So today is the 1st of Oct and i should have done well. I told myself I will start the month good! But unfortunately, its one of the worst days in terms of eating. And thank goodness though exercise was alright.
You see, I had a yummy low calorie sandwich as usual (I always have that for breakfast) and then I went for a very short golf practice with one of my colleague. (We only played 45 balls and we aren't good at it) You see, our PC test is on 11 Oct 08 so we had to practice, not that we have alot of interest in it, its just partially for work. So anyway after which, thats the huge pitfall-- we went to the resturant at the golf club, which serves really good and big portioned food!
I told my colleague (a female) that we must order to share and we will order only a few dishes, but in the end, we ended up ordering all of our favourites, 8 deep fried chicken wings, a mango and prawn salad, and softshell crab pasta. These are our favourites and really, its damn damn good. We were eating and reminicising our good old days where we will eat these high-caloried fattening food every week. Anyway, the mango and prawn salad is the super unhealthy kind, with lots of oil, seasoning and thousand island (we forgot to ask the waitress to have the thousand island at the side). So we had those unforgiving food, and I'm really praying that it will not have any impact on my previous loss.
And then, when I reached home at about 3pm, I just had to munch. And so I did! I ate like half a huge box of post cereals, you know the honey waffle kind. My goodness, its so sweet and crunchy, just what I needed. I intended to eat only a handful, but as always, I ended up eating nearly the whole huge box before realising it!
So, to compensate, I decided to go for a jog with my sister, but my bf called at the last minute asking to go out. So I ditched my sis, and went with my bf instead. Feeling very guilty about it, but I promise I will make it up to my sis. Then, in a bid to ensure I will fit my exercise in, I struck a deal with my bf that I will buy him a pair of shorts if he runs with me tonight.... and thats what we did! He ran 2.4km, and I ran 4km, and the good news is, I'm actually faster than him by 0.4km! We ran the tracks, so I know. Hahaha. Feeling so pleased with myself.
Sorry to bore you babes with this boring post, but I just had to type to log in my weight loss efforts, so that if needed, I can re-read and recall these happy memories. And hopefully, it will give me the motivation to continue onto the next few lapses.
Oh and did I tell you I bought 2 new pairs of shorts from fila?!?!?! Its so exciting, they are the cotton type that I just love,(but could not fit) and today, I managed to find the extralarge ones that fit!!! Okay, it does not fit as well as I would like it to, but I promise I will fit in nicely by 2009. Its hanging on my wardrobe now for my daily viewing. Hahaha. Oh and I bought a size 46 tennis skirt today too!!! Its lovely, but I still need to get rid of some buldges here and there.
Shopping really does wonders to my mood and weight. I simply love shopping. But it does always burn a huge hole in my pocket.
Hi all, first of all, thanks for all your comments! Its been great and hahaha, Imjiang, my bf works at the same com as me, so .... hahaha, anyway, thanks for your encouragement!!!
So, today is Tuesday and like all other tuesdays (okay, I know its only the 2nd tues), its weigh in time!!!! And allow me to brag alittle, IT"S BEEN GREAT!!!! Really superb. Hee, here are the results:
2nd WI -- 30 Sept 08 (Tuesday) since 14 Sept 08
Start weight (last tues): 164.8lbs
Weight at 2nd WI: 162.2lbs!!!!
Weight lost this week: 2.6lbs/1.2kg
Total Weight lost: 4.1lbs/1.8kg
I'm feeling so so pleased though alittle tired. I'm rather tired of having to calculate calories, having to drag myself to the gym. Yes, results has been great, but the inertia and old habits, arghh they are getting to me. Go away laziness, go away old habits! Leave me alone!
I have been allowing myself lots of food, so long as they are more or less catered for in my daily calories, i.e., every heavy yummy dinner can only be after a less calories breakfast and lunch. So i guess the balance is there. As such, I dont really crave any particular type of food, cos I would have factored them in.
However, the issue here is, having to keep thinking and calculating them makes food in my mind 24/7 and that sucks. Its as though i'm holding my breathe and I wonder how long more can I hold on to. I suspect I need a break and just binge instead of controlling and watching myself so intentively and carefully.
But, if I let myself go again, especially after all these wonderful results, I know I will definately regret especially if I were to gain. So trying my hardest now to hang on.
Okay, on to happier stuff, Have you ever received a package in the mail?!?!??! I did!!!! Its my apple ipod shuffle!!!! Its great! I so so love it. I got the red one by the way, and I just charged it. Haven't really started using it yet, but wow, its such a beauty (like me! )
Okay, i think they are offing the internet soon,(i'm outside now) so I better post this post now.
There are so many things I wanted to share here. The first piece of news is I made it, I jogged 7.2km today in 58 minutes at a varying speed of 7.6km/hr and 7.2km/hr at my office gym. So super proud of myself... and the thing is, i could have just gone on and on, I wasn't tired today (probably cos I didnt exercise for 3 days consecutively already), but my lunchtime was up, so I just had to stop and drag myself away from the treadmill.
Second news: I bought a knee support yesterday for my left knee, and I tried it today... It gave me good support until the 4th km, where it started to slip down towards my calves, and bite into my flesh. So painful and uncomfortable, worst than without the supports. I think I need to get a bigger size. Apparently I over estimated my mini weight loss and bought myself a "large" instead of a "extralarge". Damn.
Third news: There is this really pretty and (slim) lady on my level at work.. and she is really gorgeous. (everyone knows that) and the thing is, today, she received a huge bouquet of red roses. It was delivered to her. So romantic. I wonder when it will be my turn to receive such a gift from a secret admirer? Or maybe its her husband... not too sure but wow, such a pleasant surprise for her.
Fourth news: I took a peek at the scales today and guess what?!?!?!?! I now weigh in at 162.4lbs!!!! Wow, I'm bowled over. Its such a pleasant surprise. Whatever I've been doing, I must be doing it right. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that tomorrow at the official weigh in, I will weigh just that or even lighter! If I can continue to lose big numbers like that, I may even finally be at 130lbs (59kg) by Jan 26 Chinese New Year 09!!! Okay okay, hold your horses. I shouldn't count my chicks before it hatches.
Okay, dinner time, its nearly 7.20pm and I'm starved. Cya everyone! Lets fight the fats!
No exercise and lots of food this weekend = trouble trouble trouble on Tues
Yes, as what my title goes, this weekend has been terrible in terms of food intake and exercise... really terrible. But luckily, in all other aspects, its been good. Things with my bf has been really good and i'm living in bliss now.
So today, I didn't do what I said I would yesterday. Indeed, I didnt manage to do any exercise at all!!! And its all thanks to my bf... he just wanted to laze around, and as I'm not a good swimmer, I dont feel comfortable enough to swim alone... and I didn't jog at all with my sis cos we sort of overslept in the morning. Sucks I know. And food was alright until dinner.... tried to eat as little as I could without feeling hungry, but eating out AND keeping within the calories allocated is really tough. And I had this craving for sweets when I got home, so I had like 300 cal worth of sweets?!?! Gummies to be exact. They are my weakest link. Gummies and chips. Those I can't resist!
So tomorrow will be a better day I promise. I will have to somehow ensure I jog at least 5km tomor! Feeling so guilty now for not exercising for 3 days straight (Fri, Sat, Sun). Hopefully I will be able to get my weight down for Tuesday's 2nd WI. I have to weigh in at 163lbs or less, in order to fulfil my first goal of being 150lbs by dec 08. Wish me luck!
I was watching this taiwanese show "Guess guess guess" and they were showing a show-case of five super babes in the bikini competition, and wow are they gorgeous... I took down some of their statistics.
Lady 1: 163cm 47kg 32B, 24, 35
Lady 2: 176cm 54kg 32B, 25, 36
Lady 3: 165cm 45kg 30C, 24, 34
Lady 4: 171cm 49kg 34C, 24, 35
Lady 5: 170cm 50kg 34C, 24, 35
Wow!!! Gorgeous!! So I really need to wait my secret ideal weight of 49kg, and hopefully by then my stats will be nearly there!
Oh manz, I overate today!!!!! And its not even because I really wanted to. But the good news is, me and my bf made up... and we are together again, happily! I know I said some mean things in my previous post, but, like most other girls, our barks are worst than our bites... I just needed to get all that angst out.
So, today, my bf invited me to his friends' gathering and it was great (except for all the eating). I love going to his gatherings with his friends, cos it just makes me feel so part of his life, and it makes me feel that he is proud to show-case me to his friends, in a sense. Insecured? Maybe, but irregardless, I really like doing things together.
Knowing that I will be having a big feast for dinner, I had a 300 cal breakfast of homemade sandwich and for lunch, fishball noodles and a chicken wing approx 550 cal. Then 2 slices of papaya and a yakult, total of approx 1010 cal. Then horror of horrors, we went to a vegetarian resturant for dinner at chinatown and the food was delicious, BUT, I have forgotten that it was a vegetarian restuarant, and all the "meat" I had were actually mock meat!!! Meaning the 9 dishes we had were all made of flour!!!! And to think I foregone my bowl of rice, for flour?!?! Arghhhhh! All my efforts gone down the drain, and $20 bucks for that too! Oh gosh, I feel I can kill myself for overeating and it wasn't even satisfying. I mean, if I wanted to cheat, I would rather have hogsbreathe cod fish or pasta!!!
And then to make matters worse, we went to have desert after that! Green tea with red beans snow flakes. Its yummy, but sweet and that means carbo and calories! Yikes. And no exercise for the day too! Oh shit.
But I must say I enjoyed the company I had today. His friends were hilarious and its great to mix around and chat and relax.
So, tomorrow, it looks like I've got to work doubly hard at walking/jogging the extra calories off.... Just took a peak at my scales and I think I just gained 1kg!!! 2.205lbs. That will completely wipe off my first WI loss! Argggghhhhhh. How did I let it happen right under my nose!!!! Today's intake of nearly 4000 cal!!!!
And so he had to hurt me again. I really don't know why I should be tolerating it. I know I deserve someone who truly appreciates me, DEFINATELY NOT someone who always think I am just unworthy, undeserving, fat and ugly. Because let me tell you, what gives him the right to critise?! He's not goodlooking at all, and super fat too, weighing in at 98kg. He's practically obese(he's only 1.72m tall), yet I never ever criticise him for anything!
I really don't know why I am still in this relationship. I've had just about enough. Every single day without fail, all he'll say is that I am fat and ugly, and how he wish I were like this girl, that girl... It sucks let me tell u. If you don't like me and my body, then let's just stop wasting time and break up, I tell him, and all he says is, I've no choice but to accept it.
Hey, you don't have to ACCEPT it. Don't like it? Then move on, fuck off. I swear if he were to say anything bad about my looks or my body again, I swear I will slap him. I've really reached my brim.
With that said though, I have to say, he is a good bf. But his bad comments is really enough to kill me, enough to make me want to pack my bags and walk out of this relationship. So, if YOU are reading this post, let me warn you, enough is enough. One more nasty comment from you about my shape, size and body weight, I AM WALKING OUT!!!
To all other readers (Except him), I apologise for my nasty post today, but I just have to get it all out.. No offense.
Hey all, yes, I know, second post within the hour. But I was just thinking, isn't it cool to be calculating and jotting down all the mini goals?! So here it goes:
1. From 166.3lbs to 150lbs: Timeline: 14 Sept 08 to 14 Jan 09. Event: My good friend Liping and WeiJie's wedding celebration.
2. From 150lbs to 140lbs: Timeline: 14 Jan 09 to 14 April 09. Event: My bf will propose to me once I am below 65kg/140lbs.
3. From 140lbs to 130lbs: Timeline: 14 April 09 to 14 July 09. Event: My happy weight as a birthday gift to myself.
4. From 130lbs to 120lbs: Timeline: 14 July 09 to 14 Dec 09: Event: My ideal weight and a present for my bf's birthday! And a Happy Happy Christmas!
5. From 120lbs to 110lbs: Timeline: 14 Dec 09 to 14 Feb 09. Event: My secret ideal weight (though may be overly skinny) And Happy Chinese New Year 2010!
So, first mini goal, 4 months to lose 16.3lbs. That is approximately 2kg a month. Sounds pretty achievable but it terms of weight loss, exercise and food, we can never be sure. Oh well!
Hi all!!! I just came back from a jog at the gym, and despite having my menses, and feeling extremely bloated from my breakfast choice of kfc toasted crispy twister and fries (not the healthiest choice I could make I know), I ran 6.1km non-stop!!!!! (though at a slow spd of 7.2km/hr). Feeling so so proud of myself! The first 2 km was pure torture, I had stomach cramps, and really just felt like giving up! But thinking back on yesterday night's steamboat buffet and this morning's junk food fiesta, I really need to work it all out, so I just kept going. Its weird how once you do 4km, you think just 1 more km to make 5km, and once you reach 5km, I just felt 1 more km to make 6km! And so thats what I did!!! I ran 6km!!!
Remember my post yesterday promising that I will do at least 5km to compensate for my buffet?! I did it!!!! Its really one of the rare times I actually stuck to my word for the weight loss efforts! Yippeee!!!
Its 3pm now, and I can feel that my stomach is very empty, though I still have lost and forgotten how hunger feels like... Contemplating whether I should eat or I should just wait till later when its nearly dinner.
My bf just had lunch and he brought back half of the 6" personal pan pizza-pineapple and ham pizza. Hmmmm. Still thinking if I should eat it or give him back and buy the healthier choice of sandwiches. Checked online and i think I'll give half of the pizza 350cal. Very rough estimate, but it will bring my total for today to 1430 cal and its not even dinner yet! Most likely today's intake is going to be much more than I allowed yet again. Should I or should I not??? Arggghhh so much junk food today!!
Hi hi, thanks for your comments. I think I didn't express myself too well in my previous post. Hahaha. You see, I didn't run 24km a day. I can't even run 6km a day! What I meant was, I have so far currently, since 15 Sept accumulatively ran 24km. And today, I ran 2km, bringing the total to 26km. Hahaha. Sorry for the misunderstanding.
So today, somehow I just felt weak. Weak enough for me to run only 2km (usually I run approx 3-5km). I think its a sub-conscious issue... its weird, but it seems i've lost the feeling of hunger. Apparently my body has "forgotten" how to feel hunger and its scary. Its scary how I can just skip breakfast, lunch, dinner, and if I were to be left to my own defenses, I will probably not end up eating for a whole day! Its like I am on phetermine, the appetite suppressing pills. Anyway, not to worry, I did have breakfast this morning at 11am. Dumplings soup. I didn't really want to eat and neither did I feel any hunger pangs, but I told myself eating is going to give me the strength I need for my gym session during lunchtime. I dont want to faint during my gym sessions!
And for lunch, I had a sandwich, not my choice of lunch, but today is simply too busy at work. Had the sandwich just 5 mins before a meeting! But it felt good. The ability to control my eating habits just really makes me feel so strong and in control somehow.
But, just a little after 5pm, I have this slight tightness in my head. Its like I can't seem to relax... and i suspect its because of my food intake (or maybe I am just being paranoid), so I suggested to my bf to go to hogsbreathe for dinner.
Hogsbreathe has this really delicious menu of cod fish, steak, and their ribs, hmmmmm yummy.
So after work, its vivo city we went, for the famous hogsbreathe! But alas, there was this promotion of chinese steamboat buffet, and in my bait to please my bf (I thought he preferred the steamboat buffet) we went to have the buffet. And can I tell you it really sucks. Firstly, its a buffet and it feels so weird not eating all you can to get your money worth and secondly, though its supposedly healthier, there just wasn't any satisfaction! And to think I wasted all my calories on that unsatisfying, expensive, not so great meal!!!! I am so mad I can kill myself for that horrid choice.
Feeling so guilty and all for overeating, especially over eating at something that didn't even quite deserve to be in the category of "delicious". Damnit, we should have just stuck to our planned hogsbreathe. At least then, my cravings would have been satisfied and my calories well spent!
And so, I;ve decided! Tomor I've got to run a 5km at least! I really can't believe I wasted my efforts on that meal! Keeping my fingers crossed that I wont gain.
Okay, back to happier stuff, so my bf and I caught the movie "Step Brothers". I didnt quite like it, though my bf felt it was hilarious. And many times through the show, I can just imagine my fats accumulating on my butts... I mean we sat there for like 2-3 hrs straight! I keep imagining how cinemas should have treadmills where we can just take a stroll on while watching the movie. Okay, i know its a terrible suggestion, but i think i am really addicted. Addicted to losing weight, and addicted to blogging here.
So hows everybody? I hope I keep this healthy eating and exercise at least till I reach my goal weight of 110lbs. Keeping my fingers crossed. Wish me luck!
Really superb. Hee, here are the results:
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Or maybe its her husband... not too sure but wow, such a pleasant surprise for her.
What I meant was, I have so far currently, since 15 Sept accumulatively ran 24km. And today, I ran 2km, bringing the total to 26km. Hahaha. Sorry for the misunderstanding. 
And can I tell you it really sucks. Firstly, its a buffet and it feels so weird not eating all you can to get your money worth and secondly, though its supposedly healthier, there just wasn't any satisfaction! And to think I wasted all my calories on that unsatisfying, expensive, not so great meal!!!! I am so mad I can kill myself for that horrid choice. 