it even started sprinkling on my drive home. I thought about putting off another run or just eatting dinner and heading to the gym later on in the evening. I checked the radar, rain was coming but nothing too severe. So I did it! I changed my clothes and left immediately for the flat trail I ran over the weekend, much to the dismay of my dog. I had 4 miles scheduled for the day and I did it! I ran 4 miles and then did about 1/2 mile walk to cool down. I got back to my car in 46 mins. So again I think I was somewhere in the range of a ten minute mile, a good pace for me I think. I need to get a sports watch so I can keep better track of my time. I felt great. About the last half mile I was looking for my ending mark but I wasnt dying The only bad part was getting home and finding that my dog had destroyed my Ruehl purse My DH works for the company and had gotten it at a sample sale for $20 so it wasnt near the trauma it would have been if Id paid retail but OMG was I still pissed! Shes been doing this lately. We've finally gotten our dog to where we trust her to roam free in the house while we are gone. Shes been great for months. Shes still great from the time my DH leaves for work until I get home. However, if I leave again in the evening she finds something of mine and destroys it. It started with just pulling an article of my clothing or a shoe out to the middle of the room, like she was saying 'look what I could do while you were gone so dont leave me!' Well I guess when that didnt stop us from leaving, shes decided she must destroy things to teach me a lesson. RRRRRRRRRRRRR! I have no idea how to get her to stop doing this. Also about 5 minutes after I got home the sky went dark, the wind picked up, and rain started dumping down with thunder and lightening. I really had just made it. Id I had a longer run scheduled I would have gotten caught on the trail in that mess. Thank goodness for the little things
Thats what I did to myself yesterday. I planned on going home, eatting an early dinner, cleaning up the garden, then heading out for a shorter run later in the evening when it was a little cooler. Well I went home and ate my dinner, then I sat on the couch and caught up on My Boys (one of my favorite summer series tv shows) and ate some more. Then I got a snack. Then I ate some more. Finally I got my but off the couch to go trim up the rose bushes, pull some weeds, and tidy up the hanging baskets. Still that didnt take long and I went right back inside to eat some more. I never ran but I did eventually convince myself to do my ab video and upper body strength training. So Im really disappointed in myself for skipping the run and eatting WAY too much but Im glad I finally got myself to do something. Tonight no excuses, I have to run if I want to stay on track for training. That shouldnt be a problem. I packed my breakfast an lunch to make sure I get a good first part of the day foodwise. I WILL do better today!
I did my first long run! 5 miles!!! I woke up Friday morning to a light rain and was so bummed because that was the first day I was supposed to do a long run and I had been really pumped about attempting it. The rain never let up but it never got worse so I decided screw it, if Im going to commit to this then Im going to have to run in the rain too. So out I went. I drove to a local trail thats prettty flat (I knew I was incapable of 5 miles in my hilly neighborhood) and set off. I found out that I love running in the rain Maybe it was just because that meant it was a little cooler or maybe it was because I usually run on hills and this was flat but I made it 5 miles. I wont say I made it easily but I ran the whole thing and I suprised myself that I wasnt really looking for the end until about 4 or 4 1/2 miles. I did my 5 mile run and about a 1/2 mile walk to cool down in 54 mins. Im guessing it took me 4 mins or more to walk the 1/2 mile so that means I probably did my running at about a 10 min/ mile pace. Im very pleased with that. I wanted to post that day but I was running late for out 4th of July cookout.
All in all my weekend was great. Thursday DH and I cooked out with some friends (our future neighbors) and then went to watch local fireworks. Friday was my long run and then a cookout at my folks house with all my relatives. Saturday I did my upper and lower body strength training video and my abs video then DH and I went running around and I got a pair of golf shoes. We came home and golfed til dark then ordered a pizza. Sunday was a 3 mile run, abs video, grilling out, and then 7 holes of golf before it got dark. My sister sent me a text message at 12:45 asking if I was coming to my neices birthday party. It started at 12:30 and everyone had forgotten to mention it to me and my husband. I was kinda crushed. I felt aweful for not being there for my niece but I was also really hurt because my family tends to forget to invite me to everything until everyones already there and someone realizes 'Hey wheres Julie?' So I was partly pissed, partly hurt, and partly feeling guilty for not going. However I managed not to eat my way through it, I went for a run instead. All in all my food was ok. I didnt count calories but I also dont think I went crazy. We'll see how Im doing at WI time on thursday. I may need to go back to counting calories but so far I dont feel like Im gaining anymore.
I finally weighed in this morning. I know I skipped it last week and I may have skipped it the week before. Anyway, I was very nervous to step on that scale. I thought I might even have done so poorly as to creep back into the 170's and that would have just devestated me. However, I only gained back 1 pound. After several weeks of little to no exercise (although Ive done much better this week) and terrible eatting habits, I am not upset at all with 1 pound. I can lose that this week Still doing great with exercise. I ran 3 miles yesterday. The first two felt great. The third one I could tell I was tired and I walked up that last hill but I did it. Today I've planned as my day off from exercise so I can spend the evening with my husband since he took a vacation day. However Ive been thinking of seeing if hed go to the gym with me. We've been paying for a couples membership since September but he hasnt gone because he said he doesnt really know what to do and we cant afford a personal trainer. He had me ask when I was there last time how much just 1 or 2 sessions would be to get a workout set up. The guy said he gets 2 free for joining the gym but that guy is only there evenings when my DH works. So I was thinking maybe we could go tonight and he could get that set up. We'll see. We may end up golfing if the weather permits.
So I did really well yesterday until late at night again. I did great for breakfast, lunch and even dinner. Then the neighbor came over to invite me over for dinner. I had already eatten but I felt kind of obligated to at least go visit with them since they are leaving and our friends are buying their house (did I mention she really really doesnt want to move?) So I made some cookies to take over and ended up eatting SIX of them. Bad me Did ok exercisewise though. I intended to run 3 miles but I ended up going another .9 mile loop, so almost 4 total and I only had to walk up the last little hill at the end. I wanted to get my strenght training video in but I had a couple errands to run and dinner to make and then ended up visiting with the neighbors for an hour or so. So I never did the video but I still feel good about my run.
to run the half marathon. The training program I found is scheduled to start July 27 and at that time I should be running 3-4 miles several times a week. I was doing that before I fell off the wagon so I've got a few weeks to get myself back to that level. Im only telling my DH and you all here on EP and my sister. I have a cousin that wants to run together, which is fine, but its too hard to try and plan so many runs together. I want to be able to do this on my own, when I am able to make time, and where I want to do it. So its just me and Im really excited about that. I love running with people but I also get a lot of peace when I run alone. Im actually looking forward to the me time. I've kind of lost motivation with my diet and I need this new motivation, something else to feel accomplished for besides the numbers on the scale. So today is my first 'pre-training' run. Im supposed to run 3 miles tonight. I will absolutely go 3 even if I have to walk the entire 3rd mile. Im so excited now that Ive actually made the decision!
So yesterday was great up until about 9pm. I ate well all day. I went to the gym and did 45 mins of cardio. The plan was to head home and do my upper body strength video. However when I was halfway through at the gym I got a call from my husband asking when Id be done because he needed to talk to me about some stuff. At first I didnt think any thing of it. I assumed he had heard something from our friends about the house next door or something like that. However the longer I was on the crosstrainer the more I thought well he never would have said he needed to talk to me. He woulda just told me when he got a chance. So then I started worrying that something aweful had happened at work. When I got home I was pretty anxious for him to call back and I totally skipped my strength workout. I also started picking on junk food. I continued to pick for two hours (and I was already done for the day foodwise) Anyway, he called back and it turns out theres an opening on day shift but hes set to be promoted very soon if he stays on nights and he wanted to discuss it with me before he made a decision to switch shifts or stay on nights to get promoted. I dont know why I ate all that late at night but I did. Today Ive got my lunch packed and hopefully I can do a little better. I know sticking to the 1/2 marathon training program will help me feel really positive and hopefully that will carry over to better food choices and willpower.
I cant add a picture to save my life! I got a hair cut and Im kind of frustrated so I tried to add a pircture here but it didnt work and it erased my entire post. RRRRRRR! Anyway, I cant afford to go to the fancy hair salons like I used to where its like $150 to $200 to get a cut and color. Ive been hopping from salon to salon trying to find a decent lower cost one. I went to one that came highly recommended from some friends and they did fine but I wasnt really trying to change anything, just your basic long hair with layers. Well this time I decided I needed a change, some highlights, quite a few inches off the length, and some bangs. Heres the picture I took in, only obviously I wasnt going totally blonde.
Well I love my color, I like the cut, but its not at all like what I asked for. Now I dont expect to come out looking just like Jessica Simpson but the cut she has if fairly blunt, not a lot of layers, just the bangs and some frace framing pieces and Im sure its cut into a little to give it shape. Welll the girl that cut my hair gave the same old layers that every cheap salon Ive been to gives. Cut it across the bottom, pull each section out to the side and snip, pull each section up to the top and snip. Now thats a fine hair cut if you want layers but I purposely picked this picture because the overall length was fairly blunt but now Ive got the exact same cut I had before just lots shorter and with bangs. Why does everything nice have to cost a ton of money!!! I couldnt get my picture in this post but I'll keep trying or I'll just put it in my photo gallery.
Diet news, I didnt get quite the workout I wanted in on Friday but I did get in about 40 minutes of cardio and then did my upper body strengthening video. Saturday the haircut turned into a fiasco. My appointment was at 10 but the girl never showed up. So the salon owner said shed take me at noon. Well I got there at noon and she worked on an updo for about another 15 mins, but it was a bride so I didnt mind. I would never want someone to rush through such an important thing! Anyway by the time I got home from there it was pretty much time to get ready for the evening. Some friends stopped by and then we went to dinner. Sunday however, I did go to the gym for 45 mins of cardio, took my dog for a short 1 mile quick jog, and then did my lower body strenthening video, and that evening we went golfing, a whole day of activity So all in all my exercise was really good. I didnt count my calories and when I dont count I always go over but I dont think I did really terrible. Its a new week and a decent weekend to get me going in the right direction!
So Im STILL struggling I just cant stop eatting junk food. Then I get called out for storm duty. I work for an electric provider so when there are outages the whole world stops and our only focus is getting power restored. So that means grab a McDs breakfast on the way to the line garage, lunch and dinner ordered in by line crew supervisors usually pizza and some other fast food, and not a lot of options for beverages besides full calorie soda. On top of that add a full week of short nights of sleep. Anyway, thats over, TOMs here, so the hectic schedule and cravings should ease up. I will really really give a full effort to getting refocused now. I cant wait to exercise tonight. I've missed it for two days and my body is screaming for it. No plans tonight so I should be able to get a nice long much needed workout in
Im still feeling pretty bummed about not getting the job. Although my DH really did help to cheer me up. I thought hed be so bummed too that he wouldnt think to try and make me feel better but he did Hes a good guy Its not that Im so unhappy where I am, its just that theres not really any place for advancement and Im not ok with topping out in my career at 27 So, I just keep looking.
As for my face the rash seems to be much much better. Ive still got some fugly looking skin on my eyelids but its more of a healing dryness rather than an irritated rash.
So I had a terrible breakfast yesterday but the rest of the day I was ok. I didnt write down my calories and Im certain I was well over but I didnt just sit and eat and eat and stuff myself like the last few days either. I took my dog for a short walk, just a mile and kinda slow. I came home and did my lower body strenght training video. Then I went to hop on my crosstrainer and the batteries were dead Obviously the whole thing doesnt run on batteries but thats the only way to see your time and to add resistance. Its kind of worthless to use it with no resistance, kinda like pedalling backwords on a bike, not much effort required. Plus when the batteries die they whole screen flashes bright l.e.d. blue light every 30 seconds or so and thats extremely annoying. So I did about 30 minutes of cardio from a tape. Its the only one I have that doesnt require any special equipment like steppers or anything which I dont have and its just not that good. I feel like Im just kinda meandering from side to side with the occasional jump or turn. Oh well at least I was moving instead of sitting on the couch eatting TOM showed up full force today (hes been trying to come around for a week) so maybe that will bring some relief from the wreckless eatting.
Tonight I have a 'book club' to go to. A few friends and I decided to start it. I missed the first one but apparently the book was dicussed for all of 5 minutes and then it was just a girls night We all kinda figured thats how itd be but its fun to all read the same book too. Although I have already received two emails from people saying they havent read the book. I havent either because I couldnt find it anywhere and I waited to long to order it. Oh well, I still read a book. Does that count? Anyway, Im sure there will be snacks but seeing how picky I am, hopefully not too many that I like so its easy not to over do it.
Totally not diet related but Im having an issue with my face. About 2 and a half weeks ago I switched my face soap and lotion. I was using Olay Total Effects wash and lotion. However, I noticed when I used sunless tanners I got these dark spots on my face. Not like streaky from uneven applications, more like a prediction of where my agespots will be in the future or something. Anyway, when I stop using the tanner they go away slowly. So I decided to try a face soap and lotion thats supposed to help even out skin tones. I got Garnier Nutritioniste Sun Damage Repair (not sure if thats the exact name but you get the idea) I loved the new stuff and was having no problems. Then Sunday morning I woke up and my eyelids were all puffy like I had had a good hard cry the night before, only I hadnt. I thought maybe it was just from drinking the night before or lack of sleep but as the day went on I noticed my eyelids really itching. By that night I had a red blothcy bumpy rash all over my eyelids and spreading around the corners of my eyes and below them. By morning it was down the sides of my nose and around the corners of my mouth. So I didnt use the lotion yesterday and stopped on my way home to get new stuff. Im trying Aveeno Positively Radiant wash and lotion. So far it seems good. I still have bright pink eyelids that are mildly itchy but they definately seem to be gettting better and the lotion didnt burn when I put it over the rash. So hopefully this stuff is ok but does anyone have any soap and lotion that they just love, that they swear by, that must be just pure magic in a bottle?
I just got an email saying I didnt get the job. I feel aweful. I've interviewed a few other times and not really been suprised or upset when I didnt get the job because I didnt feel it was all that great a match either but this job was perfect for me and I think I was perfect for it. If I couldnt get this job, how am I ever going to get a different one? I feel sick. I want to go home and cry and have DH comfort me. Although he'll be just as disappointed as me. So Im just sitting here in my cube and hoping no one walks in and sees me like this. Uh, I don't know what else to do. How do you make it happen?
The only bad part was getting home and finding that my dog had destroyed my Ruehl purse 
My DH works for the company and had gotten it at a sample sale for $20 so it wasnt near the trauma it would have been if Id paid retail but OMG was I still pissed! Shes been doing this lately. We've finally gotten our dog to where we trust her to roam free in the house while we are gone. Shes been great for months. Shes still great from the time my DH leaves for work until I get home. However, if I leave again in the evening she finds something of mine and destroys it. It started with just pulling an article of my clothing or a shoe out to the middle of the room, like she was saying 'look what I could do while you were gone so dont leave me!' Well I guess when that didnt stop us from leaving, shes decided she must destroy things to teach me a lesson. RRRRRRRRRRRRR! I have no idea how to get her to stop doing this. Also about 5 minutes after I got home the sky went dark, the wind picked up, and rain started dumping down with thunder and lightening. I really had just made it. Id I had a longer run scheduled I would have gotten caught on the trail in that mess. Thank goodness for the little things 
Maybe it was just because that meant it was a little cooler or maybe it was because I usually run on hills and this was flat but I made it 5 miles. I wont say I made it easily but I ran the whole thing and I suprised myself that I wasnt really looking for the end until about 4 or 4 1/2 miles. I did my 5 mile run and about a 1/2 mile walk to cool down in 54 mins. Im guessing it took me 4 mins or more to walk the 1/2 mile so that means I probably did my running at about a 10 min/ mile pace. Im very pleased with that. I wanted to post that day but I was running late for out 4th of July cookout.
Did ok exercisewise though. I intended to run 3 miles but I ended up going another .9 mile loop, so almost 4 total and I only had to walk up the last little hill at the end. I wanted to get my strenght training video in but I had a couple errands to run and dinner to make and then ended up visiting with the neighbors for an hour or so. So I never did the video but I still feel good about my run. 
I just cant stop eatting junk food. Then I get called out for storm duty. I work for an electric provider so when there are outages the whole world stops and our only focus is getting power restored. So that means grab a McDs breakfast on the way to the line garage, lunch and dinner ordered in by line crew supervisors usually pizza and some other fast food, and not a lot of options for beverages besides full calorie soda. On top of that add a full week of short nights of sleep. Anyway, thats over, TOMs here, so the hectic schedule and cravings should ease up. I will really really give a full effort to getting refocused now. I cant wait to exercise tonight. I've missed it for two days and my body is screaming for it. No plans tonight so I should be able to get a nice long much needed workout in 
So, I just keep looking. 
the rash seems to be much much better. Ive still got some fugly looking skin on my eyelids but its more of a healing dryness rather than an irritated rash.
Anyway, Im sure there will be snacks but seeing how picky I am, hopefully not too many that I like so its easy not to over do it.
I feel aweful. I've interviewed a few other times and not really been suprised or upset when I didnt get the job because I didnt feel it was all that great a match either but this job was perfect for me and I think I was perfect for it. If I couldnt get this job, how am I ever going to get a different one? I feel sick. I want to go home and cry and have DH comfort me. Although he'll be just as disappointed as me. So Im just sitting here in my cube and hoping no one walks in and sees me like this. Uh, I don't know what else to do. How do you make it happen?