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I am not pregnant...AGAIN.
Still, I have got things started with the doctor now, so at least we should find out soon what (if anything) is wrong.
I am still wanting to lose a lot of weight..and I am busy with other things...so all in all I am not upset.
Diet is going fantastically, these medications just make such a difference.
I feel almost as though I am 'cheating.'
However, they aren't diet meds or an appetite suppressant and I am not taking them for the purpose of dieting...they are for anxiety, and particularly obsessive-compulsive kinds of thoughts, just a really low dose.
I took them before until October, and lost a lot of weight in that time, but I started taking them the day I started my diet, so I never really noticed the connection.
But connection there is.
Well, normally when I try to lose weight, some time in the evening I start thinking 'well how long am I going to stick to this?' And the worry makes me turn to food.
Now, with the tablets, I just don't think about it...so I am only running on natural hunger. And it isn't working that well! Yesterday, I literally had to force down my meals.
However, today I am ravenous, but certainly able to stop myself going overboard.
Anyway, I queried this and apparently these tablets are actually sometimes used to treat binge eating disorder...but because they are only useful in very specific cases, they only actually have success in very few instances.
The doctor didn't even give them to me for the binge eating.
I was also encouraged because I read that 95 per cent of people who take these tablets and do have success relapse and regain all their weight instantly upon stopping them.
But I have learned so much I actually lost another 14 pounds after stopping them, and maintained it for 5 months.
I worked so hard to learn to manage my anxiety without pills, so I chalk that up to that progress.
So I do have a lot of hope.
Anyway...that is it for today, nothing more to report.
Lots of love Rach xxx
