You said it, girl!
Gwynn has been inspiring me today 
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I got up this morning and was so frustrated with myself. In the first six months I was doing this, I lost 40 pounds.
But the next 8 months have been a different story. I now weigh the same as I did at the start of December. When I think about where I planned to be this summer, I want to weep. I am STILL feeling gross. I am STILL in the position of feeling embarrassed at parties/weddings/the beach.
Then I read this on Gwynn's blog:
I don't think there is some emotional reason that is causing me to not want to move past this weight range but I do think that I have learned exactly what it takes to maintain my current weight. I have grown comfortable with the way that I have been eating and in many ways I have grown comfortable with being a size 16. In order to make it to goal this is going to have to change!
Let me tell you, LOTS of little alarm bells started ringing as I read this!
Because this is how it is for me. I am maintaining my weight...this has been hard for me to realise, because I feel like I am overeating. And I am, I guess, because I am significantly overweight.
I also don't hate the way I look now to the extent I can't live with it. But at the same time, my weight still distresses and limits me and damages my health.
So I can actually be PROUD: because I have maintained the same weight for 8 months. I have never done that, I have always fluctuated wildly.
Plus...it probably means I don't have to be that strict to start losing again. Just some small changes...not perfection.
But thanks Gwynn for a sudden realisation and a kick up the backside!
We CAN see those scales fall!
Rach xxx