I need...
I need a challenge or a goal or something to focus on. This just hoping for improvement with no clear expectations is killing me. I give in to every temptation and Im scared to weigh myself. Sooooo Ive got a doctor's appointment with a new Dr Dec 15th. That is one month from tomorrow so my goal will be to lose 8 lbs by then. That means I have to weigh myself tomorrow because I know my weight is not even close to the 163 I last posted...probably atleast 173, maybe more 
but if I expect to do anything about it I know I have to see the numbers and bring myself to reality. So I get on the scale tomorrow morning and then 8 lbs in 4 weeks. I will do it! I'd love to have another exercise challenge like training for the half marathon but now its freezing cold here (well actually today its beautiful and upper 50's but thats been the exception and it definately wont stick around) so continuing to run outside is not for me. I really really really would love to train for a triathalon but I dont have access to a place to swim. My neighbors have a pool but thats only usable when its summer here and although its really nice its not a lap swimming kind of pool so that wouldnt work even when it is hot out. I also dont have a bike so Id eventually have to buy one and extra money doesnt just float around at my house 
. Maybe I'll start working on the treadmill and shoot for a faster 5k time and then come spring when I start signing up for those I can get a personal best. I'll have to keep searching for a good exercise goal/challenge for myself. If you have any ideas Id love to hear them!