Take Me All The Way
Hello again.
Well. It has been a crazy last few weeks. Full of stress, saddness, madness, and definitely craziness.
After being sick, taking Exam #2 in Analytical Chem (which I got a 94 on!!), visiting the family, finding out how Bryan's friend died.. we just have been sad. Eating out all the time and that has definitely taken its toll. I went back up to 270lbs! This week is a bit better. I'm already back down to 265lbs but it's really no excuse to keep doing this yo-yoing to myself. We're eating at home this week and it has been good because we have food that would have been spoiled if we hadn't and I hate to waste money.
I've got a solo in Choir at church on Sunday. It's kind of scary since it is my first one but I'm not really concerned. I have the practice CD and that's what I've been doing in my spare time and during my lunch hour at work.
Going to work out with Inge today down at the University. Since I'll be taking two classes next semester we'll be able to work out even more. I like having a friend to go with, makes it less drab/boring. I worked out with her last week and man it's been a while. My goal for this month is to workout more. I really miss the workout high you get after you go bust your ass for an hour. It makes you feel to good and that you can do anything.
I got hit on a couple of weekends ago (before all the craziness went on). It was very strange. It was with a guy whom I've known but not really ever talked too. He's best friend's with my best friend's husband. Well, Terry and I go to take a couple of her work friends home from this Halloween party and we run into Nathan. I've known Nathan since when I dated Brad (Terry's cousin). He was three sheets to the wind. I mean drunk drunk. So, we're hanging out outside (Terry, Nathan and myself). Nathan starts asking me all sorts of questions like "Do you think I'm ugly?" "Do you think I'm stupid?" "I think you are hot but you think I'm ugly don't you?". I answer these questions with the "What? No I don't think you are ugly or stupid". He tells me "You're hot". By this moment I'm wide-eyed and wanting to leave. He stood in front of me and I turned my head away to try to give him the hint that I was not interested and when I turn back not only is he trying to grab my breasts, he tried to kiss me. I shoved him backwards (not hard but enough to knock him back a couple of steps). This kind of behavior continues for like another 20 minutes before we got elected to take him and his friend home, seeing how drunk they were, they were not going to driving anywhere. So, we drop the friend off and then we go to Nathan's and he wouldn't get out of the car. He just sat there saying "No, no.. I'm not going to my house, I'm going to Terry's house". Terry turned the car off and said "We'll sit here as long as it takes for you to get your butt out of my car". About 20 minutes later he finally got the hint and left. I was mortified. I tried to pull out any and every card I could to tell him no and the reasons why. For one, I'm ENGAGED (he's met Bryan). He said "So?". What a great answer :-p For two, I dated and hurt pretty badly one of his best friends. I'm sure somewhere in the guy handbook this isn't a good idea but he didn't seem to care. For three, I'm ENGAGED and he's MET Bryan!!!!!!!!! People ask me why I don't drink, and there ya go. I don't because I would be as crazy as Nathan was. So, we'll see what happens the next time I go up there and how awkward that will be.
I don't like getting hit on. Terry asked me if it felt good to be called good looking. I told her No! I felt awkward and very much out of my element. The only guys who I've ever dated, I've hit on myself. Because as long as it is on my terms, I'm comfortable. Blah. Gave my nerves a good shaking, that's for sure.
I don't even know why I went into that story but I felt like writing about it so I hope you enjoy it. I guess I should be flattered that a drunk drunk guy tried to get me to make out with him... but it just made me feel cheap.
Well, I'm done babbling today. But I'm getting back on the weight loss track so prayers are appreciated and welcome!! Thank you everyone (especially you Changes!!!) for your support and motivation.
Much Love,
Jennifer