is how my last week went. I did not go to curves at all this last week. I did not do very well on eating. could have been worse, but still wasnt super. so i am going to make an excuse for myself. not a good one but i dont want to admit that i was just lazy. lol. it was however very very very cold here this last week. most days it never even reached 0. yes you read that right a big fat ol 0 degrees. i live in minnesota so i guess its par for the course but still it was so cold that when i got in my car after work all i could think about was going home and changing into my nice warm comfy flannel pajamas. so yes this week was a flop but i will do better this week. some days it will reach 20 degrees so that is a heat wave. plus i had some not so good news on the job front. in january 2012 or a month or two sooner half of the people i work with will lose thier jobs and be either put in a new position or laid off all together. i have no idea where i am going to fall into that mix so we shall see. so this next 10 months you can bet that i am going to work my ass off at work to prove i deserve to stay and use all the experience i can get to use on my resume in case i am laid off. i wouldnt mind moving to a different position if i am able. i just dont want to be laid off. my husband and i decided to try to adopt by foster care. we can not have any children of our own. fertility issues on both sides. so we have decided that there are lots of kids out there who deserve a loving home. we have the room and the love. we just have to finish remodeling a few things and clean up our credit a little bit. We were going to start the whole process in you guessed it Jan 12. lol . oh well things happen for a reason. but i guess i had better jump in the bath tub and shave my legs for curves this week. I have  a weigh and measure coming up in two weeks and my mini goal is 20 pounds by may. i had better get on track agian so i can do it. one week hiatus is long enough. well blessings to you all and i wish you the best in what ever you do.

that pretty much sums up how i have been doing on my weight loss journey. I have not weighed myself yet. i am waiting until feb 3 to do that. i have been very good about going to curves though. even when i havent wanted to go i make the turn at the corner on my way home from work. i have gone 3 times last week and 3 times this week. my eating hasnt been too bad. i have had a couple of days where ya i shouldnt have eaten that small mcflurry or had pizza but one thing i have learned from my past attempts at weight loss if i try to fix everything at one time i burn myself out. so for the past two weeks i have done better than average about drinking my slimfast and following the plan they advise. in the morning i have a meal replacement bar for my breakfast which suprisingly they are pretty yummy my favorite is the peanut butter one i have now it is really good better than the cookie dough one. for my morning 9:00 break i have a peice of fruit for lunch i have my shake which is alright tasting the first day or two i was still a little hungry but that has passed then in the afternoon around 2:00 i have some nuts and then on monday wed and fri i go work out at curves after work. i then try to eat a 500 calorie supper and include my veggies. like i said there were a couple of nights i didnt know what to make and i ended up probably going over my 500 calorie supper but i am doing better than before. I have not had any soda and that is a big thing there. i love grape crush and could drink a couple of cans easily in a day. so after one month of curves three times a week i am going to do a weigh and measure to see how my efforts have gone. i posted my measurements in a previous post. in a couple of weeks we will see. i hope i have made even a little progress to keep me motiviated. i am setting a small goal of 20 pounds by my daughters graduation. i have a pic posted of myself last year at my sons graduation i am hoping to post a completely different woman in the next one. lol. well i guess i had better get back to my house work.  i swept and mopped my kitchen and dinning room this morning. i have my rugs in the wash. next on the list is the bathroom yuck my least favorite room of the house. then i have to dust. and then more laundry. a mom/wifes job is never done. well take care all and Blessing to you and the best of luck and much success on your journey

so its the end of the week. my week went ok I did get to curves three times this week. YEAH FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!! My eating was fairly decent I did have a few yogurt covered pretzels and a rock star coffee and two slices of pizza and we went out for supper thursday to a mexican place so i had chips and salsa and a taco salad i didnt eat the bow part i just ate the lettuce tomatoes and shreddd chicken and the cheese. Otherwise I am proud of myself I could have done so much worse. But I really truly want to be able to lose some weight. While I was exercising yesterday the lady at curves brought my printout of my weight and measurements from the when did all of that measure and weigh stuff, all i have to say is YUCK YUCK. it was hard enough to see the weight but then to see how big i was everywhere else was just sickening. But i am holding myself accountable for this mess i got myself into. these were my measurements as of jan 3. weight 242.4 fat% 43.9 this one really got me I cant beieve that almost half of my body is fat wow i really have let myself go. this next one makes me quite ill also fat pounds 106 so if i were to lose all 106 i would be down to 136 wow that is like almost an unbelievable thing to me. bust 44 yikes and its not because my boobs are big either. waist 41 this intrigues me a little bit because the last time i measured my waist it was 49.5. abdomen 52.5 last time i measured this it was 51.5 hips 50.75 and when i last measured this my hips were 52 bmi 40.4 yuck. So i have a long way to go. i dont quite understand how my weight can go up but my inches went down from the last time i weighed and measured myself. maybe i didnt do it right i dont know. so we will go with what the curves lady said and then on feb 3 i am going to do a one month comparison. i am hoping that i make a little headway. i know that it isnt going to come off over night but i just need to know i am making headway to stay with it. well i had better get to the house work God bless you all and may this be the year of success for you in what ever you do.

So it's tuesday. Yesterday was Monday-I went to curves yeah me. I really focused on what the end goal could look like. I kept thinking how much better I will feel. Was it a hard day no not really. I have really applied myself at work and I can tell the difference in my attitude. I followed my "menu" for two days in a row. No extras just what the slimfast guidelines were. Did I feel hunger yes. Did I feel full after eating not really but I am consuming less calories so yeah I think feeling hungry is expected. Today was better little better. I did feel a little less hungry than yesterday. But I am eating diffently and I can tell a small difference even from yesterday. I know that one day isnt going to make a huge change but i like the way i felt after going to curves. I am just rambling about any old thing. I am getting ready to watch the biggest loser and then go to bed. I need to finish getting my lunch packed and my gym clothes packed for tomorrow. I am hoping that in one month I can afford a new camera to take photos of my weight loss journey. I just had to buy a new house computer so we need to save a little money so i can get one.  I want a kodiak easy share. nothing fancy but something that takes nice picutres and easy to load them onto the computer. well i best get my hinder in gear get my nighty snack. which is this awesome yummy snack bar from slimfast it tastes just like a butterfinger and since i am a chocolate addict its a great low cal chocolate treat. well God's Blessings to you all and may this be your year for success in whatever you do.

So tomorrow its back to work. A new year a new work week. I am so ready. The end of 2010 has been probably the worst end to a year I have ever had. So I am as I stated above ready to start a new fresh  year. Set to go; I did some major overhauling of my cupboards and fridge. Going to curves tomorrow after work. I have been paying on my memebership for several months and have not gone. Talk about a waste of money. But tomorrow that is all going to change. I am going to take it one day at a time and that is all i can do. I miss my dad terribly but I have to find a way to move forward thru my grief instead of eating it away. And like i said in my last post even those yummies i ate before don't make me feel better. I have alot to straighten out this year. Financially and health and family wise. I am tired of life being what it is right now. I am the only person who can make things better for me. In every aspect. So onward and upward and downward (weight wise.) I am going to try to blog every day but I dont know if that will really happen. Well here is to a new year and a newer happier me. Take care and blessings to everyone. May this year be THE year for you.

im so ready to start a new year. the end to this year has been a very sad journey. i lost my dad dec 3- 2 days before his 55 birthday. Diagnosed with a mass on his left lung-two weeks later he dies of what they are saying is a heart attack. i learned alot about myself in the past couple of weeks since. I love my dad and i wish i had done better by hiim as a daughter. i wasnt the greatest kid in the world. i was a big ol brat. lol but he loved me. he loved me when my own biological father never did. my dad was a great man who was loved my many. he had a generous heart and a smile that lit up a room. he did so many wonderful things for so many people. i have ate my sorrow away well not away but you know what i mean. i dont even find comfort in food anymore. i realized that my job isnt so bad. alot of work but it keeps me busy. i want to be healthier. im tired. i look at myself in the mirror and and yuck is the only word that comes into mind. my daughter graduates in may-i am going to try to lose 20 pounds by then i have to find a way to eat better and find a way to exercise. i have a membership to curves i havent been there in a month. shame on me. i need help with an eating plan something realistic that works in the real world if anyone knows of any cookbooks that are diet friendly/family friendly easy healthy quit meals please please let me know i will find it in myself the courage to start and stick to this. for my dad who never gave up i love you dad i hold you close to my heart ...................................a new year new me.......

i have no time to blog today or tomorrow. so i moved this weeks weighin to today. i have managed another small lose however. i need to do better on the exercising this week i only went once last week. yikes...eating is going ok. could be better. but i have to run. God Bless and best of wishes on  your weight loss journey

well I did manage to lose 4 pounds last week. I did not exercise at all BUT I did not drink any soda like I did the week before. Last week there were 3 days I drank alot of pop. I would have to say 2 cans per day maybe 3 on one day. WOW does that ever make a difference. I am going to get back to walking this week now that school will be starting and I have everything done for my daughters last year of school. Senior pictures are almost done we have the out door ones to do on wed eve. Hair for school is done. School supplies are done. She has her drivers license and is driving herself to work now. So I am set to get back on my walking schedule. I stayed in my calorie range pretty good this week. So we shall see how next week goes. To get out of the 230's and into the 220's will be a HUGE milestone for me. I have been at 240 to 237 mostly and that is just to dang heavy. Once i get out of the 230's I am going to reward myself with a haircut. That would be a 10 pound loss. I can't wait till I hit the 20 pound loss mark. But I am not getting ahead of myself. One week at a time, small pounds at a time and I will get there. Well have a good week and God Bless

well this last week was a complete bust. I didnt exercise one single day and we ate out three days. A family member begged us for a place to stay. so we cleaned out basement and rearranged our house so my week was so helter skelter that I did not on plan nor have time for exercise. The day she was to move in she calls and says that they have a place. oh man I was so mad. But that is ok this is a new week and I will just get myself right back on track. I can't exercise today though I have a family funeral and then my daughter has senior pictures and then my whole day is shot. But tomorrow is another day. I will stay on plan with eating I stocked up on yummy food for the next week and I will exercise 4 days this week. That is for sure. We will see how next weeks weigh in goes. hopefully better than this week. take care all and God Bless.

I am very satisified with this weeks results. I have lost three pounds this week. So onto another week. my calorie intake allotment will go down 10 calories. So lets see how that effects next weeks weigh in. I only exercised 4 days last week I was really wanting to go on saturday but my daughter wanted to go get clothes for her senior pictures. So we spent a majority of the day walking around the mall and a few other stores. So I guess I got some exercise just not what I wanted. So lets see if I can get all five days in this week. And I am gong to be very watchful that I hit my calorie intake everyday. Since I am doing some exercise I need some fuel to burn. There was one day this week that I was way under and I know that is not good but it was so hot here I just didnt feel like eating. well I had better finish getting ready for work. I am taking my daughter in for her behind the wheel drivers test this morning at 8 then off to work. Till next week take care and God Bless