First Official Blog...My background and now.
I never thought I would be in this position. I can't really describe it but my weight is affecting my whole entire life. I work 12 hour shifts and after working and sitting those 12 hours my thigh areas ache. Then I go home and lay down and my pelvic bones ache as if I were 9 months pregnant again. I guess I brought this all on myself and its time to turn it around.
So here we go a blast into the past...
My parents swear I started out life as a tiny little Princess, and when I got into about 3rd grade I started gaining weight. A lot of things were going on in my life then. My parents had recently divorced, and my dad remarried his 2nd wife that he was having the affair with. My mom moved us I don't even know how many times. It was just completely crazy for a 8 yr old to be going through. So I turned to eating...A LOT! Jr High and High School were bad, I wasn't fat I was maybe 20 pounds over weight but I was picked on because I was a size 14 and all the other girls were a size 2. Jr High and High School was also plagged with a lot of illness and deaths in my family. Mothers Day 1995 My dads mother had a stroke that kept us going back and forth to the hospital every day for months, October 1996 My Moms mother suddenly died of Kidney Failure, November 1998 My dads father was diagnosed with cancer and later died in May of 1999 of Pancreatic Cancer, September 2000 My moms father died suddenly from an unknown illness, August 2001 My dads mother died of complications from her stroke in 1995, and all during this time I kept myself busy with school and playing softball. I played for 3 teams year round. This kept me from turning to food. I was still a size 14/16 but I was not fat looking back I was still only 30 pounds over weight but I was as happy as I could be. September of 2001 put an end to all of that I was in a wreck that almost killed me. I tore all the ligaments in my knee preventing me from being able to play softball. This is really when the weight started packing on. I wasn't able to graduate on time due to the wreck, and I had finally came to terms with the death of my grandparents so food was the answer. I became a very lazy lazy person! I also kept myself secluded, I stopped being around friends and family unless I was forced to. I started working 50 hour weeks just to keep myself from thinking about everything.
In August 2002 I met my husband, and by Christmas we were engaged. Then in May of 2003 I found out I was pregnant with my first child. I was so excited, and I wish I could say the same for my fiances parents. They really treated me badly and I am still not over that. My son was born in Jan of 2004, and we were married in Dec of 2004. In Feb2005 I found out I was pregant, our Honeymoon baby. We both were excited, but that was very short lived when we were told by the Dr's office that we had lost our baby. Then in March of 2005 I found out I was still pregnant and the dr's office wasn't sure if it was a twin pregnancy, with losing one of them or I was just pregnant again quickly. Nov 2005 I gave birth to the first girl born to my husbands family is 40 something years. Around Sept of 2006 we wanted to get pregnant again and thought we had gotten pregnant but it turned out to be that I have a major thyroid problem and to this date the Dr's have not gotten it under control. I also had a d&c in Dec of 2006 for a baby that I lost.
We really want to have more children but it is so hard with me weighing in at 253. Before things started going down hill I never weighed over 160, and if I did I started panicking.
I really want to loose this weight. I want to be able to go outside and play with my children and have fun. I don't want to be so big that I can't do anything.
I am starting with short term goals and working into the larger picture. For the Week of Feb 26th I plan on doing the following, again it may not sound like much but I'm starting slow.
1 - 20 ounce Soft Drink a day
4 - 20 ounce bottles of Water a day
10 - Sit Ups ( 4 days a week)
10 - Push Ups ( 4 days a week)
25 - Leg Lifts for each leg ( 4 days a week)
Walk around the Walking Track 4 Times (2 Days a week)
So I was interupted at work while I was writing this. My days run midnight to midnight. I guess that is the only way to work it.
3:30 am - So far I have had 1.5 bottles of water which equals about 24 ounces so far. I have heard it is best to drink half your weight in ounces of water, but that means I would have to drink...127 ounces of water a day (almost 7 bottles a day) I don't know if I can do it, but I'm going to try. My biggest problems are getting off my butt and exercising, no fast food, and WATER!!!!!
Oh Well, This concludes my blog for the day. I hope I done this right!