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| Start weight: | 152.00lb |
| Current weight: | 133.50lb |
| Goal weight: | 125.00lb |
| Lost to date: | 18.50lb |
| Remaining: | 8.50lb |
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I have to watch what i am doing or i could really mess my weight up!! In the past few weeks I have gained back a whopping 7 pounds and I cannot let this get any worse. I have been avoiding the scale on purpose and when I went on it tonight, was thoroughly dissapointed. I have a new job and I am now in grad school and I am getting married next year so there are addes stresses, for sure...but there are no excuses for what I am doing!big thumbs down.
My goal is to get back to 127 and fit back into my skinny jeans that do NOT fit anymore. these pants used to be loose on me approximately 5 months ago!! Grrrrrrr
I am very upset.
That's why I am back here. Gotta be motivated!
It's been a year being (approximately) at 130lbs and I am happy I have been able to keep off most of the weight. WIth a lot of stress lately with trying to get a full time job and getting married and lots of family drama I have been feeling more prone to eat and I hope I can have the will to ward off the binges. I have faith althought some of my pants are starting to feel on the tigher side and that is NOT what I want..especially with my wedding in a year (august 1st 09!) and the honeymoon to follow (disney! pools! bikinis! oh my..)
That's the scoop.
I think my biggest problem in this weight loss arena is maintaining a mental state that says "Your weight is not permanent. If you eat crappy, you will gain it back. Don't get cocky about your weight now that you've achieved a weight you are mostly happy with." I keep feeling like, oh I am 127 so what's the harm in eating ____________ (fill in bad food there.) And then, after I eat______ I anxiously eat and fall back into the trap!!
How do I overcome this and stay focused? I also know that bikini season is around the corner and I feel like I almost don't want to fit into a bikini to fulfil my self fulffilling prophecy of "Oh I can't wear that, I am too fat". This is the state of mind I have had my whole life as a chubby kid/teen. I know I can change that, all I have to do is start exercising more. I make so many excused for not exercising, I need to just DO IT. I wish I had someone to exercise with but you know what I could just go to the track with my ipod and be fine. I need to quit the excuses and make myself a regimine and stick to it. That should be my goal. I feel flabby and tired even though I am 129. And they always say it's not how much you weight it's so much more.
Time for a good butt-kicking on my part, I need to get myself in gear! I guess I have been overwhelmed with student teaching and have gotten off track because of it but I must get back!
AAagh! i caved in to some chocolate and lots of snacks today and I am nervous that my anxiety driven binge eating has increased because of a stressful amount of events going on in my life. Student teaching and being away from my fiance are hurting my weight issues.The worst part is I don't even have a working scale to check my weight...so this is creating more anxiety. :( Sigh. I need to get back on track!
Wow, I am 2 lbs away from being 125 lbs. What a crazy year. I have been seeing a lot of people that I haven't seen since high school (5 years ago) and everyone has said "Wow! You look great! You lost a lot of weight!" It's a great feeling to see that other people notice and I feel so much more confident.
I went to Florida last month and for the first time in my life I was able to tan wearing a bikini. Yes, I was self conscious because I had never been able to do this in my life before, but it felt so wonderful not to be the only 20 something wearing a bathing suit other than a bikini. It has been a goal of mine and it felt goooood! Plus I got a nice tan for how pale I usually am. :)
I am still eating very well. I just need to add some more exercise to my daily routines and I'll be set!
Things are great! I got engaged last week to my love of 2 years. I am feeling much more confident at the weight of 130 than 150, it's crazy. I even fit into a form fitting size SMALL grey turtle neck that looks incredible with my size 4 jeans! I can't believe it!!!!!!!!!!
I have been stuck between 132 and 135 for about a month or so and i am not happy about that. I feel like if I make ONE false move and eat one cookie too many, the scale is going to tip! I need to exercise! At my college I think the gym is free. I am thinking of maybe taking advantage of it to tone up. I really need to. As much weight as I have lost, I feel kind of flabby...:(
Wedding is this weekend for a friend of mine. Hopefully I will look good! :)
ugh, i had not 1 but 2 chocolate frosted cupcakes!! It was my brother's birthday the other day and they were so irresistable. Blah. Good thing was, I barely put any frosting on any of them- does that make it any less bad?
Ah well. For breakgfast I had a bowl of cereal with a banana, lunch was yogurt and dinner was part of this spinach/foccacia thing i didn't like. So overall, I wasn't bad (except for the dang cupcakes)
Tomorrow starts the first day of the semester. Cafeteria food. Ohh no. Must not gain weight!!!!!!1
I have about 10 pounds to go. Everyone seems to notice the weight loss except me. 
