Pretty good

I'm tellin' you-- this exercise thing is a scam! I cheated three times (panera, taco bell, subway) and still lost 2.2 pounds this week.

I walked on the treadmill every day (around 2.0-2.2 miles in 45 minutes), and did weight training 3 days. I'm thinking about doing a yoga class this week. My husband will be on a business trip so I'll be all alone. In the past, that was my cue to eat out or order in every night so it's my challenge to be good!

Good week

Despite my beer, chips, & salsa binge on Thursday night, I had a good week. I worked out 6 days (including this morning before my weigh-in) and lost 4 pounds. I'm proud of that and glad to be working my way back to where I was before.

Update

So, I gained a few pounds last week--- no surprise. I ate everything that didn't eat me, and I was about to start my period. We started a "Biggest Loser" club at school. I weighed in Monday afternoon at 271 (what???) That shows you how much my weight can fluctuate when it's that time of the month....11 pounds more in 2 days?? I knew that was crazy, but that's what the scale said. (Same scale, by the way because I brought my scale to school.)

This week, I've been pretty good. I did have movie theatre popcorn on Monday (we went to see "The Pirates Who Don't Do Anything"). When I weighed in on Tuesday afternoon (we didn't have school on Monday), I weighed 258. Looked pretty good to them... I'm heading the list right now. (I could have told them that that 270 was a crazy weight!) This morning I had lost a few more pounds so I'm doing pretty well this week. I am going out to dinner tonight with some of the karate families so I'll probably cheat .... (horrible, huh??)

But! I still haven't missed any days at the gym. We're taking Sundays off, but besides those I've gone every day. I'm walking 45 minutes on the treadmill every night (on the cross country program) and doing weight machines for upper body for around 15 minutes.

I don't know. I feel like I've made a difference in taking care of my body. I know I should be doing better, but I feel like this is something I can keep doing. The problem is that I'm not at the maintance place, but I'm acting like I am. I guess it's better than where I was last year this time!!

Ohhhhh

It all comes clear now.

I have been crappy with my eating this week. I can't make myself stop eating. Monday night I ate a whole Hershey bar!!! I cried when a parent yelled at me yesterday. I've beena a bundle of nerves over Mom's oncology appointment. Absolutely no reason.. or at least I thought.  Well, I woke up this morning and started my period. So, maybe that explains it. (Also, it was a crappy oncology appointment -- the cancer has spread again...)

I guess the good news is that I still haven't missed the gym and I added weight training a couple nights ago. So, I haven't messed up that resolution at least.

Back with my head up now..

So, fell off the wagon over Christmas... to the tune of an 11 pound gain.

But I'm back and I've had a great week this week. Well, I've not been perfect in my eating (some pizza some chips & dips...) but overall I've done well.

AND! Listen to this.... I've been to the GYM every day this week. Yep, my mom gave us a year membership to a health club for Christmas. We started on January 2, and I've only missed one day since then (last Friday we took the kids swimming so I didn't work out.) I've been walking 20-40 minutes on the treadmill, and I've gone from no incline to doing the random program that goes from 0-5 for an incline. Then I do 10-15 minutes on the exercise bike. I'm really proud of myself.

So, there's my update. I hope everyone else has done better than me.

Another celebration

Had my every 3 months doctor appointment on Monday for a blood draw.

My cholesterol is down to 189 (from 205, I believe.)
My A1C is down to 6 (from 8 point something, I think.)

So, this is making a difference in my health!!

I did it.

Some successes:

Made my return appointment for bright and early Saturday morning.

Had a perfect on plan day EVEN with my family eating ice cream in waffle cones for dessert around me.

Saw my weight go down throughout the day. (that quickly gained weight does come off quickly too....)

Actually took two pictures last weekend that I loved:

My husband Sam, my son Morgan, and me.


Morgan & me -- aren't we cute???

I can do this!

Back

Okay, I'm back. 8 pounds up, but back. Today is my fresh start. I've spent the past 3 weeks eating, and I'm determined to change things this week. As soon as they open, I'm calling JC this morning, and I'm making my appointment on Saturday. I do think that  rtc is right. I was beginning to feel comfortable in my own skin again at 250. That made it more and more difficult to maintain my drive. But I don't want to be a 250 pound woman. I want to truly change my life, and that is just not enough. So, I'm going to go back to the program and get my self discipline back.

Wish me luck!

positive attitude

My positive attitude has left me. I just don't seem to have the motivation any more. I got out that leftover cheese dip last night and ate and ate. I'm embarrassed to admit that, but maybe seeing it written will help me to be accountable for it. I made myself sick--- really. I have to admit that I'm just a food addict.

Carbs=Crack!!

I have lost all drive to do this, and I have so very far to go. I know it's not good for me, but I made myself so sick last night that I haven't even eaten today. And I can't imagine wanting to!!! Some karate moms invited me out to dinner tomorrow night... PTA is doing a "thanksgiving lunch" for us on Friday... football tailgating all day on Sunday...  and the worst part is I don't even want to resist. I just want to give up.

I wish I knew how to get my mojo back. It's funny, but the good comments & attention I'm getting from people seems to be having an opposite affect than it should. Instead of wanting to lose more, I'm thinking-- well, I must look okay, why make myself miserable! I know that's wrong thinking... I know I shouldn't feel miserable, but I do.

Yea... there's my big old pity party. I wish Andrea would come hit me over the head with her happy stick!

Fresh start?

Well, I did good on Sunday  evening. Then yesterday, I did really good until last night. I ate my JC and even made the free vegetable soup. Of course, last night I proceeded to eat cheese (REAL cheese!) and Ritz crackers (well...they were low fat Ritz crackers! ;) ). Way more snack than I was supposed to have! This lifestyle thing is really getting to me lately. I don't know why, but I'm just so tired of thinking about what I eat all the time. I want mindless. I know all the reasons why that's wrong, but I'm having trouble with my internal monitor. I've just quit listening for some reason.

I'm on plan for today (except that I took Morgan to karate and forgot to take my snack with me so I missed my afternoon snack today). My rising crust pizza is in the oven, and I have triple chocolate cheesecake tonight, so hopefully I can resist any other urges.


Why is this getting so much harder for me? I've got to get myself together!!!