What a waste
So I packed on 2.5 just this week. Im running like crazy but eating even more crazy. Why am I doing this!?!?!? So now I know, I cant listen to my body. If it says Im hungry, well Im really not. I am not undoing all the good I have done. I worked so hard for 6 months to get where I am now. Im not turning it around and putting it all back on in 1 month. So it ends today. Food is only specifically for fuel, in proportions found appropriate by doctors. Im taking out all other factors. I have learned this lesson too many times before. I cant eat what feels right and not gain an enormous amount of weight. So Im taking my own objectivitity out of it.
Today Ive got a 4 mile run scheduled. Quite honestly Im so depressed over packing 6 lbs back on in such a short time that I dont feel like doing a darn thing but I know that that only makes the problem worse. So I want to push myself just to go out anyway. But on top of that I havent had more than 5 hrs of sleep each night this week and its catching up to me. Im exhausted. I want to take a nap and then run but I know if I do that the chances of actually heading out for a run are diminished. What I need to do is go for my run as soon as I get home, shower, eat, and then go to bed at like 8!
New goal. 5lbs off by my anniversary, August 26. No excuses.