actually feeling good! and nwe WI day...again !

well! i am feeling really good today, i have the day off of exercise as ive done so much so far this week, i dont want to go crazy, as ive gone from literally sittinghtere to exercise! and i know if i go crazy ill hurt myself and not be able to carry on!

i did 45mins cardio on mon & tues, and my upper body on mon & lower body on tues! day off today then back to it tom!

not feeling hungry, actually went to bed early yesterday and ive been doing alot more, just cleaning my place at the momnet keeping busy and trying to keep moving!

ive changed my WI day again, i dont think im going to be able to cope with only weighing in every 2 weeks! so im going to WI every sunday, as thats my day off so to speak! so heres to to losing a million stone by then! lol!

going really well!

well! it is going really well so far! kinda incorparating michael turmond and the body for life plan into one! so i have sundays off yahhh!

have been exercising everyday!  am really pleased! so not much else to report really! i do however feel a little scared to weigh myself when it comes time to, as ill be worried ive not lost...but how can i not?!

new start!

ok it is only 10.40pm but i am SO tired! been tired since 8 as have been doing so much!

anyway WI tom and new start!! looking froward to it, better go to bed now as have a early start of exercising!!

ok new WI day n stuff

i have decided that i will WI every 2 weeks from now on, i will have my main WI on monday then 2 weeks from then i will WI again!

i think thatll keep me on track more, as if you see 1 or 2lb loss....for me anyway im dissapointed, so if i see 3/4lb losses.....im more likely to stick to it!

oh! i managed to do 40mins!! on the treadmill yesterday!!

going to go on it in a minute and watch beyond belief fact or fiction!!! lol!

going to my sisters tonight for her b day, have asked her not t offer me food, although i am kinda eating what i want, as its just about the exercise this week, but i dont want them to know that (my family) but i cant wait have all my food plans drawn up n stuff!! so excited!!..............going to be slimmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!

food food fooooodddd!!! oh and cute guys!

oh my god! because i have been exercising this week i have been STARVING (literally) hungry all the time! first time ive done exercise (REAL exercise) for bloody months and months!

just been eating whatever i want really, within reason of course! no takeaways or choc still!  i just want to get my exercise on par...and monday i starting my eating plan! wooo woo!!! sakinny ass here i come!

oh! also, something else kinda spuring me on, about 3/4 years ago (long time) i met this really cute guy, he really liked me but i had a boyf, well and still have (dont stop me thinking! ) anyway he really liked me and i was 14st7 then, and the last time he saw me was when i was 15st7....... and then my weight because of medicaton kept rising to 17st the next stone was outa of depression. anyway i havent seen him since, although we have spoke he always asked to meet up etc, i always said no out of being ill, anyway he has a girlf now and i still have boyf, but id still love to be skinny and walked past him!

its nice to be noticed! i cant wait to have guys fighting over me again! i wish i didnt have stretch marks, i wont be able to model now (i ws asked a few year back) ah well at least ill be thin and not 'just a pretty/beautiful/hot face' haha! ill have the body to yah! *partyyy*

we shall do our exercises!

oh my god! i am SO tired! have exercised both days AND gone out!  shopping and cinema! (i dont normalyl go anywherre so this is a shock to me!

i am SO not getting up early tommorow!

food going good, sticking to weight watchers for this week and next week i will be doing michael thurmond/my own creation type thing! just wanted to get my exercise in check before i do it! i could only do 3.0 walking on monday and today i was doing 4.0!! and thats only in a day!

just eaten normal really, had my first takeaway of the year on monday, not a full blown one, after the cinema we were starving literally couldnt wait, very silly but ddint eat dinner, so it was 8pm and neither of us had eaten since 12......

so stopped off at the chip shop and had chips! went next door to the chinese and had chicken fried rice!!!!  brought it home and it worked out to 19 points! luckly!!! i had enough! as i had bonus points and boyf had 25 left over! so that was nice, i tell you what though i felt so ill after like i could feel my stomach streatching and i never want to feel like that again! still not had any chocolate this year!

am looking froward to next week! now i am going to bed...for a longgggggggggggg time! that postman better not knock at my door! he did this morning and said 'is this number 9?' i said 'yes' he said 'its very confusing' i just pointed to the big number 9 on the door and said 'it says number 9 on the door' he was like 'oh' ....hmmmmmm!! night!

new WI new start

ok i have just weighed in, i really do not know how much my scales were saying 1 stone less...HOW?! so this is my new start weight, have started exercising to

just so sick of being fat, just wana be slim!

starting over.... AGAIN

i am just SO SICK of being fat, now i am wondering if them scales were right i dont want to kid myself thinking im half stone slimmer than i am?

so i am re starting tom, new start weight, new me! i am cutting back a lot more to and going to start excercising more going to incorprate the michael thurmond plan into it, i did that (another one!) last year, well infact over a year and a half ago! but at the time i craved sweet stuff and couldnt do it, but not i have not had  a choc bar for nearly a month so it will be easier i think, and i always have some low fat sorbet if i REALLY want something............. so here i go......... AGAIN!

no longer gutted! mistake!

ok it is all sorted (the scales fiasco) it works out they are either 5lb over or correct!

so i am leaving it as they are!!

so there we go! WI next saturday!

GUTTED

well it has come to my knowledge that i actually started out at 18st 11lb  and now i weigh 17st 13lb after a 2lb gain this week feel sick and diguseted

just honestly want to give up crawl into a hole and die