day 10 and sneaky lil Weigh in!

yah! i had a sneaky little WI today as ive been doing the 790 and wanted to see if it still worked... lost 2lb since tuesday! so 1 lb  a day! 

so if i still do that until next tuesday WI ill be 16st 8lb! 

but im in the 16's!! yah! by 17's i never really loved you anywayyyyyyyyyyy! 

day 9!

well i am now on  day 9! last night i went to see my first CD counseller....i admit it i was buying off of ebay.......

and i was SO pleased i went, first it was nice to see someone who was the same weight as me wheni started who had lost 6 stone on it!

2nd.............. i was doing the diet wrong! which is why i was so sick & shaky!!! but it is all sort ed now so i fell alot better about things!

i have 3 shakes a day, i can have 4 if i want. and in the evening i have a piece of fish & a few tablespoons of veg & a non oil based low cal dressing (if wanted) and ill do this until friday, or if i feel ok on it i may just do this, it works out to about 580kc so only about a 110 over the shakes anyway, so i really doubt it will stop any weight loss!

day 7.... still on track!

well last night i was very sick  i get very ill on Totm anyway, BUT i normally eat every two whens when on Totm, but obviosuly this time i didnt and i nearly passed out!! and was sick a bit! was freezing and stuff (dont let this put you off the diet, this is what i get every month anyway!) so instead of having 2 shakes & 1 bar i had 2 bars & 1 shake, boyf really wanted me to eat, but i didnt want to so i stuck to my CD bar, i felt better after 20mins of eating it.

i still have a bad tum ache  had to have some diralyte sachets for bad tums with essential salts & things in them to help stop tum ache!!! i feel a little better today, im just really tired because of Totm!

Anyway! DAY 7!!! DAY 7!! TODAY!!! going to WI tom so it will be a complete FULL 7 day week, i havent been near the scales...so it is a suprise!! haha! i am relly really hoping for 10lb, but what with being totm & having them sachets 7lb would be good!

day 6!!! SO HAPPY!

DAY 6!!! oh my god! i am SOO happy! & pleased with myself! itll be a WHOLE week tom!

woke up today in pain, but focused on the pain leaving me & being healthy instead of focusing on the pain itself, seemed to have worked (with painkillers! LOL)

and i have SOOOOOOOOOO much energy! i honestly dont know what to do with myself, i kinda feel like laughing/crying and running 5 miles! 

i just had a outburst at my boyf!! throwing pillows and mucking around!! we were both laughing so much that i remember this exercise from a kid my family used to do, sit on the floor & walk along with your bum!!! HAHA! i did it and my boyf was crying with laughter!! i honeslty dont remember the last time we laughed and chilled out it was really nice! 

im even starting to be like a kid with food, you know they pick at what they want and stop when full? after half my bar i was like, oh ok i dont really want anymore!!!!!! HALF A BAR!  :eek:

am so pleased i cant wait to say it has been 2 then 3 then 4 weeks!

YAH! 

day 5 and a half!

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just wanted to do a quick post & say how proud i am of my self!! *big head* (i dont care!)  

day 5...nearly day 6 and NO food has passed my lips apart from my cambridge diet shakes & bars, i feel slimmer already!!!

my face looks nicer & i have had NO heartburn....... now i was meant to have a camera put down my tummy to see what was wrong as ive had heartburn for years & was on strong medication.... (im 23 had it since i was 17...) and i know what was wrong... DIET! so ill give it a full month & tell the docs! im sure hell be very happy!

i have howver been running to the loo today!!! well i had this before, i think my body is detoxing! GOOOD! lol!!!

and ill leave it on that note! haha!

day 5........ bit of a situation!

well! woke up all night in pain...... its my endometriosis playing bloody well up! and to top it all i got my 'totm'!!! not meant to have it now, its meant to be every 12 weeks but i think it thought 'shes doing so well ill pay her a visit!'

WELL! i normally eat like a big pig during this time........ BUT i am not going to, i want to be slim and healthy more than i want any food! and i will NOT GIVE IN!!!!  YES THATS RIGHT! i will not give in to it! be slimmer will help with my pain to, so why should i?! im going toi take it easy today and not do to much, but other than that the only things i will eat will be my shakes & my bar!

its taken me 5 months to start this diet there is no way i am going to sabatarge (SPELLING!) myself when ive done 5 days....no way! soon it will be 15 then 50 days and i will DO IT!!

WOO WOOOOOO!!!

day 4 mid way...

well i feel a little down/sick/bored...not really hungry, but have the feelings of it..........

bit of a tummy ache keep running to the loo! but this happened before to me as i have a senstive tum, so i have so spread my shakes out so 2 packs =4 and so on! and it does go away!

still feeling a little (lot!) moody keep snapping at the boyf, but who can blame me!? going from eating 10000000 calories aday! (ok maybe not THAT many!) to eating 2 shakes & a bar! lol!

keep thinking about my tummy tuck and that i can not wait to have it done and my boob reduction!

i told the boyf id cook for him tonight, stif fry chicken & rice, not something that i njormally eat, not the chicken anyway, so i know i wont be tempted!!!

tums rumbling but every rumble is closer to another 1lb lost! so keep em coming!!!

day 4 NO Cheating!!!!!

this is a repeat of what i wrote on the other forum... i promise ill do a original one today!

god! i can not beleive it is day 4! and NO CHEATING!!! last time i cheated by now, pasta & chips, then by the time the week was up i was eating a indian & picking at stuff!

but NOTHING has passed my lip-s bar shakes & water & bars!

i am SO proud of myself, i jsut keep thinking forward 'in 40 days time' etc! i can not wait!!  :D :D

bit of a smack in the face last night though, or more of a push, lets change that word! was chatting to the boyf, and i finally managed to get out of him that he doesnt like me being big, he still loves me, but perfers me when we met, i want him to say it as i want to hear it so it will give me a push, i want to look nice for myself, but i want to go back to being the hot girl who everyone was after that kept himn on his toes!

and if it were the other way round i sure wouldnt fancy him at my weight, so its fair enough really!

so day 4 here i come and the sooner the better!  :D

day 3! day 3!

well! day 3 is here and after drooling at many a M7S advert / pizza hut/ tesco/ chefs cooking on tv!!............ NO FOOD...yess ill repeat it! NO FOOD! has passed my lips!! 

i can not wait to say im on week 3!!

day 3 today, i feel like im in a swimming pool, day 1 i got in, day 2 i pushed off, day 3 im nearing the middle type it, so i either jump out and get scared...or say SOD THIS! and keep going................. and i know what one i want most! 

i am trying to visualise everyday me slimmer and really happy, trying on nice clothes, feeling fitter etc, instead of thinking ;this will never work' as if you tell your breain that...well it wont work will it! so positive all the way.............!!!!

i got some water flavourings today to, so strong! and i tired a CD peanut bar, YUK! it was horrible, only had half as im splitting my shakes & bars now i have them, into halfs so 3 packs a day = 6 , jsut makes me feel fuller, plus i end up havung more water so thats cool!

ok! going to make some phones calls and play on the playstation to take my mind of of food! 

day 2 ... i made it past day 1!

day 2 is a little better than day 1! feel fairly pi**ed off getting annoyed at every little thing!

the boyf gave up today and said hell do WW for a couple of months instead, he has got a demanding job so maybe no eating wasnt the wisest of things to do anyway!

i just cant wait for it to be 2 weeks then 2 months! i know im wishing the time away...but i dont care!