As you can see, it has been a few months and I am still around the same weight.  I've had to do a lot of soul searching lately to be ok with this.  Of course I want to be THIN, but in reality, I've never been thin.  I've also not been this weight since 2001.  In highschool I would flux between 134-155... which was quite an unhealthy flux.  134 when I wasn't eating, 155 when I did.  So I'm 163 today.  I can certainly eat A LOT more than when I started this bypass journey.  It scares me sometimes.  I don't ever want to gain the weight back.  I don't act like I'm on a diet though.  I try to keep myself in check... which is REALLY hard right now when I'm PMS'ing.  I remind myself each day to think of my protein first.   I try to drink more water.  I did finally make it into those size 12's.  So does that mean I'm no longer a plus size?  Or is size 12 still a plus?  I feel like a plus size, but there's always the mentality of "if I could just be a 10.. 8.. 6..."  I'll always want more.  Once I can get comfortable in my own skin, as it is, I should be happier.  The truth is, if I really wanted to drop more sizes, I'd have to hit the gym hard.  I could do that if I had the money, but I know me.  I won't stick to anything for more than a month.  So I have the option, yes, but I want to be realistic about MYSELF and who I am.  I'm a slow moving lazy butt.  That reminds me.  Even with the iron, I'm still aneamic.  If I don't take my iron I'm like a zombie.  That causes problems some times, but I just have to be strict with my morning routine of getting in all my vitamins and medicine.

Other than the weight stuff, I got a puppy which I love to death.  A little Boston Terrier.  Or should I say Terror?  Haha.  I've also been dating.  And the hardest thing of all is that I've been baking and selling my sweets.  Everyday there are cookies in my house.  How insane is that?

On the agenda for today is therapy and then I have happy hour with my coworkers.  Yay!