Added a new pic

I added a new pic. It was taken the other day. It's weird. Sometimes I still don't notice that I'm 45 pounds down, but I often look at that picture of me in the black shirt and then I really notice the difference. Then I can't believe I ever let myself get so huge.

Things are going. This next week will be pretty off plan... it's okay. I have to fly out of state for the job... I have two interviews, I have to give a presentation, and there are all of these other activities planned. I'm so stressed out already that for those three days I'm not worrying about what I eat. I mean, I have dinners and lunches with managers and pizza Monday night... I'm so nervous about the interviews and presentation that I don't think I can handle worrying about counting points! That and I made dinner plans with a friend at a mexican restaurant the night I get back. It will all work out, 3 days won't throw me off the wagon. I'll get right back on it!

I had gained a new sense of confidence that is slowly wearing away. I'm trying to hold onto it, but that's not working out completely.

There was this guy I kind of had a fling with, I guess you could say. But my drunken ass totally put everything out there (not like that) and basically I was told he likes me as a friend... while he was making out with me. I have myself halfway convinced he's just saying some of that, for obvious reasons. I only have 3 weeks left here... so. Not like it could go anywhere anyway. He's still a kid. A mature 20 year old kid, but still a kid with a few years of wild college parties left in him. Frat boy. Yeah. But anyway.

So I think my weight's staying the same for now. It kind of follows my cycle, I'll lose a few pounds during my cycle, maybe gain a half pound or pound, and it will stay about the same for a week. Predictable, at lease. Hopefully it keeps dropping, though! Especially with this trip in a few days.

Well, I guess that's a sufficient update for now.