Balancing Act
I am totally ashamed of myself.
Not because of the diet, no, with that I am perfectly on plan. Last night after dinner I realised I didn't feel like eating something...for the first moment since, ooh, October?
The last time I took anti-anxiety meds, in fact.
So the meds are really doing it for me! I am doing them for three months, anyway, and then I will have another think.
So why am I ashamed? Because it is mid-April, and I still have the heating on.
In England, you have your heating on from November till early March, MAX. At least that is how I was brought up.
Anything else means you are throwing away money in a disturbingly frivolous manner, and worse than that, you are a Wuss.
But this year, I hadn't even considered turning it off till a couple of days ago...I made it two days and this morning I just caved. I mean, I work from home and my fingers were so stiff I couldn't type.
And even the cat was cold.
And I had given him the only hot water bottle.
I am justifying myself slightly by saying I think this house is colder than where we lived before.
But I am still thoroughly ashamed...especially as two days ago we did up our budget for the next year and it is TIGHT. It took us 4 hours to make it balance. And any extra heating is going to, well, unbalance the little b*****d. And I really can't face another session of budgeting like that...when we were finished, hubby and I were so stressed we had to make ourselves feel better by going out and spending some money.
Now, I will hurry to admit here, I do not mean the budget is tight in the sense of 'will we be able to feed and house ourselves?'
No, it is tight in the sense of of 'can we afford hubby's £4000 personal training qualification AND a new car (a necessity at this point, if you saw the old one) AND paying my dad back for the house deposit AND my student loan AND...SAVING FOR OUR BLOODY RETIREMENT WHICH ISN'T FOR 38 YEARS FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE, by which point we will probably be dead anyway from the stress of saving for it?'
And the answer is...yes, we can afford those things, as long as we have absolutely zero fun whatsoever this year.
And live off economy baked beans.
So we shall see how that one goes...
Anyhoo, I had better get off here and start earning some bread (to go with the economy beans).
So at least my dinner will be balanced, if not the budget.
See you all later and HAPPY LOSING,
God Bless,
Rach xxx 