2 days ago I took out my old high school freshmen yearbook to show my boyfriend something and when I looked @ my picture, I didn't recognize that person. I don't know who she is because I've been looking @ the obese version of myself for so long now that I've convinced myself this is who I am and who I will always be. There's no need for convincing any longer - I REFUSE to allow myself to continue on this path I've been on for 10 years now. All it has brought me is self conciousness, low self esteem, heartache and heartbreak and I'm tired of it. I have been with my boyfriend for almost 3 years now and it's so frustrating to think about how much healthier I COULD be after those 3 years when in actuality, I'm probably even heavier then when he met me. We are planning on getting married in Oct of 2009 which means I have a good amount of time to accomplish my weight loss goal....the hard part will be keeping myself motivated enough to continue. I get on these weight loss "kicks", eat healthy and get in more activity but after 1-2 months, I only have a minimal weight loss so I give up. Does anyone have any ideas/suggestions how to combat this? My boyfriend always tells me that it took me 10 years to gain the weight so I need to realize it may take a while to get it off but I'm not the most patient person. :)
Posted By: whoami
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08/21/2007 14:02
yeah, remember that girl
I look back at those old photos & wonder just where she went & how'd I get here? Funny thing? I was obsessed over my fat back then, too! Oh, now I just wish I could be that small again. Irony, eh?
I take my motivation whereever & whenever I find it. I set daily & weekly goals & keep a daily chart/diary on progress. When I feel positive, I try to do just a little more, a few extra steps, longer at the gym, pass that sweet up. When I'm feeling blah, I force myself to move anyway, do at least the minimum amount on my goal sheet. When I want that sweet, or that greasy food, I eat it. I just make sure I don't binge, so I don't have to slip any further or hate myself in the morning.
You can do this! Keep realistic goals and treat yourself nicely when you make progress. I love this site. When I am feeling weak, either not motivated or wanting to eat everything in sight, then I come here and read other blogs. Some have done such great things & lost so much already! Like I said, I take motivation whereever & whenever I find it.
You're going to look stunning on your wedding day.
I too have looked at young, skinny pictures of myself and wondered what happened to that girl!! Your boyfriend is right, the weight will not come off as fast as we hope it will. You just have to stick with it and know that if you keep eating healthy and exercising the scales WILL move!!
Welcome to EP!! You are going to love it here. I wish you much success on your journey.
We are all in the same boat as you - that is one of the reasons EP is so wonderful. Everyone understands and we use eachother as motivation and support. Emails and comments make you feel good about yourself and reading about someone elses day or ideas giv eyou motivation to do it yourself.
My boyfriend and i have been talking about marriage recently - and i REFUSE to be a fate bride. That is one of my big motivators - that and i hate the way i look and feel. And my low self esteem is just as hard on him as it is on me.
