Word and Emotion Calories
I've been counting the calories of my food .... and while I was clicking through some old photo's and remembering where I was at the point in my life, and even considering where I am now .... I realize my true calories have been Word and Emotion Calories ....
Is it evident I've been eating them?
Not that I feel I should walk around saying everything that's at the top of my head ... Gee, No One would talk to me, ... and with a few, I'd probably turn up missing!
This is so painful to admit, let alone live ... but if I'm to move to the Next Level of my Freedom, I've got to confront this portion of my journey.
Next step .... Word and Emotion Calorie restriction.
As I type this I think of the times where I've allowed others to inconvenience me .... "Can you take on this extra project. Only you can do it, and I know you're already swamped, but can you please ... be a Team Player?"
"Can I borrow a few dollars til payday?... I know you have children and a new grandbaby, but I overspent last week on Vacation .... be a good Sis ... "
and then my own loading of the weight and stress ..
"I know I need to save and get serious about my finances and have somehting to show for all I earned all year ... but that car is so shiny, it would love great in my driveway. Oh, Steinmart is having a Sale ... I love their clothes! .... makeup .. you can never have enough. right?
Ugggh!
The past several weeks have been so liberating, but also show how far I need to travel. I'm getting better at saying not to others and to myself, and being honest and setting limitations ... but oh, so far to go ...
As I remove this fat suit ... I will not permit others to dump their problems on me for me to carry, while they run off and continue in their routine.
As I remove this fat suit, I will not permit myself to continue to live in denial of my own stress and fat causing actions ...
As I remove this fat suit ... I shall begin counting and restricting my Word and Emotional Eating Calories.