My name is Jess. I'm 23 years old, married to an awesome man (10-8-10), and I have four beautiful children. Erica is almost 6. She is my only daughter, and spoiled :). My fraternal twin sons, Nathan and Josh, will be 3 in July. They keep me on my toes. They require a ton of attention, but I love them for that. My baby boy, Caleb, is almost 11 months old. He's walking all over the place and has been for a while. I can tell he's going to be alot of work to keep up with this summer, but thats ok! My husband, Ricky, is my rock. I turn to him for everything. He is by far my best and closest friend. We have been together almost 3 years, and married for 5 months. He is an amazing father and a very loving best friend. I'm so lucky I have him. For a long time, I thought I would be alone, but then he came along, and I couldn't be happier to be his wife.
Some more about me, I am 5'5, currently 285lbs. This is the heaviest I've ever been. I think I got to this weight for several reasons, one is I've struggled with depression for years now. There was times when I would literally just sit all day and do nothing. I'm trying to change that. Things are slowly getting better. Another reason is my obvious bad eating habits, although I know plenty of people who eat WAY more than I do, my choice of food isn't always the best. I can't stay away from the carbs. Thats something I crave constantly. I have issues with low blood sugar and when I'm having an "attack", I run to carbs to make me feel better. I get really shaky and confused and it wears me right out. I try to avoid these low blood sugar attacks, but sometimes they are unavoidable. I think I've also gained all this weight because my lack of exersice. I know thats the key to maintaining a healthy lifestyle, and I really want to incorperate it into my life and my families lives. Its somthing I have the desire to do, so I think that alone will help me stick with it. I've also gained weight because of my back to back pregnancies. My twins were 12 months old when I discovered I was pregnant again. I gained about 25lbs with them, and then another 20 or so with my youngest. That's 45lbs alone in less than 2 years.
So I guess thats about it about myself for now. I will be trying to blog daily, and I hope it finally works out this time. I can't stand the way I look or feel and it would be a dream come true to be able to take pictures of myself with my children and not want to cry when I look at them!