This is hard!
I've been kind of MIA lately, but a lot's been going on!
My internship ended about a week and a half ago, so I just made the trip back to Louisiana from Minnesota. But... I was offered a job in Ohio with the same company, and for the past week I've been mixed up in a rollercoaster of emotions trying to decide whether to take the job and move again or finish grad school.
I have decided to take the job. If I start taking classes for my MBA while working, the company will reimburse me for it. I can't NOT take it!
My weight has been pretty much the same for the past month or two. Quite honestly, I was shocked to see that I had maintained for the most part. I gained a couple of pounds, but that came off rather quickly once I got back on plan! I've probably eaten out at least once a day for two weeks of the past month, if not more. I made SOME good choices, but of course I made some bad ones too! On the trip back to Louisiana, we stopped at a Red Lobster, and I did get my coconut shrimp. It wasn't as good as I remembered the first time, so I know I don't have to do that again!
I'm excited that the weight tracker/graph over there ----> is about to say I've lost 50 pounds! I also have a lot of family in Ohio, so I'm excited to see their reaction when they see me and how different I look! I haven't seen them since last January, some longer, and most of them don't know I've lost any weight. So I'm looking forward to that.
Also... in preparing for this BIG move, I've started going through my closet. I have STACKS of clothes I'm gettig rid of. Clothes I was holding onto for years thinking "I'll be able to wear that again one day." But the clothes that were once too tight are now too big, and it happened so fast I wasn't able to wear them in between! That and I think my body's changed since the last time some of the clothes fit, the ones that should fit just don't look right. My brother said I should keep some of the bigger clothes in case I gain some of the weight back. But here's the greatest thing...
I know I'm not going to! I know how much I used to eat. And I know it's not worth it. I know how much fast food I used to eat without regard to how many calories were in it. I distinctly remember one night going to Jack in the Box, probably after I had already eaten dinner, and ordering two jumbo jacks and two monster tacos, eating ALL of it, and then having a rootbeer float on top of it! My stomach wouldn't even be able to hold all of that food! Keep in mind, the burgers and tacos alone were 42 WW points, and there's no telling how much I ate that day in addition to that! Plus, this wasn't an out-of-the-ordinary occurrence. I went on similar fast food runs several times a week. Today, I eat 23 points a day, and it's about to be 22! I've probably cut my daily caloric intake by 2/3!
I'm comfortable enough with this new "way of life" to know that even if I get off the bandwagon and gain back a few pounds, I can lose them. I of course may fall off and never reach my goal weight, but I swear to you I will never go back to my old habits, and I will never be that large again. I still have a long way to go... but I've come so far, and I'm not going backward!