06/25/2010 05:02
Off the wagon!!! How do I get back on the horse?
Well its been 2 or 3 weeks since my last post. I need your help and prayers!
It all started with a problem with the scale. I started at 506 and each week I see the numbers go down. It has always been a very touchy scale hooked up to a computer so I sometimes have to weigh 2 or 3 times to get an accurate number. Each week the number was lower until I got 437. But now I can weigh 20 times and the numbers range from 440 to 485 each time. I can't get an accurate reading anymore. It is very discouraging because I don't know if the 437 was right or not. I have no idea anymore how much I weigh!
June has been a very hectic month. I started lifting weights and walking, but I also had a lot of joint - knee - foot problems. I have had a really busy month (which is unusual) and the trouble weighing on the scale (I feel like I've stalled out). My workout schedule has been thrown off by all of the above. June has been a busy and fun month on the one hand, but on the other it has also been kinda discouraging and depressing. A really weird feeling.
I stopped my food journaling last week because I went out of town. Now I have to get back to it. I am eating things I'm not supposed to. Not gorging, just bad choices. Last week I had a 1 hour weight training session with my trainer and a 1/2 hour on my own. I have not been to the gym in 8 days. I can't walk because the heat index here is over 100 EVERY DAY! They are warning people to be very careful. I really want to get back on track. Why is it so hard to get back on the horse? Uggh
I think my trainer notices my disinterest. I hope I can show her next week that I am still in it. I have to convince myself first. I really need her help if I'm gonna make it.
My birthday is Tuesday and I WILL make it and July a better month. I hope I will "feel" like I am still losing weight, cause I don't now.
Any ideas to get back on track????
Goodnight all
Posted By: jon2520
06/25/2010 03:39
Thoughts...
UGH>>>> I wrote a great comment and put the wrong character in the code and EP ate it!!! Dang it! I spent a while trying to word it nicely but with a dose of tough love. ;) I'll summarize...
Dear Jon,
Get out of your head and out of your own way. You know what was working for YOU: heat is horrible here, too, but you can walk in place at home, no gym in 8 days? swimming is good for joints, food journal? notebooks fit in suitcases. You were being honest with yourself and accountable to others. If you do what you're supposed to do, you could not do a WI for months and still know you're on track weightwise.
You need to remind yourself that you deserve a better life than you're allowing yourself to have. Isn't that why you started this to begin with? As I recall, you wanted more for yourself - reconnect with that part of you. Forgive yourself for getting off track, and get back in the game, hon.
Jon, you got this thing! Happy Birthday early!
06/25/2010 11:30
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Breathe.... 2.... 3.... 4.....
This is such a hard process, especially when we have soooo much weight to lose.
I'd get back to journaling. Be sure you're drinking your water. Make healthier eating choices. Exercise how you can with your joint, etc issues.
At the same time, look back through your posts and journaling and see what was working, what wasn't working and why you started to "cave" and make not-so-good choices: were you too rigid from the start? Maybe start with smaller changes again for a few weeks? Better a slow loss than no loss or gains.
(( HUGS )) prayers and happy birthday!
06/25/2010 11:30
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Breathe.... 2.... 3.... 4.....
This is such a hard process, especially when we have soooo much weight to lose.
I'd get back to journaling. Be sure you're drinking your water. Make healthier eating choices. Exercise how you can with your joint, etc issues.
At the same time, look back through your posts and journaling and see what was working, what wasn't working and why you started to "cave" and make not-so-good choices: were you too rigid from the start? Maybe start with smaller changes again for a few weeks? Better a slow loss than no loss or gains.
(( HUGS )) prayers and happy birthday!
07/03/2010 01:30
scales and journals?
Sure, I know the problem. I dont worry about writing down what I eat, I known what it is. This thing is a mind set, look at it in the long term. We didnt get this heavy overnight and it will take a long and determined effort to reverse the process.
I'm sort of stalled out myself, need to go by the doctors office and get another offical weight. My my home scales are up and down a pound here and there. I'm having physical problems too but at least you have age on your side, I think you're younger than me.
Here in North Carolina it's hot and humid too, I just go walk the dogs of an evening when I'm home and sweat it out. Confession time, I ate a couple of slices of pizza this past week, at least they didnt taste that good
