| Height: | |
| Start weight: | 259.00lb |
| Current weight: | 252.20lb |
| Goal weight: | 148.00lb |
| Lost to date: | 6.80lb |
| Remaining: | 104.20lb |
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When the 4th arrived I thought -- "Oh man, this is it" - but honestly I did very good. It was the day after that got me and i have to dip into my anytime points (yikes) and I usually avoid using those.
So how did you do?
Hooray -- 7 pounds of fat are no longer present!!! So far one week on the weight watchers plan and I lost 7 pounds (Sweet).
How I did it:
How I feel:
Hooray!!!! I made it throught my first week and so far I'm doing great and feeling great. I've noticed improvements in my health, my skin and my overall attitude and the word "can't" doesn't exist!
What I like about the plan (so far):
What I don't like about Weight Watchers (so far):
So far so good! Bring on week 2!
Meet the OLD ME:
I want to pick up the closet thing that's fulled with sugar and force it down my throught for that intsant "Ahhhhh" feeling; I'm having an emotional moment and I'm trying to use food as the cure.
The New ME:
I want to access the situation. I'm I wanting a snack because Im hungry or because I need to make myself feel better emotionally? FOOD IS NOT A CURE.
Ahhhhhhhh - now I feel better.
I think about food constantly -- and I just can't help it -- food is great. It give us the energy to keep moving and fuels our brain so how could I not think about. The problem comes in when I want to eat everything on my plate and my neighbors too. It's like I have a screw loose and the flood gates of "I want that" have been released.
In order to tighten that loose screw i started the write down my feelings of hunger and recored the times of when I'm really feeling. So far it seems to be working. But for those intense "I want that" cravings while I'm eating -- I slow down what I'm doing and take a huge glup of water. I'm finding that I quickly forget the thing I wanted and I concentrate on the here and now. I'm happy that this all seems to be working.
This week on the boards one woman mentioned motivation -- what motivates one to loose weight or even go on a program (like WW) and stick with it. For me the answer is really vane -- I want to look hott (again).
Not that I'm not cute now (my mommy thinks I'm cute) - but before the weight started to pack on I felt sexier in my own skin and I could wear a bikini. What suck is I only had the confidence to wear a bikini once when I was thin. The looks I got where not because I was fat but because I actually made heads turn. Call it selfish but I truly miss that.
And speaking of selfish -- loosing weight is a selfish experience any way. You'll have the most success if you do it for yourself so why not be motivated by bring sexy back (yeah)?
Gwad -- will I ever stop thinking about food? I think about food constantly -- it ususally happens when I'm bored or left sitting at my desk with nothing to do. It's prbably the reason why I haven't broken the 240 mark when I was so close to doing so. Does anyone out there have any advice on how to get food off the brain? Anyone?
It's my 3rd day on the plan and so far I haven't blown my points. The first two days I totally blew my points.
I had a cookie (well 2) that didn't have nutririon facts - once I looked up the recipie I discovered the cookie could be 22pts!!! Yeah -- 22pts -- that pretty much blew it for me. The second day was just too hard. i could figure out what to eat and what to do. The one thing I did right yesterday was have 40 FLOZ of water!! I'm happy about that!
Today -- my eyes are open. I'm eating better and drinking a ton of water. I had lunch already (no breakfast -- back to that later) and I have 23 pts to spare! Sweet - looks like I can stay on this plan -- hooray.
I just stumbled on a revelation - I'm illequipped to handle all the food demands of the day. I'm gonna have to tool up and find many 0 points foods - problem solved -- I hope.
Ok -- right now in the moment I'm a little down I admit. I really hate being fat and all that comes with it. First of all you're a ghost - it's like people don't see you or hear you. It really annoying -- this happens almost daily at work. I have a feeling this has to do with weight and culture. Ok - some back ground info -- I'm a 29 yr old web designer based in skinny california (I mean sunny california). Like most people, I've had my ups and downs with weight. I was a short fat kid, a skinny tall teen (thank GOD for that), a curvy young woman and now a large adult.
I don't mind being curvy so much -- it's the large I can't deal with. When your large it's like no one notices you -- or they notice you but snicker behind your back. I get it at work where people are completely rude - they think it's funny and it's not. Even my own father had something negative to say. But I can't blame other people completely -- I made myself this way and I know that but would it hurt them so much to tell me good things once and a while?
So today I'm trying not to be so transparent. I'm trying to do the right thing which is doing the best thing for myself - loosing weight. I'm not doing it for anybody else -- I'm doing it for me and I have a lot of work to do.
