Well i have been off and on this site reading others blogs for encouragement and motivation so i decided to give it another try posting in this blog. 

I am so tired of the up and down yo yo of my lifestyle.  I need to make healthy changes and work on not ruining my efforts with my emotional eating.

I am not good at consistantly posting on blogs but i am going to give it a try.  Any thoughts and advice on making healthy lifestyle changes would be most appreciated.

  I have not been doing so well lately.  I feel so down about myself and i know that is not going to help me.  I hate myself for constantly shattering my efforts.  I did good all day and then i couldn't sleep so while i was reading a book i snacked on popcorn and mini wheats. What was that all about.  I know i didn't need them and i wasn't really hungry i just felt like i HAD to snack.

   I don't know how to get through this.  I feel like each day no matter how well i do i am just going to hit a brick wall.  Anyone else who has experienced this how did you get through it?

    November has gone by so quickly.  I haven't posted in a while but i get on and read other peoples journals for encouragement.  I got a comment from someone saying that I INSPIRED THEM.  That is so nice to hear once in a while when i can't even inspire myself sometimes.  I am gaining and losing the same pounds over and over again.  I still have not failed because i refuse to give up on myself.

    Right now the weather is getting colder and we have more days with little sun.  My mom is very effected by the weather and sometimes when it is gloomy i feel very anxious and need something to do and so i turn to snacking.  Sometimes i find a cup of hot tea is comforting and not as damaging as what i could have done within that time. We had our first flurries of snow yesterday and while it was COLD it was beatiful to watch.

  I will try to update my blog more often for those that it does encourage.  It is a nice feeling to know that you could be helping someone by the things you say.

Well for the past few weeks we have been moving into our new house back in town.  This has caused some stress eating on my part.  My husband and i have decided to create healthy eating habits together.  So far it is going well

For Breakfast: 

1 whole wheat waffle with 1 tspn low fat yogurt and  1 med. banana with 1 tbspn peanut butter.

Snack:

1/2 cup grapes

Lunch:

2 lean hotdogs with wheat bread, 8 whole wheat tortilla chips and a cup spinich salad

Snack: green pepper and cherry tomatoes

that is it so far but it is looking good.

I have been tracking along but not putting everything i have into losing weight.  I hate when my weight goes up and down and up and down.  I need a steady even if slow weightloss.

I am counting calories and so far have made my goal 2 days in a row.  I am hoping for another good day today.  I just have to think before i eat and decide if it is really what i want and if it is worth the calories i will have to record for it.

I need a couple good weeks to make this more of a good eating habit and not a struggle.  I hope that i can do that if i try hard.

I have not given up on myself yet.  A small goal i have set for myself is to stay on points this whole week and then i get something for myself.  My baby is almost 7 weeks but i am still sleep deprived.

I am really excited.  I am going to the baby shower that is being given for my little boy who is now 5 weeks old.  The bad thing about this is all the bad food that is going to be there.  I am really bad about giving into temptations.

I am trying to tell myself i Can have things i like i just have to be careful not to over do it.  It is easier said than done though it seems like.  I really need some support.

Well Tuesdays are my official weigh in day at home.  Since i am doing WW on my own.  I weighed in at 208.5.  That is .5 down from last week which isn't bad since i did so horrible over the weekend.

Well I finally have all of the WW tools i need to do this from home and I am ready to get started.  I think this will be the hard part restricting what i eat and portion sizes after 9 months of pregnancy and eating what i wanted when i wanted. 

I need to lose this weight for me and my health and for my family.  My wonderful husband and two precious children deserve for me to be around a long time.  My BP has been high since having the baby because i got Pre - Eclampsia.  I think if i start eating better it will level off again like with my first child.

It seems like forever since i posted on this blog.  I got pregnant in October of last year and just had a little boy 2 1/2 weeks ago.  I am ready to get back on track and be healthy again.  I know it won't be easy to get myself started again though.

  I got pregnant when i hit 213 and after having the baby i am back down to 212.  Now if i could get back on track before i eat myself out of house and home.