I'm Losing It

Starting the day

Wednesday, December 5, 2007 22:05:10

Well I've had my scrambled eggs for breakfast (shared with my 2 year old, of course) :) I need to work out this afternoon while he's napping and do laundry. That's about the only plans we have today since my 5 year old is sick with a bad cold.

I may still try to drag him out of the house later for a hair cut... they're starting to look shaggy :)

Hope you all have a great day!

xx-Janet

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One day at a time

Wednesday, December 5, 2007 22:04:19

OK... I suck, I know. I've been MIA forever and a day, right?! Well, I'm trying very hard to get back into the motivation of wanting this for myself.

I've gone back to low carb'ing and I've been back on the elliptical for 40 min./day the last couple of days and I feel great about those things. I just have to keep the ball rolling... one day at a time.

I only have about 36 pounds to reach my original goal of 160 so I can do that! :) I think I'll end up changing the goal to 150 but we'll see when I get to 160.

My hubby turned 30 this month so I threw him a big surprise party, which was a total blast. We had family vising for a few weeks from Afghanistan and weddings and parties galore in the time that I've been gone. I also had an uncle pass away 2 weeks ago. All in all - a TON going on, which is why my weight loss took a quick back seat, but I'm trying to gain my focus back now.

I'm off to check up on peeps :) Keep me honest, people!!

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Back around

Monday, December 3, 2007 22:08:16

So I did awful the past couple of weeks! We've been going and going and I've been too tired to make good choices. Plus my DH went out of town for a bit and that's always a trigger for me. Then my mom came to visit, which was great, but we were both bad - shopping and eating the whole time she was here!! Admittedly though, it was a great break!

I'm back now and I've switched back to low fat, low calorie instead of trying to do low carb. We have SO many things planned this coming month - different celebrations, weddings, parties, etc., that doing low carb would be impossible to maintain.

How's everyone else doing??

Janet

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Remembering...

Monday, December 3, 2007 23:06:14

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Feeling Great

Monday, December 3, 2007 23:06:00

So I did my workout on the elliptical this afternoon and this morning I weighed in and I'm at 186. I'm so thrilled about that. I don't ever - in my adult life - remember being less than 185 at any point. I know in high school I was in my 150's but come on... that was a long time ago since I'm now 30. I feel like I'm turning a corner, though, like I'm within reach of my goal. I know I can do this.

I don't think I've ever been so excited about losing weight and being healthy. I don't think I've ever actually believed that I would get to my goal. Now I KNOW I will. I think we all know the feeling I'm talking about. That you really want to lose weight.... that you really need to lose weight. That you're ashamed of the person other people see when they look at you because you know you're better than that. But you're just too tired. Too unmotivated. Too depressed. And you're over it - and once again you give up. But I'm not doing that this time. I'm going to beat this for good this time. I'm never going back. I know I can do this.

I'm a 30 year old wife to an amazing man for 6.5 years, and a mother of 2 perfectly beautiful little boys that has over come heart failure. I'm stronger than this, I'm better than this. I KNOW I CAN DO THIS.

Whatever It Takes... the newest song out by Lifehouse. It's my new mantra :) I know it's about a screwed up relationship and that they didn't have weight loss in mind, I'm sure, when writing it. But 'Whatever it takes' sounds like a really good thing to me! And I have let myself down - and all the amazing people that love and support me. So I'm going to do whatever it takes to finish this. And I'm going to... and I can't wait. :)

((hugs)) Janet

Here's the video (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iawro7IfoCM in case it doesn't show up right):

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Holy Moly!

Monday, December 3, 2007 23:04:17

OK - so I did the first workout for week 3 in the couch to 5K Cool Runnings program just now. WOW! That was tough for me!! I made it all the way through though so I'm SO happy with that! I'm doing it on my treadmill and I usually catch up on something good on the TV to keep my mind occupied while I'm doing it but today there wasn't anything on the Tivo so I just left it playing live TV on E! and it was something about Hollywood love gone wrong or something like that. It was not good though, lol, so that made the workout that much harder to get through!!

I'm super proud of myself that I'm doing this though and I'm so happy that I can actually run for 3 straight minutes! Woot woot!

Hopefully the dang scale will move down again soon.....

Janet

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Slacker

Monday, December 3, 2007 23:03:23

I was a huge slacker this weekend... no workouts at ALL. I'm bummed but at the same time I've been so tired and 'blah' this weekend that I just didn't have the drive. It is what it is. Moving on.... :)

I was good eating this weekend, though - so that's a positive. We even went to a birthday party for a 9 year old at Chuck E Cheese Saturday and I had NO pizza or cake if you can believe that... and I adore birthday cake :) I, instead, went and got myself salad at their salad bar and felt good about that :)

So - back to the grind tomorrow for Week 3, Workout 1 of the Cool Runnings program! Wish me luck!

Janet

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Week 2 down!

Monday, December 3, 2007 23:01:16

So I just finished my Week 2, Workout 3 from the couch to 5K training and I'm feeling really good about that!!! I can't believe I can do any of it at all so to be done with some of it a good feeling, lol!

I think my weight is S L O W L Y starting to move down off of 188 so I'm very happy about that. I'll just keep chugging along, making the right choices and hopefully it will show on the scale very soon.

I was just telling my hubby yesterday that I think whenever I feel badly about myself I'm just going to go and hang out with my 5 year old's preschool teacher, haha! Every single time I see her - no exaggeration - she gushes about how wonderful I look - how skinny I am now - how great my clothes look on me, etc, etc... it is SO sweet and one of my biggest motivators, lol!!! She usually even has a compliment for my shoes! I love her!!!! :)

Anyhow - I hoep you guys are all doing good!! I haven't heard from any of you in a little bit - drop me a line and let me know you're still in the land of the living! ;)

Janet

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Still going :)

Tuesday, December 4, 2007 00:09:09

Well I seem to be hanging at 188 now but I'm still working on it. Today will be Week 2, workout 2 of the couch to 5K training and I plan on watching last nights American Idol while I run.... give me some motivation, AI! :)

I am still motivated and I'm going to up my cardio a bit on the non-running days to see if I can drop some more weight. My goal is still 160, as it has been forever, but I would REALLY like to try to get to at least 155 if not lower once I hit that. But I won't worry if I don't get there quickly. Hopefully in the next few months I'll just get closer and closer!!!

I'm actually happy for now that I'm hanging on 188 and didn't actually gain because this weekend I ate like total crap. We took our boys to the circus on Saturday and dieting went right out the window with a crappy hotdog and popcorn, lol!!! Oh well!

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Keeping on...

Tuesday, December 4, 2007 00:04:09

I took yesterday off cause my legs have been so sore from either running or doing the hills on the elliptical. I was switching off but I think I just needed a day of rest :) So - I took that yesterday and I'll be doing Week 1, Workout 3 today. Very exciting to be getting done with week 1!!

My weight seems to go up a bit when I'm sore... anyone know if that's normal?

The weather's been so blah here lately - no good for motivation!

Dinner last night was not good. I was feeling so ick yesterday (I think it's almost my TOM) and I had no motivation (thus the 'day of rest') and I ended up ordering dinner from a deli for my and my boys. Not good. I had a Turkey Reuben... oy. The scale didn't break this morning when I stepped on it, though, so I suppose it's OK ;)

Off I go.... how's everyone else doing???

Janet

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