Day 4 - Ch ch ch ch changes
I've been feeling more hungry today, possibly from boredom more than anything, or nerves about starting my new job tomorrow (Most likely the latter).
I've managed not to have anything I'm not allowed, although I did have a bit more chicken, but I doubt that will make much difference.
It's my first official weigh in tomorrow! Even though I've only managed 4 100% days out of the possible 6, I still think I've done pretty well, and I know I'll be please with the result.
I've been thinking a lot today about my life in general really, the way things are going in the degree I'm studying, and if I even want to continue it (it leads to a qualification to a specialised part of the health profession, and only really worth doing if you're dedicated to the career, not to just say you're educated to degree level on your CV/resume).
I think my heart lies with something in the weightloss field, but I'm not exactly sure of the context yet. For the past few years I have been thinking about this, but always felt like there was no point in pursuing it until I had that "amazing weightloss success story" to talk about, so I always put it off, carried on with whatever job I was doing at the time, and continued to gain weight. I think part of it was feeling like I could never pull anything off like that by myself, like I was bound to fail because I wasn't strong or business savvy or whatever enough. Or that people wouldn't take me seriously because I'm soft-spoken.
But now I'm thinking the chances are once I've lost the weight I will feel confident enough to be more assertive, and have the evidence of my hard work to back me up. Even though it's only been a couple of days since I started, the whole prospect of making weightloss and health and fitness and possibly even life coaching my career is more of an incentive to keep going and achieve my goals than I ever thought they could be.
It used to seem like a far off thing that may be something I did in my spare time as well as a "proper job", but something has clicked inside me to want to step it up a notch. Make concrete targets, and go for it as a full time thing.
And what better way to keep myself in check once I am healthy if my livelihood sort of depends on it?
There, I've written it down, acknowledged that I think it's possible, I better get on with making it a reality so I don't look stupid!