own. Then the following week I'll be able to truly rededicate myself. 12 weeks is a long time to be on program. I know that this is a lifestyle change, but realistically I have to be careful of myself. We're heading into the worst time of the year for dieting. My health club does a "maintain through the holidays" challenge where you get a prize if you don't gain weight from October-December. I'm going to try and lose (in fact, I have 23 more pounds to lose to reach my end of the year goal of down 50 pounds), but I'm going to have to really focus on the end result.
09/22/2007 11:54
A loss is a loss
A loss is a loss, right??
I lost 0.8 this week. It's not much but it continues the downward trend and that makes me happy.
This week will be interesting. I'm going camping with 120 fifth graders for three days! The only things I bought from JC were snacks so that they will be easy to carry around with me. I'll have to eat camp food, but it will be mongo exercise so hopefully that will make up for the food difference. I'm hoping to maintain!
09/21/2007 18:44
Disgusted with myself
I *really* hope I lose even a little tomorrow. This morning my scale said that I weighed exactly the same thing (naked!) that I weighed at last week's weigh-in. I'm going to be really depressed if that turns out to be true. I'm slamming the water tonight ... maybe that will make a difference. I'm just sick !
09/20/2007 13:29
Why do I do this to myself???
So, today the PTA served us lunch. They made barbeque sandwiches, baked beans, chips, and cake. I brought my JC chili. I had a salad with tomatoes, FF cheese, FF sour cream, salsa, and poured on the chili. I was so proud of myself for making a good choice and not cheating. Then I sat there for a few minutes....and a few more minutes... waiting for lunch to be over. And then I couldn't stand it. I ate a plate of barbeque potato chips. Now I feel sick. Why did I do that to myself? I probably messed up my weigh-in for this week, and I didn't even need it!! They just looked so good.
Bummer!
09/15/2007 17:47
Loss
Yay! Another loss... I'm thrilled. 257.6 It's been a few years since I've been that low. Another 5 pounds and I'll be my lowest in 10 years.
Today was my son's birthday and I purposefully cheated by eating some pizza. Some good news was that I was incredibly full after 3 pieces. That may not sound like a big deal to most, but I never would have stopped at 3 pieces before, and I sure wouldn't have felt full! So, I really am shrinking my stomach and making a difference.
09/14/2007 18:37
Why?
Today is my son's 6th birthday and they had cheeseburgers and tater tots. I was feeling good, eating my JC dinner and looking forward to tomorrow morning's weigh-in... I thought I was doing well. Then I helped clean up, and the tater tots were right there! So, I had some (I think 5) with mustard & ketchup!! And, for a side dish, they had a plate of olives, tomatoes, peppers, etc. Of course, I ate some olives (bad girl!). I ate some tomatoes with salt... some cucumbers with salt...
Why do I do these things??? I weighed 257 this afternoon! And now I messed up for tomorrow's weigh-in!
09/14/2007 14:08
Cheat?
I forgot my lunch today for the first time. I had to eat freakin' school lunch!! I tried to make the best choices, but I know it probably wasn't great...so frustrating!!!
I chose turkey breast. Of course, they put gravy on it, but it was better than a hot dog, right? I ate the turkey and about 2 bites of dressing. I also had my salad & dressing that I had in the refrigerator. It wasn't so bad, I guess. But I absolutely hate that my cheat had to be on a school lunch. If I'm going to cheat, I want to make it more worth it than that. :(