Post party

Well I survived my daughters birthday party!  I'm proud that I managed to bake, decorate and be faced by hords of gorgeous looking and smelling food, and I didnt' even lick a finger!  The only thing is now I'm tired!!!!  3 Days later and I'm still dragging my butt around!  Everything aches and I've got a bit of a rash on my face again.  Must have overdone things a bit!

On a brighter note though, I do feel stronger emotionally and am ready to face some difficult decisions about my life.  I"ll fill you in as I make my choices.  Since I'm no longer hiding behind food and fat, there are old issues cropping up which I need to now face head on.

And on that note, I gotta drag my weary butt off to bed!  Love, courage and hope to all of you!

Still chugging along!

Well pc finally up and running again, and I seem to have finally thrown the bug that I caught too!  Had a hectic week of sorting out last week - this seems to be a common theme through my blogs!!!  I just never seem to get finished before more junk starts to accumulate somewhere! 

My weight loss is still on track - I ain't stopping for nothing now!!!  I need to start watching the variety a bit now though as I'm tending to eat the same thing day in day out, because it's easy.  But, I know that the weight comes off quicker if I keep things varied and I also don't want to get blazay about what I'm eating either.

Belly dancing is going a treat - but my hips definitely lie!!!  What happened, where did they go!  No co-operation what-so-ever in the hip region!!  It most certainly is not as easy as it looks. 

Having been out of action for two weeks, getting back into the Taekwondo has been tough!  But, I"m hanging in there!  I'm determined to get fit again.  My balance is still non-existant and again, I wonder if my hips are ever going to syncronize with the rest of my body!

Anyway, gotta go.  Got to go do some baking etc as it is my daughter's 6th birthday party tomorrow - where did the years go!  Will catch up with everyone next week once I recover from hosting a kids birthday party!

Hi!

My pc has been outa action for the past week as I picked up a bug and had to eventually re-format the darn thing!  Anyway, I'm back and bug free!  I unfortunately still have the sniffels - as does half the people I know here! 

The weightloss is still inching down despite the fact that I had several meals last week that weren't weighed.  Anyway, this week I'm back to 100%.  Yesterday I went to my first belly dancing class.  Reckoned it wouldnt' be too hectic as I still have a stuffy nose.  It was great, but boy it is much harder than it looks.  I thought I could move my hips, but it would appear I can't!!!

I'm going to hold off on the Taekwondo for a bit until I feel 100% as that is far more hectic.  I don't want to get too tired and slow down my weightloss.

A lot of people have remarked on how much weight I've lost and how good I"m looking.  I'm doing my best to accept the compliments with grace and without letting it make me feel conspicuous.  This time I am not going to run to the kitchen to stuff my face when people start to notice me.  I'm also tackling my illogical belief that you can't be thin and pretty, and be a nice person - that people who take care of themselves and their appearances must be vain!  And on that note, today I'm going to go for a haircut.  Nothing too drastic, but I want some layers.  It's time for some changes.

And on that note, I need to get this day rolling.  This week I will catch up with everyone.  I hope you are all doing well.

Hi everyone!

Well Joy is up visiting with the kids for the week.  Boo hoo, hoo she is leaving Saudi and heading back to Oz - or so the plan is for now!  I''m happy for her though as I know this is what she wants and needs.  At least I know that the chances of seeing her again in Oz are pretty good!  Nature of being an expat is that you make friends from all over the world and it is usually very sad when they, or you, move on or back to your own countries.  Thank goodness for email!

Despite eating out at the compound resturant several times I'm still loosing weight.  Thankfully they make food for me with the ingredients I"m allowed, but they do not weigh it accurately for me.  Still I haven't deviated and eaten anything that wasn't on plan.  I just try to eat as much as I think is right - or until I feel full.

Anyway, gotta go.  Trying to catch up on everyone quickly before I get to sewing.  Joy and I are starting our friendship quilt today - when it's finished I'll post a pic!  We wanted to make something that reflected our friendship and our memories of our time here together. 

Hope you all have a good day!

Official weigh in and blood tests today

Well today is my official weigh in and 4 week blood test day.  Weighed in this morning at 87,4kg which is a loss of 7,6kg since I started Cohen's diet and 10,6kg since I started blogging here at extrapounds.  It still seems a bit surreal that I've actually come this far!

Watched a movie last night called "Click" - a comedy with a strong message about living your life.  It really hit home that you don't get a second chance to live your life and that you need to make sure that you are fully present in your life - not fast forwarding through it and missing all the good stuff.  I have put so much of my life on hold while I was waiting to get thin - stuff that has passed way too quickly!  Being fat means I have missed out on a lot of things, especially with regard to my family.  Mom is always too tired and too fat to participate fully in the fun.  This is not what I want the kids to remember about their childhood!  This is not how I want to look back on my life.  There is more to life than the fleeting pleasure gained from junk food.  I'd far rather have the energy and inclination to play with the kids in the park.  I want better memories!

So what legacy would you like to leave behind when your life is over?

My first 10kgs!

Well 10 down and 20 odd to go!  I know I said I wouldnt' weigh myself more than once a week - but I just can't help it.  I have managed to cut it back to twice a week.  Do you think there is a patch for Scale Addiction????

This was a difficult week in some ways with hubby buying all sorts of goodies which are now sitting in the cupboard, taunting me!  On the good side - I have managed to resist so far.  I keep reminding myself that this is not forever and that I don't want to do this one more week longer than I have to.  I've become a bit lethargic with meal choices so need to watch that and start making a bit more effort.  Also need to get in that water.  Maybe I should strap a water tank on my back with a tube that can just drip the water into my mouth all day!

Well, tomorrow....oh, it's already after 12, so make that later today, is another day!

It's coming together...

...and yet, when things are going good, there is this little voice in my head that starts with.....this won't last........something bad must be around the corner.....don't get cocky and think this is going to be easy.......and so on, and so on!

Having to fight that horrid little person inside me that likes to undermine me and see if it can sabotage me!  So, I'm doing well...she says warily, checking to make sure that she doesn't sound proud!  But, I am doing well and I do feel proud.  People are starting to notice the weight loss.  One of the ladies on the compound, that I don't know very well (polite commentary in passing), actually made a point today of stopping at the house to tell me how well I was doing and well done!  I was quite gob-smacked!

I have a bit more energy again and am finding it a little easier to get my life organised at the moment!  Yay, for the return of some of my brain cells!!! 

I'm actually starting to feel like being with people again and being my old out-going self again.  And on that note, gotta go check on ya'all!

By the skin of my teeth today!

Today was one of those days were the desire to eat junk food was high!  I think I must be breaking down something nasty in my body - stuff stored in pockets of fat!  I know that this stuff can have a very similar effect going out, that it did going in!  So today I'm slightly puffy, tired, irritable and I crave sugar! 

I've managed to keep it at bay by sucking a few sugar free mints and avoiding the kitchen like the plague!  But, I got through today...somehow....don't know how!

So I may not have felt great today, but I'm proud that I made it to the end of the day without cheating.  Tomorrow I'd like to focus on a little more variety and off course drinking my water.  And on that note, good night!

Measured myself this morning.

Thought I would measure myself this morning to see what's happening on that front.  Trying to be good and only weigh myself on Saturdays (my Mondays here).  Measured myself last on the 11 Jan, and in the last 11 days I've lost:

2 cm around my neck,

5 cm off my upper arm

2 cm off lower arm

3 cm off bust

2 cm off waist

5 cm off hips

5.5 cm off thigh

2 cm off calf

I've given up on trying to remember to blog what I've eaten each day.  But taking a leaf out of Jenelle's book, I want to write down one thing each day (or time that I blog) that I'm proud of, and one thing I'd like to do different tomorrow.  Since it's morning here now, I'll tell you about one thing I'm proud of achieving yesterday and one thing I'd like to achieve today.

So, I'm proud that I made it through yesterday.  Yesterday I was tired and I made a really delicious smelling new dish for everyone else for dinner, and I really wanted some - but I had my cabbage and chicken soup instead!  Today I would like to focus on drinking more water.  I'm still not drinking enough water.  Today I need to drink at least 4 bottles of water.

THE UNDERSIDE OF 90!!!

89.5kgs!!  I feel really excited to finally have fallen below 90kgs.  The last time I was this size was in 2004, after briefly going under 90kgs for a few months from about September 2003 to June 2004!  Before that I was over 90 for a goodness knows how long - I think since the final stages of my pregnancy with my second child!  And she's now 5, almost 6! 

This is kind of big for me.  For the longest time it felt like I would never be under 90kgs again!

Onwards and downwards we go now to 80!