I haven't updated in a few days because I have been really busy running between Grandview and Crowley, doing housework at my dad's and getting ready to move. Also, I wanted to be able to write something positive and upbeat but I'm tired and frankly, I don't want my daddy to die - but I don't want him to be sick either. I accepted Christ when I was 10, 32 years ago. I know Daddy is going to a better place, that he will be with Jesus and Mama but losing her May 28th and going through his surgery in June and losing our house and land because of my husbands hours getting cut is just really testing me. We spent our 21st wedding anniversary at my moms visitation, my pastor got a horrible virus the morning of the funeral and my husband had to preach his first funeral since surrendering to ministry - he did a good job. Sorry for the little pity party but I think I feel a little better for putting that into words. I haven't felt like saying all that out loud for fear of breaking down and upsetting others. No wonder women gain weight, we try to fix the worlds problems somewhere between dropping the kid off at school and going to work. Anyway, time to hit the shower and face the traffic and the office. Have a blessed day! I wouldn't be able to face this day without my Lord and Savior, please take Him with you and lean on Him - He is there for the asking.
Thank you to everyone who is praying for my dad. We brought him home today on hospice care and I missed church to get him settled in. I felt more like a little girl who just wanted her daddy than I have felt in years. It broke my heart to watch him struggle while I fed him and my brother and I got him to bed. Anyway, the food temptation was in full force today. Our first patient brought donuts - I did not even look in the box! An orthodontist brought Starbucks coffee and bagels - I had a whole wheat bagel for lunch. Then my husband brought a chocolate cake his mom made home - he and the kid are going to have to eat it alone! I am so tired, hope to start exercising in a few days - maybe that will pep me up. God is good ya'll and I hope to glorify Him in all I do, including my eating habits. Stay strong, stay focused,get healthy!
My dad has cancer and we found out today that the treatments have been ineffective. Everyone I know loses weight under stress, I just wanted to eat. My mom died in May from Alzheimer's, the only thing that keeps me determined to keep on track is my faith. God blessed me with a solid family, a great husband who has put up with my weight roller coaster for 21 years and I have a 10 year old who needs a healthy mom. This is day 3 on Phen and I cannot sleep! Tomorrow I'm only taking half, I'm not nervous or jittery but only sleeping a little. Solomon says in the book of Ecclesiastes that there is a time and a season for everything, keep the faith - seasons change.
