I'm truly proud and amazed at myself for doing really well this week with my eating. Besides overdoing it on the chilli (I had Fritos with it.) I did really really well. Usually by day three, I'm back in the cookie jar. Since I decided yesterday to go back to Body For Life, (It is a plan I can truly stick with for life.) I decided that instead of the cheat day recommended by the book, I'd have a cheat dessert, since dessert is my weakness. Well, after much coaxing I finally got my husband to go to the grocery store. He was really dissappointed by the Saints performance and I figured he could use the fresh air, even if he didn't think so. I asked him to get some sugar free pudding and light whipped cream...well....the grocery store was out of sugar free pudding so he called me and asked if I wanted the boxed kind. I said no and to get the regular chocolate jello pudding. He proceeded to say, "OK, I'll get you the fat girl pudding." WTF!!!! He claims he was just kidding but I felt like kicking him in the balls through the phone. Come on ladies!!! You don't talk to a woman whose trying to lose weight like that. You're bound to get B-slapped. WTF!!!! Anyway, I'm still proud of my accomplishments this week. I will do well this coming week as well. I've gotta catch up to my friend. Man, she has done really well in losing 12 pounds so far. She's amazing. She's my hero. I'll talk to you tomorrow. Meanwhile don't let others negative comments get you down. You can and will accomplish your goal if you set your mind to it!
I truly did not realize how many people are out there struggling to lose weight! I know the facts about America being one of the fattest countries in the world but I guess it just did not register with me that my little circle and I are not the only ones fighting this battle. I practically spent 2/3rds of my day floating from state to state, via the web ofcourse, viewing hundreds of blogs of people posting their exercise plans, food journals and the most intimate thoughts and deepest desires. It's really true. Obesity is our greatest pandemic. This adds even more fuel to my desire to lose the unwanted pounds. 50 to be exact. I'm determined to do it, for my sake and for the sake of my children. I don't want them to grow up having lived a sedentary lifestyle or watching parents who do. What's so funny is that I always said I would never let my self go. I would always be active and that the tons of food I ate when I tried to gain weight in my younger years would never catch up to me. Never say never. The food definitely caught up, I let myself go ( I don't fix up nearly as much as I used to.), and my activity levels had not been up to par, not until I recently started back working out. My biggest triumph today was burning 513 calories on the treadmill walking at the highest incline for 15 minutes; I stayed on the tready for a total of 50 minutes. YEAH!!!!
It will be a mighty happy day when I can actually fit into the size 14 clothes I wear. My friend always jokes about this one particular outfit that I thought looked just a little tight. She says the pants flood and the jacket is tight. I knew it was tight and that I had red marks on my stomach and that after lunch I HAVE to unbutton but I didn't think it looked that bad! OK Friend! I admit it. I am in denial. Let me the first to say over these blog-waves that I AM NOT REALLY A SIZE 14. But I will not buy a size 16, my true size, because since I am really sticking with it this time I don't need to. I will have lost the weight anyway so I don't need to go up right?? I can deal with the red, painful, swollen stomach. Does this mean that I'm still in denial????
Today is my one week aniversary! I started working out and eating better last Wednesday and this Wednesday guess what! I lost 1 pound. Isn't it wonderful? I find it awefully amazing that I'm so elated over one measly little pound. I don't know what I expected and I didn't even plan on weighing myself but I'm glad I did. This represents a one pound victory in my 3 year battle with 40 pounds of fat. I've lost fat and gained fat consistently over this time period losing up to 16 pounds only to completely blow it and gain them all back. This time I plan on taking it slow and doing it right. No fad diets and no fat flushes. I have a new confidence this time. A confidence in my ability to discern what is right for my lifestyle and my body and a confidence simply in ME.
By the way, I got my tires fixed. I had four nails in two tires. Darn that downtown construction!!! Darn it all to HEC!
Today I walk from my office to my car and discover a tired, cold and lonely deflated tire. I guess my car and I are in tune. We both feel overworked and undervalued and sometimes have to deflate a little to inflate a lot.
Tomorrow will be the anniversary of my first week back on my journey to a healthier lifestyle. What does "a healthy lifestyle" mean you ask???? Well, for starters...
Size 8 dress
Joggin alongside the Atlantic Ocean Baywatch style - hair flowing in the wind - in slow motion
Being able to keep up with my energetic kids
A clean and appreciated liver.
Better sex (with my husband of course - I'm looking forward to reclaiming my libido!)
This is by no means an all inclusive list but merely a varnish on the surface of a long list of reasons why I'd like to buzz with energy again. Truth is...I want so many things and try so many things at once that I don't know which way is up half the time. After spinning around in circles trying to adhere to diet "rules" that are limiting and downright cruel, I've decided to shun them all. I could really write my own fitness bible. I will follow my own intuition this time. The way I eat and my workout will be my own ( and my workout partner - who by the way is bringing sexy back - lol.) We're going to lose all this unnecessary FAT this time and reveal the "fine" that's been lingering within.
