The Good Stuff To Look Forward To
To wear a dress.
To learn the jive, lindy hop, swing dancing and all that stuff. And feel good doing it.
To have a bath and be completely covered by the water.
To be chatted up by someone who's just seen me and likes the look of me.
To be able to run.
To do a triathalon. (This is based on recently watching the contestants on the Biggest Loser doing this and being so jealous).
To not feel completely inadequate.
To like what I see in the mirror.
To get to the point where I do something physical like running up a few flights of stairs without thinking about it.
To not be bothered if I need to get the train at a time when I know it will be packed.
To feel like I'm living and not just existing.
I'm sure I will think of more and will update later.
These things do seem a bit vague and wishy washy, and more about my thoughts than tangible achievements, but I guess it's just the place I'm coming from right now. Emotionally charged! But hey, that's not a bad thing, I think I will still like to read back on this down the line and what I've written (especially the other post) will take me straight back to my current mindset. And hopefully show me how much I have changed, and why I would never want to be this way again.