Busy, Busy, Busy

Been a few days since I've even had a chance to look at the internet, much less do any blogging.  Really just wanted to check in and record my weight. Back down to 147.  Pretty sure most of it was due to TOM.  Had a long 12 hour work day, and probably another one tomorrow, but I've been able to stay on track with my eating, so at least not using it as an excuse.  Love my job 98% of the time, today was definitley part of the other 2%.  Oh well, must go to bed so I can do it again tomorrow, and make sure I get a workout in as well...

Doing better

Did great yesterday with tracking what I ate, and working out.  Have decided to cut back workouts from 6 days a week to 3 or 4.  At least for the time being.  But, if my stress level increases, I'll just have to figure out a way to make the day longer so that I can get my workouts in 6 days a week because I need the release.  This week is just going to be rough because I have to work 40 hours in 4 days.  That's what I get for being sick.  Oh well, it's the end of the month and the days would be long no matter what... Maybe I'll start working out during the weekend more instead of the week.  I feel more awake after a good workout, but have more time over the weekend... Definitely need to work on time management...

back where I started

Ok, so the excuses have to stop, yes I'm busy, yes I'm trying to find a new job in a new town so I can make the biggest move I've ever made before, yes I'm stressed at work, and no I don't have a lot of free time.  However, I've been making being lazy and just hanging out and having a good time a priority over eating right and working out.  I have to stop making what easy the priority and making what right the priority, and that's what I've done today!!  I have my meals planned out so I just need to pack them and take them to work.  I have already gotten in about 30 minutes of exerciese and I've spent an hour looking for a job for my move.  I've done everything I need to do, and instead of stressing about what needs to be done, I just did it, and I feel much better about it.

I've learned my lesson, I can't put eating right and exercise on the back burner.  I realize I may not have as much time now that I'm 8 weeks away from the big move. (about 8 hours drive from where I currently live), the biggest move I've ever made, and that I do need to make the move and everything involved my number one priority, but my diet and exercise will have to follow closely behind, I already have to start over basically, (I'm back to 150, but think that some of it has to do with TOM) and I don't want to gain even more, I just realize that the weight may not come off as quickly as I like, but as long as it comes off, that's what's important.

time to get back on track

So I haven't made time for myself the past two weeks and have totally hit a speed bump in my diet and exercise routine.  I have been eating a lot of junk from the cafeteria at work (10 hour workdays haven't helped) and I've been so tired that instead of going to the gym I slept in today.  I hadn't done that in a while.  Now I'm scared about what the scale is going to say especially since it is almost TOM. So that's it, I have to be accountable and not let long days, and being tired be an excuse to not make my meals, or not go to the gym.  Because those excuses will won't work when I get back on the scale.  I worked so hard to lose the almost 5 pounds so far, and I'm very disappointed that I've risked putting them all back on.  I need to stop with the excuses, get back in the gym and start eating right again.  And that starts right now!!

Time to get back in the game

So last week, was bad, really bad.  I totoally ate too much at our "food day" at work, and then I spent the entire weekend out of town, so I ate badly during the weekend as well.  I did not get to the gym last week like I normally do, I didn't keep track of what I was eating at all, and just let the stress get to me.  I'm relocating, so my out of town weekend wasn't a weekend of fun, it was for searching for apartments.  Good news is we found one, bad news is I used how busy I was as an excuse to eat crap and skip my workouts. 

Well, my body just doesn't like greasy fatty foods any more, and was very upset with the food I was eating and my stomach let me know by being upset after my meals.  I'm going to take this as a good sign.  I did miss my weigh in, which I'm kinda happy about, but I think I do an early/late one tomorrow just to get an idea of where I'm at.  Even though last week wasn't the best one ever concering food and exercise, it did teach me that I'm pretty much used to my new lifestyle and ready to get back on track, and that makes me feel good, now I know this is something I can stick with, because I actually missed the structure and the good feelings when I wasn't sticking to my plan!

Not such a good day

Ok, so yesterday was not such a good food day.  I didn't eat what I had planned and ate at the cafeteria at work, which is never a good choice.  But I'm back on the band wagon today, don't want to gain any of the weight I have worked so hard to lose.  Plus I have to be extra good this week, because I'll be out of town this weekend, which basically means every meal with be at a resturant, so it will be a difficult weekend that I need to be prepared for.

Another good weigh in

I really didn't think it would happen this week.  It was probably my worst week so far food wise, but I've had the biggest loss so far 2.5 pounds.  I guess I didn't do as bad as I thought I did.  This is a great way to start the week.  It definetly makes me want to be "good" all week.  If I can lose 2.5 pounds on a "bad" week, imagine how much I can lose it I have a "good" week.

Had better days

Not such a great day food wise.  I usually keep track of every calorie I eat and hardly ever eat out.  Just wasn't feeling well most of the day and did not feel like fixing or even worrying about what I ate.  I picked something up in the cafeteria at work, which is always hard to find something healthy. Oh well, trying to now let it get me down too much, will do better tomorrow.  Still have 4 days till weigh in...

Sore!!!

My whole body hurts right now.  I guess that's my sign that my workouts are working.  I actually don't mind, I keep telling myself that the soreness in my abs means that they are going to be hot or at least smaller in the future. 

I knew when I started losing weight that I would be happier with myself and more confident, and have a better self-esteem, I just never knew that it would start after only 2lbs loss.  I've never been this happy with myself, and that feeling is enough to get past the soreness and keep going.

Positive vs Negative

What a differance a week makes.  I just finished my workout, and had a blast and felt really good when I was done.  Last week when I did the same workout, I ended it in tears, I was just so sure that it was all for nothing.  What was the difference?  I went into my workout today with a positve attitude instead of a negative one.  Now I do blame some of last week on TOM, but I can't just take a break from life once a month, so after my workout today I've decieded to make sure I do everything I can to stay positive throughout all of this, it just makes everything easier, and more fun.  It will be a challange, but one that will be worth it, I'm sure!!