I didnt sleep hardly at all Sunday night and I have a few sick days to burn so I took Monday off from work. It worked out pretty well because we are redoing the trim in our house (just starting in the living room so far) and I had some painting to do to help out the DH. Well after my terriblely high calorie Thursday, then my pretty good Friday, Saturday was kinda mixed. I had a great work out at the gym, 35 mins on the elliptical with the arms, 25 mins on the one w/o, 25 mins walk/run to work on my speed a little for my upcoming 5ks. I ate 1915 calories though, not terrible but not as good as Id planned. Sunday I did zero exercise for no good reason. I just sat around watching movies. I was doing ok eatting until I decided to make a brownie sunday. I kept it fairly light but I didnt really have enough calories left for it. Then on top of that I, my husbands buddy was over watching drag racing and I decided to join them for a drink...which turned into two heavily poured vanilla vodka and coke zero's. That put me at 2170 calories, definately not good. Then taking Monday off I thought Id have plenty of time for a really really great work out to do a little make up but I got wrapped up in painting the trim so my DH could put it up that I never got it AGAIN. On top of that, my friend came over for a gab session and we ordered pizza and I totally pigged out on that. I had 2295 calories. Now I definately need two super low calorie days (atleast super low cal for me, about 1400, which some people do every day) and two great workouts if I want any chance of not gaining this week. RRRRRR!!! Why am I doing this to myself. I have worked so hard to get to where I am. I dont want to turn it all around and go back to bad habits. It seems like lately Im having more and more bad days closer and closer together and its not even close to PMS cravings.
Just typing it all out here helped me talk myself back into a better frame of mind. Ive worked to hard to turn back now. I need to stick to my healthier habits and continue making good choices to reach my goal. So what if I dont get to eat EVERYTHING I want for a couple days. Its just two days. Then its back to 1700 calories where I'll have room for some more stuff I love. I dont have to have everything I like everyday!
So yesterday was much better than my crazy out of control Thursday. I ate 1725 calories and that even included saving for a glass of wine when my husband finally got home from work and we could start our weekend. I did 60 mins on the cross trainer and a 7 minute ab session. Today I woke up and made us french toast from cinnamon swirl bread. MMMMMMM so good. Definately a splurge for me since my breakfast is usually only about 200 calories. Still I figured a big breakfast was ok because we'd be busy around the house all day and Id easily have a light lunch and have plenty left for dinner. Wrong! I have been starving all day. I ate a semi light lunch but I just keep wanting to pick. If we end up going out to dinner its going to be really hard for me to stay within my calories. Well Im off to the gym to make sure that part of my plan is 100% and hopefully I can still finish the day on target foodwise too!
I just completely fell apart last night and Im not really even sure what exactly lead me to do it. I was fine through breakfast and lunch. After work I headed to meet some friends for dinner. I get off work about an hour and a half before them so I had some time to kill. I was starving and tempted to find a snack but I had eatten my normal amount for the afternoon and knew I was going to have a high cal dinner so I didnt want to go over. So I waited. In retrospect I think I should have stopped for a light snack because I was so hungry when I got to the restaraunt that I wanted EVERYTHING and I didnt use much digression. First I order a basket of breadsticks. That alone was splurging a little but usually I order them and have one or two and everyone else grabs one too. Well they had a great happy hour special going on so everyone else ordered appetizers and no one took any of my breadsticks. So what did I do? I ate them ALL. Plus I had a couple little fried cheese squares from another friends plate. I had my planned dinner and one glass of wine, nothing too bad there. I was dying for dessert and when no one else wanted any what did I do? I walked up to Cheryl's Cookies to buy a peanut butter celebration cookie, possibly the best cookie in the world. But it didnt stop there. My friend points out that they have a Last Hour special going on where you get 10 cookies for $8. Well their cookies are almost $2 a piece so this was a great deal. Ofcourse I went for it. I thought oh I can freeze them when I get home and just have one every now and then. Great idea but that didnt stop me from eatting two on the way home and one of the two I had left out for my husband. So 3 decadent cookies later I felt ill. Nothing I could do about it then. I just have to pick myself up and get back on track today. I have high calories days every week. I just really didnt want to use it up on the first day of my 'diet week.' Plus I felt out of control. I wasnt choosing to have an off day, it just happened. One bad decision led to another. My stomach's still kind of in knots this morning, maybe that will make me less tempted today and I'll be able to keep to a low cal day to kinda balance things out.
Anyway I dont know if it was that I had just gotten so hungry that I lost sight of intelligent decisions, the glass of wine weakening my judgement, some emotional issue that Im not quit aware of yet, or just a plain old moment of weakness. Whatever it was, its done now and I have some making up to do. Its going to be hard having a strict weekend (ive gotten kinda used to giving myself a little leeway on the weekends) but I know I need to after yesterday, especially if I want to reach my April goal.
I think next time I go to dinner I will write my choices and calories in my food log before I go. I usually decide what I'll have and if it will fit before hand but I dont write it all in until after. This way its planned out and kinda written in stone
Well I was hoping for 1.5 lbs this week but after having a total cheat day on Friday and having a couple other high-ish calorie days I was prepared to see no change. I did manage to lose 1 lb and I will take it! That means I have to work a little harder to meet my April goal (4.5lbs left to lose over the next 2 1/2 weeks) but its movement in the right direction and that is always an accomplishment! I wish I could lose all the weight super fast and just be at goal but I know thats not realistic and I also love that I am able to balance enjoying stuff like eatting out and baking ( I LOVE to bake and love even more to eat what I bake) and still lose, even if its slowly. It gives me hope that once I reach my goal weight I'll be able to maintain and stick to a reasonable plan.
Yesterday I did great with exercise and food I ate 1645 calories and felt great about it. Ive kinda gotten into the habit of seeing a number like that aat the end of the day and immediately thinking "Ive got another 100 calories, what do I want to eat?" but yesterday I had had a nice dinner, a fruit & V8 smoothie, and 2 mini milkyways for the evening and I decided that there was no reason to add more just because. As for exercise, I ran 3 miles when I got home and did a 9 minute session from an ab video. Later I tried to hop on the crosstrainer to up my cardio to a total of 1 hour but one of my friends kept calling Shes one of my very best friends but because we are at different places in life (shes 22, single, not yet in a career, and partying. Im 27, married, working at 7am M-F, and more of a happy hour kinda person) so we dont get together nearly as often as we'd like. So we try to have a gab session at least once a week. Anyway, she called just before I got on, then someone called in on her line and said shed call back. I knew as soon as I got on the phone would ring. Sure enough 2min 30secs into it she calls back. Same thing happened again So I hopped back on, phone rings again. Finally we did get to talk for a little while and ultimately I got 35 mins in on the crosstrainer although it was split into 3 different sessions. It was a nice break up of the workout though. Sometimes you need a little change in routine and there are definately some friends that are worth breaking your routine for!
Well I didnt make the best choice at dinner last night. We went to the California Pizza Kitchen. I got a plain cheese pizza. I know most people think pizza is the curse of a diet but honestly looking at the calories, its no worse than any other thing I eat. The problem is I want to eat TONS of it Ordering just water is becoming second nature to me, finally. So that part was easy. I would have been fine if Id have eatten just half of my pizza, especially because they are quite large to be considered a personal pizza. However, I didnt. I ate the whole thing. My best guess is that it was 1000 to 1200 calories, judging by other pizza sizes and styles that I can find calories for, could have been less but Im sure not by much. Anyway, I counted it as 1000 calories and ended the day with 1985 calories. Still under 2000 so Im not beating myself up over it. I just wasnt wanting/needing a high calorie day after my big cheat on Friday. I did manage to hop on the crosstrainer for 50 mins and do a 7 minute session from my abs video.
I enjoyed shopping with my sister. There were sooo many cute summer clothes out. I wanted to grab tons and try them on but I KNOW Im still quite a ways from fitting into clothes from those stores so I didnt want to ruin all the good I feel by not being able to wear any of their stuff. I will get there! Maybe in another month or two I'll go shopping!
I had another pretty good day. I ate 1785 calories, drank plenty of water, did 70 mins of cardio and a 6 min session of my ab tape. The warm weather lately has gotten me so excited to reach my goal weight. I cant wait to wear summer clothes this year! Theres still a lot I need to work on, especially by bathing suit season, but I actually feel like I can do it. I can see hitting my goal of 164 by the end of May and then maybe I can even go a few more by the time it gets to the really hot late summer days! Anyway, thats looking too far ahead, I need to think about doing well the next few days to see a loss at my Thursday WI.
Tonight Im going shopping with my sister and nephew so they can use my discount. As a thank you, shes taking me to dinner. Im a little worried to go out because Ive already had several meals out and hadn't planned this one. I think I'll be ok though. It isnt what I had planned on eating but as long as I stay with in my calories it shouldnt have any adverse effects. Besides I already had my splurge/cheat meals to get what I wanted at restaraunts. Theres no reason I shouldnt be ok with choosing wisely tonight. I also need to make sure I leave time for exercise when I get home.
All in all I think I had a pretty successful weekend. I did cheat like mad on Friday. At my work lunch I had grilled cheese, fries, and a brownie sunday. That may not sound exciting to some people but Im horribly picky and grilled cheese is my absolute favorite! No appetizers and I had water but thats not much discipline when I had that sundae but it was GOO-OOD! At dinner I did much better. I had pizza and only ate half my portion but I added a side of fries. Well worth it, I think they were the best fries I have ever had! So a big cheat day but not the end of the world. That is until I went home and made a homemade brownie Sunday. Yikes! Still, come Saturday I put it all behind me. I woke up and went for a run with my cousin as planned. However, going 6 miles was NOT part of the plan. He took me down a trail that he swore was 1.5 miles and we'd turn around and come back, totalling 3 miles. Well we got to what we thought was 1.5 miles and decided to walk to a nearby water fountain. Along the way we passed a sign that said 3 miles! So we had run about 2 walked a little over 1 mile and then ran 2 miles back! I also stuck to 1770 calories for that day. I was hoping the long run helped balance out the cheat day. Sunday I decided to hop on the scale and see what kind of damage control Id need to do this week and I actually was still right at 173.5!!! Yay! I've still got my work cut out for me for the rest of the week til WI but I didnt get as far off track as I had expected. Sunday I had 1775 calories. Actually probably a little less because my husband mooched half of the 100 calorie bag of popcorn Id made as an evening snack I ran 3 miles and did my ab video. I dont think I got enough water over the weekend though. Im feeling great on the exercise front and Im getting better at balancing a couple bad/mediocre days with several good days.
Today Im wearing dress pants at work for the first time in forever. My biggest couple pairs of jeans have been the only thing that fit. Well a few weeks back I had bought a pair of clearance dress pants for $4 and they were tight, but I figured oh well for $4 After a couple weeks they fit but I didnt have any shirts to match that fit without busting open at the buttons. So I never wore them. Then this morning a nice dress shirt finally fit so I put an out fit together and here I am.....New problem, the pants are too big!!! Im sure I look rediculous in my droopy drawers but I am so happy to feel pants that are too loose that I dont even care!
Yesterday was really nice with my neice and nephew Kids just make me smile (atleast when they are being good ) My sister-in-law is the manager at a resteraunt and she had to close last night so she picked the kids up at 1am. Im actually not near as tired as I thought Id be though. I went to sleep when I put my neice to bed at 9:30 (yup as her aunt I let her stay up an hour past her bed time) and waking up for 20 mins or so in the middle of the night didnt disrupt me as much as I expected. So I think I ended up getting more sleep than I usually do. I didnt get to exercise but I did fine with food. I ate 1800 calories. It would have been less than that if I hadnt grabbed those snack packs of skittles and starbursts out of the Easter basket. I might have to put the rest of those in a bag and tell my husband to take them to work. They are only 60 calories for the little tiny bags but grabbing a couple every day adds up.
I have had a cheat day planned today for a long time. I have a safety reward lunch at work....I work with all men so these things are feasts.....so I planned on having one meal to just have whatever. However, I also made plans with my cousin to go to one of my favorite restaraunts for dinner awhile back without realizing it was the same day. Anyway, I planned to cheat today and partly Im ok with that but also I keep thinking about it. I have said before that I really do feel different about things this time than when Ive dieted before. During past diets I LIVED for my cheat days, one every week, and I ate whatever and however much I wanted. Now, while I definately have high calorie days, I still try to balance them by eatting light for part of the day and maybe having a cheat meal. So today rather than thinking 'woooo whooooo I can have anything all day long!' Im running through food options in my head to compromise splurging on things I like and making some good decisions to minimize the damage. Id love to say I can be flawless in my choices all day at any restaraunt, order some steamed veggies and grilled fish and go home, but thats not me at all. I think this is a good progeression from where I was and Im happy with that. Plus I know I dont cheat every time I go out anymore. I've got a dinner planned with a friend tomorrow and I know I will count for every calorie and make it fit. Progress not perfection
Its finally friday! Thank goodness! And on top of that, the weather is supposed to be BEAUTIFUL all weekend!!! I cant wait to get out and enjoy it!
So I got home yesterday and ate dinner right away so it could digest early enough for me to still get in a decent work out. I had planned on taking a nap, however, I did not plan on laying down just after eating. Thats not the best timing for digestion but I did it. I layed in bed for about 50 mins but probably only slept for 30. I can never understand how I can be completely exhausted and still take 20 mins to fall asleep. It was enough to refresh me somewhat for the rest of the evening and I did get in 60 mins on the cross trainer and a 9 min ab session from Firm Parts. Although by the time I was done with that and finished dishes and picking up around the house it was 11:30 and now Im tired again
Food was not so great yesterday. TOM arrived and while it did not wreck quite the havock on me this month as it did last month, it did take complete control for yesterday. I ate 2220 calories of pure junk, cookies, capaccino, McDonald's, grilled cheese, skittles and starburts. While 2220 is not near as bad as what a bad day would have been 2 months ago, I dont think I got any nutrition from what I ate yesterday. I suppose if thats as bad as it gets and its just one day, I can deal with that. Especially because when I got on the scale this morning (a little nervous after my eating spree yesterday) I was down a half pound since my end of the month weigh in on Tuesday! It probably would have been a whole pound if my last two days had been a little lower in calories and I had gotten to exercise both days but its a loss and I'll take it!!!
Tonight Im babysitting my neice and nephew. They are the cutest kids in the whole world! Anyway, Im certain I wont get any typical exercise in. Nor will I catch up on any sleep, Food, on the other hand, should be easy because one still eats babyfood and the other is super picky so I wont be tempted by anything I fix them. I can have a perfectly planned dinner!
Uhhh, if I can just get through the next 30 or so hours I can sleep all I need
Sooooo sleepy today so this isnt going to be a long post. I ate 1955 calories yesterday. A little high but Im pretty comfortable with my ranges lately so long as I dont go overboard. I didnt exercise but I knew I wasnt going to so Im ok with that. Ive got some making up to do tonight. Maybe after a nap I cant keep my eyes open.
I ate 1645 calories and felt great about it. Ive kinda gotten into the habit of seeing a number like that aat the end of the day and immediately thinking "Ive got another 100 calories, what do I want to eat?" but yesterday I had had a nice dinner, a fruit & V8 smoothie, and 2 mini milkyways for the evening and I decided that there was no reason to add more just because. As for exercise, I ran 3 miles when I got home and did a 9 minute session from an ab video. Later I tried to hop on the crosstrainer to up my cardio to a total of 1 hour but one of my friends kept calling 
So I hopped back on, phone rings again. Finally we did get to talk for a little while and ultimately I got 35 mins in on the crosstrainer although it was split into 3 different sessions. It was a nice break up of the workout though. Sometimes you need a little change in routine and there are definately some friends that are worth breaking your routine for!
Ordering just water is becoming second nature to me, finally. So that part was easy. I would have been fine if Id have eatten just half of my pizza, especially because they are quite large to be considered a personal pizza. However, I didnt. I ate the whole thing. My best guess is that it was 1000 to 1200 calories, judging by other pizza sizes and styles that I can find calories for, could have been less but Im sure not by much. Anyway, I counted it as 1000 calories and ended the day with 1985 calories. Still under 2000 so Im not beating myself up over it. I just wasnt wanting/needing a high calorie day after my big cheat on Friday. I did manage to hop on the crosstrainer for 50 mins and do a 7 minute session from my abs video. 
) My sister-in-law is the manager at a resteraunt and she had to close last night so she picked the kids up at 1am. Im actually not near as tired as I thought Id be though. I went to sleep when I put my neice to bed at 9:30 (yup as her aunt I let her stay up an hour past her bed time) and waking up for 20 mins or so in the middle of the night didnt disrupt me as much as I expected. So I think I ended up getting more sleep than I usually do. I didnt get to exercise but I did fine with food. I ate 1800 calories. It would have been less than that if I hadnt grabbed those snack packs of skittles and starbursts out of the Easter basket. I might have to put the rest of those in a bag and tell my husband to take them to work. They are only 60 calories for the little tiny bags but grabbing a couple every day adds up.
I cant keep my eyes open.