I know I can
I just cant find my groove! I decided after the half marathon to take a week off from diet and exercise. I made that decision consciously and had no problem with it. Then the week getting back to exercise was only a half effort and I made zero effort to get back into my more controlled diet. Then this week was supposed to be 100% back at it. I decided to start bringing in frozen fruits, yogurt, milk, and V8 fusion to make smoothies for breakfast and lunch, added with a couple snacks of peanuts, strinch cheese, sun chips, something small but somewhat nutritious. Well I didnt come to work Monday. I did go to the gym, I did have a smoothy for breakfast, but I had tons of chocolate pecan pie. Im still trying to perfect that recipe for Thanksgiving. I may have to give up because it means that I just devour the whole until its gone. Tuesday was a great day, smoothie for breakfast and lunch, light snacks to fill in, a trip to the gym for 45 mins of cardio, and a sensible dinner. Yesterday, again a smoothie for breakfast and lunch with light snack but my mom called to meet my sister and I for dinner that weve been trying to get together for forever and I ate a ton. She suggested desert so we got that but I ate less than half of mine so thats one plus, but no gym AND I went home and fixed myself an additional snack. WTF!?!? Today I was running too late to even pack my magic bullet and the fruits I already portioned out and baggied in the freezer. I literally dropped my purse at my desk and walked into our safety meeting as it was starting so even 10 more seconds would have gotten me a ding on my record. SO that means fast food for lunch. As for tonight, I got an invite to a friends and family practice night for a new local resaraunt with one of my best friends that I havent made time to hang out with in months so I definately want to go when shes driving 45 mins out to my town anyway. Its from 6-9 which means no time to get to the gym before and it'll be about bed time when I get home. So no gym and greasy food for dinner. I feel like Im just totally out of control and gaining and I cant do anything about it. BUT I KNOW I CAN. I shouldnt get so down over a few bad weeks. I know I can and will go to the gym tomorrow. I will get out of bed on time to pack my breakfast and lunch. I will do better this weekend than I have the last 3.
