It's Monday and although I hate Mondays - it's not too bad this week. I was good w/my food over the weekend but didn't get in too much acivity. :( Someone can slap my hand for that one. I also did quite a bit of drinking, too - someone definitely needs to slap my hand for that one! A was feeling pretty crappy this morning because he had been drinking/partying for like 4-5 days straight. I told him I usually get the urge to indulge when he is so I'm hoping between the 2 of us, we can cut this out!
I found a buddy online about a week ago and we went walking along a trail here in town. I initially thought we did about 4 miles but I think it was more like 3. Either way, that's more than I do on my own and I'm looking forward to hooking up w/her once a week to keep each other motivated. I also think I'll head to the same trail once or twice a week on my own just because it was nice having a change of scenery.
My Dr was out of the office when I called about getting on Phentaramine last week. I'm supposed to call again this week but I'm back to being indecisive about it. I don't want to feel all jittery plus the cost is a little steep, especially if I'm thinking about joining a gym... Have to ponder that one for a while longer.
Anywaz - I hope everyone is doing well & keeping up the good work!!!
Oh what a weekend!!! I got in some MAJOR activity and I really enjoyed it! We did our grocery shopping Fri night and got to bed fairly early for a weekend night because we volunteered to pick up trash on the river banks Sat morning. I was NOT happy about having to get up @ 7 in the morning on my day off but after I got over the initial b!tchyness and we got down to the Missouri, I had a great time. They piled us in a boat w/about 4 other people, took us way upstream and dropped us off on the Iowa side of the River. We walked along the rocky shore, climbed over weeds & trees and picked up any trash we could see. Lots and lots of plastic bottles & styrofoam. Big hunks of old metal something or other & old carpet. All kinds of trash! I definitely felt the effects on Sun considering my legs & arms were VERY sore - it was such a nice feeling. :)
Sat night we went camping - it was a nice crisp night and although I didn't over-do it with food (alright fine, I did have 2 smores) - I definitely overdid it w/the drinking. That's one of my major downfalls when it comes to my weight - the alcohol. Useless calories/carbs that aren't good for anything. I've cut it down to the weekends but even that isn't enough... I've got to limit it to once or twice a month vs once or twice a week!
One bad thing about being outdoors all weekend was that I came home and I swear I've got @ least 30 mosquito bites. I drenched myself in insect repelant but it didn't seem to help. I'll probably have to drench myself in rubbing alcohol to get rid of the itchyness.
I did call my Dr to see about getting on phenteramine so we'll see. Plus, I found a gal online that wants to get together once or twice a week to walk. Gives me more motivation to keep going.
That's all the latest news. I sure hope everyone was better than I was over the weekend. :) What is it about Sat & Sun that makes everything I work for all week go right out the window?!?!?! :)
It's been weeks since I've been here and it got to the point that I am so disappointed in myself, I didn't want to come back. But, I convinced myself I needed to suck it up and try again.
I was sick around Labor Day and that entire week was pretty much shot. I did my walking/workouts about 5-6 times since and I've been SO good w/my food but nothing seems to be happening. I even went to the Dr to see about getting a prescription for phenteramine since I took it about 10 years ago but he suggested I try a medical nutrition class @ one of the hospitals first. Only problem is after I talked to them and got the costs, I realized it would be a while before I could afford it. I've also been thinking about the Lap-band surgery but I want to try EVERYTHING I can before I dive any further into my research.
I've been SO good w/my food intake - I think I've been under 2000 calories almost every day since I last posted and I've increased my water intake 10 fold but yet NOTHING is happening! I weighed myself last night and I haven't budged!! I just don't get it - I know I need to push myself more as far as working out but I would have thought that the changes I DID make would have paid off in SOME way... Grrrr!!!
I'm also trying to focus more on loving myself - I've been SO hard on myself because of my size but I need to realize that my weigt is only one small factor of who I am as a person. I've been volunteering, dontaing and just trying to be more positive in general. Beating myself up all the time only makes me more depressed which causes me to eat more. It's just a big circle!
I watched an episode of the Biggest Loser the other night and felt so guilty that I was sitting on my couch watching this show while people my size were working their butts off (literally). I'm thinking I am either going to join a gym again or @ least make sure I get in more activity. We've got 3 floors in my apt building and I think they would be perfect to use to get in more activity....
Long story short, I have been an all around slacker. I haven't seen ANY results and it's because I haven't done anything for 2 weeks now! I've got some new workout videos from the library and I also found some cheap ones @ the Goodwill so hopefully I'll enjoy doing 1 or 2 of them. Even if I don't like them, I don't care because I HAVE to do them anyway!
I hope everyone out there has been doing WAY better than me. Please keep your fingers crossed that I don't fall off the wagon again. :)
Well, I've been a slacker the past 2 days although not terribly bad. I walked my mile Wed night but drank some alcohol a little later in the evening which of course lead me to eat nachos @ 10:30 that night. On the positive side, when I checked the chips calories, they weren't as bad as I thought but I still shouldn't have caved. I even felt the guilt the minute I put the plate in the sink!
Yesterday was my major slack off day - I was good w/foods & everything but I didn't walk my mile and I drank! I was @ a concert though and we had to park a couple blocks away so it was nice walking @ least a little bit. I was sweating like a pig inside the place and jumping around like a mad woman so maybe I was able to burn off some calories....??? Probably not enough to make up for the nachos the night before. :)
I don't have any plans for the Labor Day weekend aside from sleeping in as much as possible. :) It's supposed to be beautiful here so hopefully I'll be able to get out and get in some activity. Maybe go play frisbee or @ least run some errands so I'm not sitting on my butt on my couch for 3 days.
Well- I'm back in being good mode today. Lots of water and probably have some soup for lunch....the eggs for breakfast have been working wonders as far as munching/over-eating during the day.
If only the days off were actually calculated by how much "labor" we put in every day...! I hope everyone has a fantastic extended weekend. Stay strong - don't over do it @ those BBQ's. :)
We're on the downhill side of the week so that's always a good thing. I've been good & walked my mile everyday this week even in the pouring rain. For some reason, the rain makes me feel even more motivation to keep going. I think it's because I'm not sweating like a pig when I'm out there - or @ least I can't tell that I am. :)
I found a great article yesterday that I wanted to share. I can't seem to paste a direct link so here's the scoop- it's on the Goodhousekeeping website titled "15 Foods to help you lose". One of the foods is eggs so last night I made myself a few fried eggs in extra virgin olive oil (also one of the 15 foods) and seperated them out into individual dishes w/a slice of multi grain bread in each so I can bring them to work w/me. Since I don't usually eat breakfast, I'm hoping if I start, it will prevent me from overeating @ lunch. Plus, this morning a co-worked brought in Buger King breakfast for everyone and I was able to avoid it completely since I had my own breakfast w/me. YEAH BABY!!
I also found a little cheat method in regards to my morning caffeine. I found these little flavor packets for water called Power Edge. You add them to your water bottle and they have caffeine in them. Only 10 calories a packet, I figure it's gotta be better than 3 cans of my diet soda.
I talked w/A a bit yesterday and he told me he doesn't want me to weight myself yet. He said he doesn't want me to lose my motivation and I think he's right in his thought process. It's been about a week now and I figure I'll go another week before I get on the scale. Hopefully, I be pleasantly surprised. :)
Before I go, I just want to say thank you to those of you that have posted comments. It's helping me TREMENDOUSLY!!! Knowing there are other women out there going through the same things keeps me more motivated to stay on track. Not only for myself but hopefully, I can keep some of you motivated also. :)
Well, here it is Monday and I didn't get ANY walking in over the weekend. It's just my lack of motivation - not that I didn't have time. We went to the carnival on Fri night and had a great time. I didn't even splurge on a funnel cake although I did get a McFlurry on the drive home. Oh well - it's not like I eat them very often. (see that's the mentality that got me this heavy in the 1st place!)
I went shopping on Sat - just kind of wandered around. When A finally woke up, we headed to the art gallery downtown & were able to watch a woman make decorative candles. We asked her to make a black & white one just to see what it would look like and when she was done, it was SO cool that A ended up buying it. For some reason I fell alseep about 7 that night and slept until about 10:30 sun morning - I got like 15 hours of sleep!
We spent all day yesterday cleaning the apt from top to bottom. We were both literally dripping from sweat by the time we were done. I figured that's gotta count for something as far as calories burned, right? :)
I'm back on the wagon today - got my water bottle and planning on hitting the pavement when I get home. I've been eating SO much healthier lately - that in itself is a big accomplishment for me. Limiting my portion sizes has always been tough but I'm getting better @ cutting myself off. Plus, A doesn't ever really care what I make him for dinner so we've been eating WAY healthier - no pork and rarely beef (unless it's a steak every once in a while) I use turkey for pretty much every meal these days. Plus, we've cut out the potatoes & replaced them w/veggies. Baby steps, I know but it's all gotta add up eventually, right?
Man oh man did I freak out yesterday. I don't know if it's the new found weight loss determination, the lack of caffeine, the abundance of water intake or the lack of alcohol consumption but something made me FREAK OUT yesterday. I was crying like a baby for about 3 hours and still don't know what exactly caused it. I have been overly depressed lately and I think it just boiled over last night. Crazy partis, I seem to be doing ok today. Maybe I just needed a good cry...
I've been doing really good w/food but with such a stressful night, I didn't go walking like I should have. But, I think the lack of activity last night is off-set with the fact that I went out walking Wed night and it was POURING outside. I have always loved the rain so that night's walk was actually quite enjoyable.
We've got lots of plans this weekend - a carnival tonight & the zoo on Sat. I have a feeling I will cave and get some goodies but @ least I won't be sitting on my couch watching tv and stuffing my face w/those goodies...
I had to give myself a pat on the back the other day - 4 large pizzas in the office ALL afternoon and I did not eat one slice plus I told the coworkers to take it all home with them so it wouldn't be @ the house. Go me!
Best of luck to everyone over the weekend. Keep your fingers crossed for me that I won't over-do it with the carnival goodies. :)
I have come to the conclusion that everyone is trying to irritate me today. The minute I seem to kick my bad mood, someone manages to put me right back in to negative mode. I'm going to keep fighting it though, I don't want to get home and end up sitting on my couch all night just because I had a crappy day. Not gonna happen!
I walked a mile around the neighborhood last night. I wasn't sure I would want to when I got home from work so I promised a neighbor that I would take her 2 daughters with me. Knowing they wanted to go gave me enough motivation to get it done & over with.
I did ok @ dinner - a BLT w/turkey bacon, light mayo and wheat bread. Not too bad considering last week I would have gone back for seconds or maybe more. I managed to dig up the little willpower I have and avoided stuffing myself to the point I was sick.
It's lunchtime now and I was instructed to order pizza! WTF?!?!? Is everyone plotting against me? Instead of packing on the calories, I went to the library to check out some work out videos. I was SO lost considering I haven't been in a library in over 10 years. Got myself a new card and also checked out some instructional art videos since I've been dabbling in pastels.
Goal for today - make it through the day without eating ANY pizza. Also have to drink more water - I drank about 64 oz yesterday but thinking I should drink @ least 96 oz. Maybe if I'm ambitious, I can get to a gallon a day by the end of the week.
A & I were fighting this morning which is never a good way to start a day. I talked to him over lunch and everything seems to be ok. I just wish I could put my finger on whats been bothering me so much lately. He thinks I'm becoming more moody & I look @ it as becoming more introverted. I guess neither one is good...
It's POURING outside - it would be cool if it would stick around for my walk. I just LOVE this weather!
2 days ago I took out my old high school freshmen yearbook to show my boyfriend something and when I looked @ my picture, I didn't recognize that person. I don't know who she is because I've been looking @ the obese version of myself for so long now that I've convinced myself this is who I am and who I will always be. There's no need for convincing any longer - I REFUSE to allow myself to continue on this path I've been on for 10 years now. All it has brought me is self conciousness, low self esteem, heartache and heartbreak and I'm tired of it. I have been with my boyfriend for almost 3 years now and it's so frustrating to think about how much healthier I COULD be after those 3 years when in actuality, I'm probably even heavier then when he met me. We are planning on getting married in Oct of 2009 which means I have a good amount of time to accomplish my weight loss goal....the hard part will be keeping myself motivated enough to continue. I get on these weight loss "kicks", eat healthy and get in more activity but after 1-2 months, I only have a minimal weight loss so I give up. Does anyone have any ideas/suggestions how to combat this? My boyfriend always tells me that it took me 10 years to gain the weight so I need to realize it may take a while to get it off but I'm not the most patient person. :)
