This Sucks!

I am doing so bad! I was down .2 last week and now up again this week. I hate this! I usually try to be positive about things even when I have a gain but I can' t this time. I am really depressed about this. I cried for the first time having a gain. I'm thinking maybe I cant do this. Maybe I am destined to be fat forever! I have been walking with my mom for 2 weeks now almost every day and this is my reward???

I haven't been journalling but I've been keeping tabs in my head cause I know most of my points values. I started journalling again this morning and will try to continue this.

I'm just so pissed at myself. If I wouldn't have gained 51 lbs with Andrea I wouldn't be where I am now but I can't fix that now. But maybe I'm just going to be stuck forever!! I am going to see how this week goes and if I don't lose this week I'm done with this crap!

Really Exercising. LOL

OK I have really committed to exercise! I ordered 10 Minute Solutions Dance Fat Blaster. I love it!! I honestly have always loved to dance but I suck at it. LOL I am actually learning some moves and getting cardio at the same time! I like the 10 min solutions too cause I can do just 10 min or do the whole thing (about 50 min) or any combination. I've only done one section and I figure that I'll get that down and then move to the next section. I want to totally learn the first one and I don't want to put too much pressure on myself. That's part of my problem. I say "oh I'm gonna work out for 30 min every day." Then I end up feeling too much pressure and I quit. I can handle 10 min and committing to 10 min.

I think that's all I have for today.

Made It Through the Holidays...

virtually unscathed! I lost the last 2 weeks. Down .4 both times. i had a huge gain 2 weeks ago and havn't lost all of that but I'm recovering. I'm still feeling good and very positive! My workout goal is going to be to at least do it. I'm going to start small and work up.

I'm starting to feel crampy. I know AF is coming either tonight or tomorrow at the latest. :(  OK I have to get going for now. The man needs to go to bed. More later.

Started Exercising...Finally!

I got started today moving my bottom. I got on the elliptical today finally. I received my WW magazine yesterday and was reading it today and they have a walking challenge that starts today. So I jumped in and I'm committing to doing it!

So far, I have decided that my weight loss goal is going to be to lose a pound a week. At that rate, I will be at my goal (or at least really close) by the end of the year. I am still working out the details of my exercise plan. I did order 10 Minute Solutions Dance Blast (or something like that not sure on the exact wording). It is a DVD program that has 5 workouts 10 minutes each. That way if I want to do more I can and if I don't then I can do my 10 minutes and be done.

I feel good with my decision at this point and I am positive about 2007!!

Not sure how...

I lost over the holiday! I was way up last week (4.8) but this week I am down. I was only down .4 but I'll take it! I don't even feel like I deserve it though as I ate terribly at mom's X-mas Eve and here at home X-mas day! I ate cookies, pie, tons of ham and even had a couple glasses of wine...just at mom's house! I don't get it but aparently the weight loss gods were smiling on me.

I had a good meeting last night. We talked about what we feel we learned in 2006 and what has helped us on our journeys. One thing I've learned is that I CAN lose weight.

I was 140-150 16 years ago when I got preggers with my oldest daughter and managed to gain 51 lbs before I had her! I had the theory that I was going to gain weight so I should eat anthing and everything I wanted. When I got preggers with my son less than a year later, I hadn't yet lost all the weight I gained before. That set the trend for me and I pretty much stayed at that weight. I was a size 18 and sometimes slipped into a 20.

As I said I was there and in 2004 became pregnant again. I have never blamed any of the kids for my gain. I knew I did it, however in between my second and third kids, I tried many pills looking for a quick fix. My friends and family used them and swore by them but none of them worked for me. I got to a point where I thought that I just couldn't lose weight and that I'd be this size forever.

Finally as a last resort, last January I started Weight Wathcers. It was amazing! The program works and I can eat any food that I want to. You'll notice that I didn't say "eat anything I want to." I can't eat anything I want to. I can eat any food...in moderation. That's the key and it works. And I CAN LOSE WEIGHT!!

Our next meeting will be geared toward making goals for 2007. I will be thinking about this over the next week and will be prepared to do this. I will be bouncing ideas here and will post the final goals by next week.

Holidays Sucked!

Diet wise that is! I actually had a great Christmas with my family. I ate for crap though. I am re-committing TODAY. Not waiting for the new year. I'm back on for eating and I'm going to do the elliptical today. At least 30 min. I got season 1 of Gray's Anatomy though so I may go for longer! ;)

I had a gain last week and I expect one this week too...not next week though!

Maintaining

I had wi Wednesday night and I stayed the same. I'm ok with that with it being the holiday time. I usually gain this time of year so maintaining is great!

Not sure how or when but I hurt my foot (I think carrying Ricky down the stairs) and I have pain going all the way up the back of my leg into my butt. That is my excuse for not exercising for now. I really do want to get back to it. I have the elliptical downstairs but my leg and butt hurt so bad I don't think I could do it. I am thinking thought that I may try later tonight. Maybe it would even help...we'll see how it goes. OK that's all I have for now...

Still OP

Well I am doing well again this week. I was down another pound and was OP all week. I was a little bad today. Made cookies with the kids. I ate 3 of them. Not horrible but not great either.

I also read that WW is changing their plan. According to the new calculations, I will be at 25 pts instead of 24. Still get the 35 WPA (weekly points allowance) though. I didn't read too much about the changes in core (since I'm not doing that plan) but it looks like it didn't change much.

Well that's all I have for now. Check back later.

Back OP

I went back to WW meetings a few weeks ago. I finally realized that I can not do this without meetings. I felt silly at first because it just doesn't make sense to me. I have found thought that lots of people have the same trouble. I had a support system in place for it but it was too easy to not be accountable to my system. With the meetings, I have to face the scale every week and this keeps me honest. I can not avoid the scale and I choose not to.

So my first week back I had gained 6 lbs. Then caught the flu and lost like 7 lbs. I had a gain the next week but expected it after the flu. But my big accomplishment was that after Thanksgiving, I had a .8 lb loss! How cool is that? I made a plan for Thanksgiving and stuck to it with the exception of one piece of pecan pie.

I fell a little off the wagon Friday (how dumb is that?) but I got back on track and pulled off a loss. I was pretty proud and I think I'm going to be able to stick again. I will just take one day at a time though.

OK that's all for now. I'll check back soon!

Bad Molly!

UGH!! Here I am again, not posting. I am such a slacker. LOL  Well I am back on the wagon again. I fell off a couple weeks ago and couldn't pull myself back on till now. I gained 4 lbs but I think I'm back down at least a little. We'll know tomorrow. It's just so easy to slip, ya know? plus I think I'm getting burned out on all the counting. I just hate to have to be that accountable. I don't want to have to write down every morsel that goes in my mouth. I'm not sure how to work on that. Maybe if I post it here and make myself accountable every day here that'll help. We'll see. I'll start that today and see how it goes...

That's all for now. I WILL check back tomorrow!