plateau

My consultant called it a plateau.

I call it a I gave up. I quit last Wednesday. I had 2 kids with the flu and a husband who went to Florida on vacation with his dad. I just quit caring about what I ate. I ate whatever I wanted, and it wasn't good. I didn't go to JC on Saturday...I blew it off. And when the smoke cleared, I had gained about 5 pounds. Now, I also was about to start my period, so some of that was probably water weight, but c'mon-- some of it was a big ol' steak and bloomin' onion stuck to my thighs too.

On Monday I lifted my head. I got on the scale for the first time since Wednesday, surveyed the damage, and got busy. I lost it all again by today. Back to where I started.

So, JC says it's a plateau. I say it's a small victory.

Why?

Why do I do this to myself?

Why do I eat compulsively? I know that I shouldn't, but I do it anyway. I'm home today with my flu-ridden son, and I've got completely nuts! I ate pimento cheese and crackers, sun chips, bites of the kids' macaroni & cheese, a grilled cheese sandwich. It disgusts me to read that, but I have to get it written down.

I have been so completely depressed by my "plateau" that I've just given up. Even my exercising, while I'm still doing it, hasn't had quite the same intensity. I just can't seem to get myself back on track. I'm so disheartened by not losing that I sabotage myself even farther. And now, I feel as thought it's worthless to even try this week. I can feel myself giving up.

I'd like to say that I could snap out of it, but I'm not sure I can.

Good news

So, right after I posted, I went to the mailbox and my blood test results were back. They looked fabulous!! So, that is truly encouraging after my crappy weigh-in.

My A1c is down to 5.8 (it was 6 In November, and 8.something in August)

My cholesterol is down to 168 (it was 189 in November, and 205 in August)

(My HDL was 50 and my LDL was 93.)

Everything was within the normal range except they'd like my HDL to be even higher, but overall things were great.

And, the best news is that I don't have to go back for 6 months instead of 3...
 

BLEH!

That's really all I have to say. .2??? I'm really tired of this "plateau" I'm on. I've recommitted myself to the eating plan. I know I'm doing well with the exercise, but I've got to get back to 100% with the eating. I've been sliding a bit on my extras (full fat dressing, tastes of what the family's having for dinner...) Nothing major, but I'm going back on all that this week! It better make a difference because I am truly sick of the decimals!

Butt kickin'

I just walked 3 1/2 miles on the treadmill and burned 488 calories. I just cannot seem to get the scale to move. I haven't been perfect this week at eating, but I haven't been really bad. And I've worked out every day. (Last night I took a pilates/yoga class.... too weird for me. I don't think I'll be going back!) Every morning I get on the scale and groan. I can only hope that my "last chance workout" helps!!

Inching down...

I worked out 8 times this week, and I lost .4?? What is that?

woo hoo!!

Barely under, but under none-the-less!!

A major victory for me. I think the last time I was under 250 was when we lived in Alabama. We moved here in 1996 so that's a long time ago!!

yay me!

My Valentine Story

So, I started my period on Wednesday which meant for a Valentine's Day full of mood swings, cramps, and irrational anger. Well, the first thing was that we wanted to go to the Melting Pot this weekend, but it was all booked up. I know that's no big deal, but it was just really disappointing. Then, my mom (who I adore and who I'm completely worried about) made twice-baked potatoes and steak on the grill for dinner. I know she did it because it's my husband's favorite, but the smell was killing me. I had a bag full of candy that my students had given me for Valentines...I ate 3 pieces of Little Caesar's pizza for lunch at our party (it wasn't even good)....and the steak smell was killing me... I just had to leave! I took off and went to the gym. I walked for an hour on the treadmill, 524 calories and 3 1/2 miles!

So, I guess I worked off that pizza, huh....

yay me!!

I'm up to 2.6 miles on the treadmill in 50 minutes. I've kicked up the speed to 3.2 (except on the really big inclines....) I keep thinking about doing other things, but right now I'm on such a roll with the teadmill that I just keep going. I ended up only missing 5 days in all of January, and I've only missed 2 days so far in February!

yay me! (Can you tell I watch too much Zack and Cody?)

Okay week

Well, I had a very bad start to my week. I had some kind of sinus infection that left me with a nasty taste in my mouth. Therefore, I tried to eat everything in the pantry to get rid of it. Nothing worked, but it didn't stop my eating. I missed school Monday and didn't work out Sunday or Monday. But I started feeling better on Tuesday and went back to the gym that night. So, I worked out 5 days this week, and followed JC 4. I lost 1.6 lb. which I thought was pretty good considering.

I've got to get back on track with my eating though. It's so tempting to continue this way, but I need to get myself back to 100% commitment. I am soooo close to that elusive 250 mark again (which I had finally reached in December) and I desperately want to see a 240 number again. (It's probably been 10 years since I was below 250. If I can stay on track this week, I might just be able to reach it.