Just hanging on

Things have been pretty... well, I guess the only way I can describe it is steady.

I'm at the point where I need to reevaluate my mindset a little bit. My weight's staying the same. I do know why. And it's about to sound like I have tons of excuses...

I planned to get back on track when I moved back here. And I did for a while. Then Hurricane Gustav came and knocked the power out for days. I ate whatever we had, which was a couple of peanut butter and jelly sandwiches every day. Dinner was whatever was thrown on the grill (hamburgers, hot dogs, chicken). I did not count points.

And then this weekend was filled with a going away party, my niece's birthday party, and lots of cake.

So this is what I mean by saying I need to reevaluate my mindset: I seem to have lost some of my drive to lose weight. I have been so motivated and determined in the past. Now I guess I'm not so determined. For instance, when I had my wisdom teeth pulled and could only eat soft foods, I counted points then. And when my brother got married last March, I only had a bite of cake, just to taste it. I was able to resist having a whole piece. Those days seem to be long gone. Even the past couple of days I've gone a few points over and justified myself by saying "it's only a couple of points." But that thinking needs to stop!

I'm moving myself to Ohio in a week and a half. I am going to try my hardest to stay on plan during the drive. Hopefully I can find Subway along the way! And when I get there, I've promised myself to make use of the gym that's included in my high rent. I have to justify that high rent by reminding myself I won't have to pay for a gym membership, so I better use the gym! It's going to have to be one of those things I force myself to do, I know, but I think I'll feel so much better with myself once I get my mind right again!