I would never ever say that celebrities shouldnt get plastic surgery or that they are bad people for lying about it, their bodies are their work and their paycheck, but this article makes a really good point of how it makes women feel like failures when they see these perfect bodies and think that can be acheived if they just work hard enough. Then that leads them to believe, when they are in fact working very hard, that they're still not working hard enough. Sure if I dont exercise and I eat anything I want I cant expect a perfect body. But what about when I do everything right, I lose weight and feel great and am in great health, and my body still has that bulge here or a sag there? With age, childbearing, and weight losses and gains, our bodies go through a lot of changes and its impossible to go exactly back. Now i can understand that but I hate to think that my husband sees pictures of these women who bounce back in a few weeks to a perfect body after kids and believe that its solely from a little exercise. Will he think im a failure or lazy when that doesnt happen for me, even if I work my @$$ off? Now I know my husband loves me, and will no matter what, but these things go through my head (and many others I assume) because we are told thats all it takes when we see these great bodies. Im not saying celebs should let their bodies go, heck no! but would it be so bad for them to be honest so that the rest of us can have a realistic perspective?
Thats my rant My diet and exercise are still going so so. Well my diet is in the crapper and my exercise is doing well so I guess that evens out to so so. The madness of Thanksgiving week is over so Ive got a few good weeks of exercise and some practice in controlling eatting habits before the Christmas maddness starts, eattingwise anyway, the Christmas maddness in general has already begun!
Monday I didnt do the greatest. I was later than usual and didnt bring my lunch so I had french toast for breakfast and a personal pizza AND breadsticks for lunch Then I got home and felt lazy so I didnt work out at all and pigged out on desert after dinner. Yesterday, late again, no packed lunch but I did have enough food bagged up to grab for a breakfast smoothie and made a slightly better choice at lunch. Then I hit the gym for 50 mins of cardio. I feel soooo good about 98% of the time that Im at the gym(2% for the odd day where you get there and you're just not feeling it) so why do I ever skip? Dinner was probably too much but my snacking was a little better. Today, once again, running into the office just in time for our morning meeting. So no packed breakfast or lunch. The cafeteria lady is gone today so I cant even go down there for breakfast. So I'll probably run out somewhere for that too. I havent completely bailed of health, Im adding in good things, Im limitting some bad things, and I usually get in 4 workouts a week, but I know from past experience that a half effort doesnt mean half results. It means no results or even gains. So I really need to step up and give full effort.
Did any one watch The Biggest Loser last night? I usually dont love Jillian too much because she is so aggressive with her group. Yes its great to have someone push you but shes just mean sometimes for no reason. Anyway, when Michelle was on the treadmill and she had to stop when Jillian pushed the speed faster. She said she has a mental block or a panic attack about going fast and she has to stop. Jillian kept hounding and hounding her about choosing to be strong. Choosing to do what she knows her body can even if shes afraid. That really hit home for me because I think a lot of what holds me back is mental. I convince myself that I cant do something or that it will be too hard. But now I choose strength.
So I finally got on the scale. It was bad but not as bad as I was expecting. 168, up 5 pounds. So what did I do, skipped exercise all weekend and ate everything I could. Ive got my gym bag packed to head straight for a workout on my way home today but I didnt get to grab my smoothy goods this morning for breakfast and lunch. Its snowing. Im tired. I hate Mondays!
I need a challenge or a goal or something to focus on. This just hoping for improvement with no clear expectations is killing me. I give in to every temptation and Im scared to weigh myself. Sooooo Ive got a doctor's appointment with a new Dr Dec 15th. That is one month from tomorrow so my goal will be to lose 8 lbs by then. That means I have to weigh myself tomorrow because I know my weight is not even close to the 163 I last posted...probably atleast 173, maybe more but if I expect to do anything about it I know I have to see the numbers and bring myself to reality. So I get on the scale tomorrow morning and then 8 lbs in 4 weeks. I will do it! I'd love to have another exercise challenge like training for the half marathon but now its freezing cold here (well actually today its beautiful and upper 50's but thats been the exception and it definately wont stick around) so continuing to run outside is not for me. I really really really would love to train for a triathalon but I dont have access to a place to swim. My neighbors have a pool but thats only usable when its summer here and although its really nice its not a lap swimming kind of pool so that wouldnt work even when it is hot out. I also dont have a bike so Id eventually have to buy one and extra money doesnt just float around at my house . Maybe I'll start working on the treadmill and shoot for a faster 5k time and then come spring when I start signing up for those I can get a personal best. I'll have to keep searching for a good exercise goal/challenge for myself. If you have any ideas Id love to hear them!
As usual for me, I was running late this morning. I did manage to throw my frozen fruits, yogurt, and magic bullet in a bag so I can have smoothies for breakfast and lunch. I'll have to figure out what to supplement that with since Im out of healthy snack options at my desk. Maybe I'll make a run to kroger over lunch since it takes all of 3 minutes to make up my smoothie. I also managed to throw my gym stuff in a bag and dont think I forgot anything. So I just barely made it to my safety meeting again but Im proud that I was able to get the things I needed to set myself up for a successful day. Challenge 1 - Success. Challenge 2 will be that a friend wants to meet for happy hour/dinner. That means bad food and kills my gym plans. What I really need to do is make better choices at restaraunts, say no to the happy hour cocktail so I still have motivation to exercise once my food digests.
IT'S FRIDAY!!!!! I love weekends! I love seeing DH! I love being home! and Ive gotten a few good days and a few bad days diet/exercise wise this week which doesnt sound great but its much better than the last few weeks that were just all bad. So Im going into the weekend with a positive attitude and that will keep me motivated to do even better.
I just cant find my groove! I decided after the half marathon to take a week off from diet and exercise. I made that decision consciously and had no problem with it. Then the week getting back to exercise was only a half effort and I made zero effort to get back into my more controlled diet. Then this week was supposed to be 100% back at it. I decided to start bringing in frozen fruits, yogurt, milk, and V8 fusion to make smoothies for breakfast and lunch, added with a couple snacks of peanuts, strinch cheese, sun chips, something small but somewhat nutritious. Well I didnt come to work Monday. I did go to the gym, I did have a smoothy for breakfast, but I had tons of chocolate pecan pie. Im still trying to perfect that recipe for Thanksgiving. I may have to give up because it means that I just devour the whole until its gone. Tuesday was a great day, smoothie for breakfast and lunch, light snacks to fill in, a trip to the gym for 45 mins of cardio, and a sensible dinner. Yesterday, again a smoothie for breakfast and lunch with light snack but my mom called to meet my sister and I for dinner that weve been trying to get together for forever and I ate a ton. She suggested desert so we got that but I ate less than half of mine so thats one plus, but no gym AND I went home and fixed myself an additional snack. WTF!?!? Today I was running too late to even pack my magic bullet and the fruits I already portioned out and baggied in the freezer. I literally dropped my purse at my desk and walked into our safety meeting as it was starting so even 10 more seconds would have gotten me a ding on my record. SO that means fast food for lunch. As for tonight, I got an invite to a friends and family practice night for a new local resaraunt with one of my best friends that I havent made time to hang out with in months so I definately want to go when shes driving 45 mins out to my town anyway. Its from 6-9 which means no time to get to the gym before and it'll be about bed time when I get home. So no gym and greasy food for dinner. I feel like Im just totally out of control and gaining and I cant do anything about it. BUT I KNOW I CAN. I shouldnt get so down over a few bad weeks. I know I can and will go to the gym tomorrow. I will get out of bed on time to pack my breakfast and lunch. I will do better this weekend than I have the last 3.
Wow, I didnt realize that I havent been back to EP in a week As far as diet and exercise, its more of the same. Thursday I did have a couple pieces of Trick or Treat candy (many of the towns around here trick or treat the Thursday of the week of Halloween. I have no idea why.) but I ran out of candy before the end of the night and I had bought 6 bags! Great that I dont have tons of candy laying around the house but I felt terrible for those last few kids that came around. Friday my DH took off work, which is always good because that makes my weekend seem longer too but that also meant I rushed home just to enjoy hanging out with him and didnt exercise. Saturday the weather was beautiful so I went for a 3 mile run. It was so great to be back outside again after our cold spell! Ofcourse after the next few days I think we are heading right back to the cold stuff. Sunday I was lazy. Monday was back to the gym, yay! Tuesday was just a 1.5 mile walk with the dog but that is something and we both enjoyed it. Oh, and I did some ab exercises, nothing formal. Food has been Horrible, thats horrible with a capital H! I eat nonstop and to make matters worse I tested out a chocolate pecan pie (Ive never made any pies besides pudding pie before) for thankgiving and had that around to devour. Then even worse it was good but not quite right so now Im tempted to tweek the recipe and try again but that just means another pie sitting around to be eatten.
Anyway, today Ive got my lunch packed and gym bag in the car to set myself up for an easy succesful day. However I think Ive got strep and need to get to an Urgent care for a strep test. Im just now getting around to switching to my DH's doctor from the one I had back when I was living with my folks. The new DR wont see me until they do a complete physical/new patient exam. So its urgent care for me today I think. I get strep all the time. Im one of those people who if a coworker's kid's classmate had a sibling with strep, Im gonna catch it. So ive learned the tell tale signs. Sometimes I get it so bad it hurts to breath and my whole body aches. Other times i just have the slightest scratchy throat but I get those white spots on my thoat and tonsils. And this is really really gross but usually I can taste it. Weird I know, but that strep taste is unmistakable. So luckily this is one of the times where Ive just had a scratchy throat and then saw the spots. I still want to hit the gym because I really truly dont feel bad but then theres always the thought that I dont want to spread strep and make people sick so am I being irresponsible if I go. I dont know, IM sure theres a ton of sick people in there from day to day and sick kids in the childcare room so what difference would I really make.....
Well I havent been doing the greatest with food. I just cant seem to stop eatting. Even when I pack my lunch or make a healthy dinner, I just keep grabbing for more and more. However, I did get back to the gym. I told myself the first day Id just pop in for a quick 30 min exercise. A little is better than nothing and if I thought about spending a long amount of time there then it was harder to convince myself to go. It worked! I went and it felt good just to be moving and working. It got me there and reminded me that I enjoy exercise and I shouldnt dread going to the gym. So I went back the next night and did 40 minutes. So although its not enough to offset my bad eatting, I feel good about my exercise. I'll have to work on the food some more. Tonights trick or treat so I need to resist the temptation to dive into the candy bowl between passing it out adn it means no time for the gym. Thats ok though because I know I can take a day off and get right back to it the next.
Im still afraid of the scale. I need to get on there and face it.
Last week was super busy at work. We are still playing catch up on jobs from the wind storm a few weeks ago. Plus we had a huge safety day so I couldnt do any regular work that day. So back on track today, work and exercise. I took the whole week off after my half marathon but I've got my bag packed to hit the gym tonight. My ankle is still bothering me just a little but I figure some no impact cardio on the cross trainer might be just the thing I need. As for food, Ive eaten anything I feel like for weeks and I havent gotten on the scale in as much time. I need to get that sorted out before clothes start not fitting. I know I can and will!
Well I didnt do terrible eatting yesterday but only because I drank too much and didnt think about food. My sister and I went for just 2 drinks after work and then I was going to head home. Well that turned into several more. I hate when I do that. I feel outta control if I drink more than I planned, like I knew I shouldnt have more than two so why did I? My sister thinks that all the calories and carbs used up for the half marathon may have effected our metabolism so the first drink or two effected us more quickly than normal, making our judgement more impaired on whether or not to have more. However, this seems to happen more when its me and her together than when we are with other people... So today will probably not be back to working out for me. I'll probably head home and get to all the things around the house that I never got to last night.
Thanks everyone for all the congratulatorywishes yesterday! They really made me feel great and accomplished!
My diet and exercise are still going so so. Well my diet is in the crapper and my exercise is doing well so I guess that evens out to so so. The madness of Thanksgiving week is over so Ive got a few good weeks of exercise and some practice in controlling eatting habits before the Christmas maddness starts, eattingwise anyway, the Christmas maddness in general has already begun!
Then I got home and felt lazy so I didnt work out at all and pigged out on desert after dinner. Yesterday, late again, no packed lunch but I did have enough food bagged up to grab for a breakfast smoothie and made a slightly better choice at lunch. Then I hit the gym for 50 mins of cardio. I feel soooo good about 98% of the time that Im at the gym(2% for the odd day where you get there and you're just not feeling it) so why do I ever skip? Dinner was probably too much but my snacking was a little better. Today, once again, running into the office just in time for our morning meeting. So no packed breakfast or lunch. The cafeteria lady is gone today so I cant even go down there for breakfast. So I'll probably run out somewhere for that too. I havent completely bailed of health, Im adding in good things, Im limitting some bad things, and I usually get in 4 workouts a week, but I know from past experience that a half effort doesnt mean half results. It means no results or even gains. So I really need to step up and give full effort.
but if I expect to do anything about it I know I have to see the numbers and bring myself to reality. So I get on the scale tomorrow morning and then 8 lbs in 4 weeks. I will do it! I'd love to have another exercise challenge like training for the half marathon but now its freezing cold here (well actually today its beautiful and upper 50's but thats been the exception and it definately wont stick around) so continuing to run outside is not for me. I really really really would love to train for a triathalon but I dont have access to a place to swim. My neighbors have a pool but thats only usable when its summer here and although its really nice its not a lap swimming kind of pool so that wouldnt work even when it is hot out. I also dont have a bike so Id eventually have to buy one and extra money doesnt just float around at my house 
. Maybe I'll start working on the treadmill and shoot for a faster 5k time and then come spring when I start signing up for those I can get a personal best. I'll have to keep searching for a good exercise goal/challenge for myself. If you have any ideas Id love to hear them!
As far as diet and exercise, its more of the same. Thursday I did have a couple pieces of Trick or Treat candy (many of the towns around here trick or treat the Thursday of the week of Halloween. I have no idea why.) but I ran out of candy before the end of the night and I had bought 6 bags! Great that I dont have tons of candy laying around the house but I felt terrible for those last few kids that came around. Friday my DH took off work, which is always good because that makes my weekend seem longer too 
but that also meant I rushed home just to enjoy hanging out with him and didnt exercise. Saturday the weather was beautiful so I went for a 3 mile run. It was so great to be back outside again after our cold spell! Ofcourse after the next few days I think we are heading right back to the cold stuff. Sunday I was lazy. Monday was back to the gym, yay! Tuesday was just a 1.5 mile walk with the dog but that is something and we both enjoyed it. Oh, and I did some ab exercises, nothing formal. Food has been Horrible, thats horrible with a capital H! I eat nonstop and to make matters worse I tested out a chocolate pecan pie (Ive never made any pies besides pudding pie before) for thankgiving and had that around to devour. Then even worse it was good but not quite right so now Im tempted to tweek the recipe and try again but that just means another pie sitting around to be eatten. 
and didnt think about food. My sister and I went for just 2 drinks after work and then I was going to head home. Well that turned into several more. I hate when I do that. I feel outta control if I drink more than I planned, like I knew I shouldnt have more than two so why did I? My sister thinks that all the calories and carbs used up for the half marathon may have effected our metabolism so the first drink or two effected us more quickly than normal, making our judgement more impaired on whether or not to have more. However, this seems to happen more when its me and her together than when we are with other people... 
So today will probably not be back to working out for me. I'll probably head home and get to all the things around the house that I never got to last night.