Day 2

So far so good.

And, after after about 6 months of barely anything in the monthly cycle department, I finally started a proper period last night. I had always been like clockwork, but in the past few months they stopped, and I attributed this to my weight, seeing as nothing else had changed, definitely no chance of pregnancy, so my thought was that it was like a reverse to the amenorrhea that happens to anorexic women after severe weightloss. I just looked it up and obesity can be a cause.

It's strange how after just 1 day on this VLCD my body has seen fit to start them again, like it's almost telling me I'm doing the right thing with this diet! And boy is it putting the message across! Sorry to be graphic, but it's full force, and painful, but all in all the best one I've ever had because it's a revelation!

I'm kind of feeling a bit emotional now though (possibly hormone induced but still good) about how much stress I've put my body under with the years of overeating, and feel sad that I had to let things get to this stage before seriously doing something about it. I mean, I'm lucky that I've not had more medical problems like diabetes etc, and just the aches and pains associated with the extra weight itself, and of course the psychological side of it all. But still, those things are a big deal and something I shouldn't have ignored for so long.

Still, it's in the past now, I'm feeling good today (apart from the pain!) and positive about the future, and know that this is the time when I'm actually going to do it. I'm going to actually listen to what my body is trying to tell me.

And I just burst out crying! I've stopped now but it felt good, funnily enough, seeing as I haven't cried in years apart from at films and TV programmes. But this time it was for me, and I won't use food to make myself feel better because I know these are things I need to feel and experience instead of gorging on food to numb everything.

My first instinct was to not even write that it just happened. But then what is the point of this blog?

I do hope I learn to articulate things a bit more, cos everything seems like a bit of a jumbled mess that only I would understand!  I am of course comparing myself to the many great blogs I have been reading lately, some of which have been turned into books - talk about feelings of inadequecy! Something else I have to work on...

Get it out!

Sometimes it helps to have a good cry and get it out there.  Now you can move on.  You are going to do great.  Though, I gotta give you props for not eating.  I could never do a liquid diet.  YIKES!

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Hiya. thanks for message on my blog. I am going to add you to my friends list also if you wanted you can add me to msn annaloperfido@hotmail.com . I follow slimming world diet. it really is great i could never live without food and this diet seems too good be true at times but really does work cause ive lost 18.5ibs in 3 weeks so that has got to mean it works. keep up good work. I take my hat off to you for doing  a liquid diet

Hey there:)

I'm so glad that you commented on my blog:) You said that you are turning 26 soon...I just turned 26 on june 2! I really like your "looking forward to list" I thought I was the only one who is looking forward to having a bath and being covered by the water! I'm also looking forward to crossing my legs like a lady...and wearing high heals without striking oil! LOL!

I also know how you feel about crying...I always would keep everything inside and then when I would feel like I was going to have a nervous break down I would watch a really sad movie(one that I knew would make me cry) and I would just bawl. Now I'm also getting in tuned to my emotions and feeling better because of it. The negative thoughts sometimes invade my head but I just pick up my new kitten, cuddle her, and then I feel much better.

As per the question about a diet...I'm not doing anything in particular. Except that for at least the next year I've sworn off all pop, junk food, fast food, and alcohol. I'm also going to be exercising every day without fail. I'm also sticking to "real" food. like; not processed meat/food, nothing that's a chemical(ie. diet pop, spray dressing, ect.), and eating a lot of veggies and some fruit...not very much though. Oh and a lot of water. Mostly my meals have been some kind of protein and lots of veggies.  I'm not trying to cut out carbs but I try to limit them as much as possible.

I really just think something has clicked in my head. When I was an over weight teenager I said that I didn't want to be an overweight adult. Now there's no way that I'm going to be an overweight 30 year old.

Well thanks again and email me whenever you want...we can be blogging buddies:) Talk to you soon and remember you can do it!!

Great job!

Day 2 down and many more great days to come!  Thanks so much for your comment on my blog.  You're right - we should take credit for EVERY pound!  I am very interested to follow your progress.  I've struggled with my weight my whole life, and I understand those feelings of inadequacy, self-defeat, worthlessness...........let's do this together!  It's one day at a time.  I'll be here for you.  I know how tough this is!!!

Amy