Some Mornings

I spent this morning getting depressed over my continuous lack of money and ever increasing debt list (It is getting lower but things keep getting added just when I think im getting somewhere). You know when you have ten minutes where nothing will ever work out ever(total exageration I know but that is what happens right?)

I found myself staring at the box of maltesers in the cupboard thinking eat them eat them eat them .....

 I didnt I am better than that I gave myself a quick mental slap and closed the cupboard. I have decided instead to spend the morning working on my database and converting all my old recipes into low fat ones instead! Much better use of time!

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Jill

Baking Again

Today I had a sudden urge to get back into my baking. I love baing cakes and cooking pies etc...

I have always wanted to do a battenburg and I love making marzipan fruits. I can make a half decent quiche and cornbeef pie.  just dont know who is going to eat it all haha

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Jill

No way!

I have been sat this week not knowing how what I have eaten has affected me, have I ate too much, have I not ate enough?? On the too much end of the scale I will tell you what I eat on a Tuesday which is WI day and is the most I eat in the week ....

 Breakfast - Porridge -- 3 points
                   Sugar Free Jelly -- 0 points
 Lunch      - Tuna Sandwich -- 3 points
                    Cheese Curls -- 1 point
                   Chocolate Mousse -- 1 point
                   Sugar Free Jelly -- 0 points
Dinner      - Pizza  - 14 points
                   Choc Dessert -- 3 points

Total = 25 points

This is what I think of as being a 'fat day' even though my maximum on maintain is 25! So technically I should not be worried yet I am. I also started thinking about what I used to eat! Not until I started to lose weight had I ever tried pasta,rice,peppers,onion,mushroom,couscous,indian,chinese..... the list goes on and on! So I thought I would calculate a day of what I ate back when I was 18stone and I was horribly shocked, here it goes ....

Breakfast - 2x Double Sausage Egg McMuffin - 22 points
                  2x Hash Brown - 5 points

Snack (11am)  - Caramel Rocky -- 2 points
                           Yorkie -- 8 points

Lunch - Cheese and Bacon Burger Chips -- 38 points
             Pepsi -- 2 points

Snack (4pm) - Buttons -- 4 points
                       Coke -- 3 points

Dinner - Cheesy Bites BBQ Deluxe -- 75 points!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
              Cheesy Garlic Bread(4slices) --14 points!!!!!!!!!
              Dairy Milk (500g) -- 60.5 points!!!!!!!!!!!!

Snack - Rocky Bar -- 2 points
             Coke (2litre) -- 10 points

Total = 245.5 points!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can you believe it 245.5 points in ONE day!!!!!! Also I may have had more than that easily in coke or choclate when I was just passing the fridge! That was not a 'fat day' that was just a day. I am totally shocked!!!!! I remember thinking when I was fat that it was not my fault I dont eat that much Ha! Guess I was wrong!

Looking back I think it is funny I am worrying about eating 25 points on a 'fat day' when that is 10% of what I would eat on a regular day haha. Makes you think???

I guess me and the scales can have a good laugh tonight because I have enjoyed this week and if that means I pay a small penelty this week I am fine with that :)

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Jill

Hmmmmmm??

Loving Life!!!

I am loving life atm! I have reached my goal, I have just got rid of my old flat saving £250 a month! Things are looking up!

I have just planned my food for the rest of the week, I never thought it would be this difficult to eat more! No matter what I put in my tracker each day it always added up to 18.5 points! I am now allowed 25! I am not going to go that high to start I was thinking maybe around 20 this week and see what happens!

I had my bourbon biscuits tonight! They were my treat for reaching 6 stone on WW. I still have no idea what to do for reaching my goal!

I went to Wagamamas for my lunch today and me and my friend Hannah spent the afternoon trying on dresses in Debenhams it was awesome! Turns out we are now the same size haha! We were swapping clothes and trying on what each other had picked out, it was awesome I have never been able to do that before in my life!!

I will have to get a move on thinking about my treat!

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Jill

I did not reach my goal......

I smashed it to pieces!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have lost 2.5lb this week! You could of knocked me down with a feather!

I am now 146!! My goal was 147!

I am sooooooo happy :D:D:D:D:D James' camera is away for repair but it is due back this week and he is going to take some nice goal shots :)

My leader asked me if I wanted to become a leader myself????? I have thought about it, I will have a look at the details next week.

The hotdog and pancake were everything I had dreamed haha I took pictures they were that good lol.

I guess I will have to start getting used to eating a bit more, I am not going to go crazy just little things like being able to have 100g of pasta and not 77.5 to fit my points lol

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY

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Jill

Highs and Lows

Today is a very mixed day for me. I am very nervous about the WI tonight as always for a Tuesday, but I am also VERY excited about tonight because I am going to see Lost Prophets at the 02 academy!!!!

I love Lost Prophets it is going to be awesome! Also this afternoon I am going into town to buy a new outfit for the occasion, exciting times!!

As it is my cheat day I am going to the Stateside diner before the gig and after my WI, I am planning to have The Big Bacon Boy (Hotdog with bacon and onions) and the Pancake Stack with maple syrup!!! I am really looking forward to it, I have been craving hotdogs for a few weeks now and the pancakes will be good seens as mine last week were a disaster lol.

I am trying to concentrate on the highs of the day!!!

Time will tell :)

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Jill

ill :(

I am not very well although I know it is only a cold it is in my face lol.

My eyesockets are all swollen and I feel positivly terrible. I have not had the energy to exercise yesterday and this morning. I am having guilt over it :(

Stupid illness lol.

Just going to try and relax and pull myself round before work and try and get back to myself for tomorrow!

I just hope this does not affect my weightloss too bad this week!

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Jill

New Project Woo Hoo!!

I am slightly annoyed about losing my eSource when I go gold on WW (I could pay but why?).

On the up side I have a new project! I have got my lovely James to make me a shell database on access that I can use as a replacement tracker so over the next couple of weeks I am going to be entering food data ready for the switch over. I will be going mental with details haha

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Jill

Running Moi? Oui :D

Hey hey,

This moring I decided to go for run on top of my exercise bike routine. It was not as difficult as I thought. I may even do it again.

I lost 0.5 pounds this week about what to expect this close to goal. I am determined to lose more next week!

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Jill